Fleeting Hope

I feel trapped.
By flesh, by ache, by inertia, by ennui.
By entropy, illusion, confusion, delusion.
All these conspire
to keep me marking time.
I take up space -
a non-contributor in life.
A passer-by.
A watcher.
Held in place.

I am frightened by the future.
Afraid that things wonąt ever be different;
that, as the years roll past me,
I will remain unchanged.
An alarming concept.

I feel disjointed, fragile.
I wonder.
Will my life repeat endlessly in this loop,
or is it a drawn out tunnel, with no relief?
Will my dark, constant companion never leave?
Hope is fleeting.

© Ellie Maziekien

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