Delusion and disappointment

follow me always.

I am swallowed up.

I depend on other people more than I should,

but then no one

really wants to know who I am.

As long as I am comical

and amusing,

I fit in.

When I fail to entertain,

I am snubbed.

I want to play less and talk more

but no one wants to listen.

Loneliness is all around me,

and like a cold, clammy blanket,

it chills me to the bone.

Ellie Maziekien


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