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I held my heart so very close
I would not give it to just anyone near
Many years went by and people too
Then came one, I thought I had nothing to fear.
I didn't know till after it was gone
My heart I'd given away, it she'd won
It felt right, I was safe and secure
Then came the news that she was done.
My world torn apart, I knew not what to do
Then into my life walked a special guest
Just where we stood didn't so much matter
A bond so strong we shared our quest.
Once again I guarded my heart close
I tried to find someone, I tried to look
None caught my eye, though I gave it a try
I learned to be content in my life and my books.
I buried myself in the computer and friends there
Then one close friend introduced a friend she knew
Things were hard, I was struggling, felt out of control
This friend talked with me and helped me through.
Our friendship branched along other avenues
Fans and friends of hers I got to know
Nothing real so to speak, just superficial
Still with my computer and books I lived so.
A few of these fans I began to get to know
Nothing deep, not superficial, acquaintances I'd keep
These were the regulars, always there
Involved in conversations, some light and some deep.
Friend requests started piling in one after another
Accepting them I went, my own list growing on
Then came a flood of them all at once
See the connection, my list grew long.
One such request was a silent passer by
My words had intrigued her, she wanted more
After accepting, we spoke one on one
I was astounded, nearly passed out on the floor.
From that day forward, we talked every day
No topic off limit, everything we did cover
No judgments were made, just acceptance of views
Though our opinions we found so close to each other.
Days turned to weeks and weeks into months
A friendship grew strong, even with lines of gray
My heart I guarded as strong as I could
Even with the lines of gray things were okay.
I awoke one day, only to find a mark on my heart
I was scared, without knowing had I given it away?
I cannot answer, I do not know, only that the bond is strong
I wish I did, that I understood, but that I cannot say.
HDum 7/12/11