Marshall watched warily as Megan paced across the room in front of her. She'd tried to get the woman to sit, but she'd just given her a shaky smile and refused. Something about pacing helping to clear her thoughts. Finally Megan stopped and knelt down in front of her, taking a deep breath and keeping her gaze locked on their entwined fingers.
"I write better than I talk," Megan began apologetically.
"S'okay. I talk better than I write," Marshall responded lightly. A ghost of a smile flitted across Megan's lips and Marshall saw the tense shoulders relax.
"In my books, my characters always know what to do what to say how to act. It always seems so easy." The nervous woman drew in a shaky breath. "I can't do any of that. I get nervous and tongue-tied all tensed up like I'm going to be beaten or something stupid like that."
A thumb glided across the back of her knuckles, calming her.
"I do all right with kissing." She risked a glance up and caught Marshall's smile of agreement. "But when it comes right down to it, that's all I know how to do. I've tried really hard but no matter how much I want to, I've never been able to do it right." A tear escaped and her lips trembled. "Then they they laugh at me. And the few times someone's tried to make love to me, nothing they do works. At first it feels good," she rushed on, "but after a while it just hurts so I make them stop." Another shuddering breath and she unconsciously tightened her grip on Marshall's fingers.
Marshall spread her legs wide apart and pulled Megan until the woman was cradled up against her. She didn't speak, knowing that Megan wasn't through yet; she simply pressed a kiss into the soft hair and squeezed her gently.
Megan shifted slightly and nestled closer. It was easier to speak when she couldn't really see Marshall watching her. "I never had anyone I could talk to. Dad was Well, he was Dad. And Mom and I always started crying the minute a conversation even started getting serious." She chuckled weakly. "God knows what would have happened if I tried to bring this up with her."
"What about your brothers?" Marshall asked quietly.
The dark head shook. "They knew something was wrong, but I talk a good game, so it never really came up. I can't very well let them know they have better luck with women than me, now can I?"
Marshall laughed lightly. "Well, now you can tell them you've got a prettier girlfriend than any of them do."
Megan's head popped up and she stared into warm, green eyes. "Do I?" she asked hesitantly.
"You damn well better think I'm prettier," Marshall growled softly. Then she planted a light kiss on lips that were so temptingly close.
"I'm a basket case," Megan sighed. "Why on earth would you want a sexually dysfunctional girlfriend?"
"I think of it rather as a challenge," Marshall responded smugly. She was rewarded by Megan's snort of laughter and a slap on her thigh. Sobering, she tilted Megan's chin up and looked into slightly reddened eyes. She spoke slowly and deliberately. "I think those other women were the dysfunctional ones. Not you. What you need is someone who'll take things nice and slow and show you how good it can be."
Megan pursed her lips thoughtfully. "Know of anybody like that?" she asked innocently.
The next thing she knew, she was flat on her back with a blonde woman straddling her belly. Much to her bemusement Marshall simply sat on her, forearms resting on her knees, apparently deep in thought and with no regard for the woman she was using as a chair. "I could always call Shelly," Marshall offered at last. "No, she's seeing someone now. Hmm ." More deep thought, while Megan thumped her head back onto the floor and resigned herself to her fate. "Kelly? Nah, she wasn't all that spectacular. Amanda?" A slow, sexy grin crossed Marshall's face and Megan glared. "Amanda was really, really good," she informed her captive audience.
"I'm going to hurt you," Megan threatened, trying her best not to let a smile slip past her. Then her eyes widened as Marshall changed positions again, dropping down so their faces were inches apart.
"How about me?" Marshall breathed out, completely serious now.
"What if I can't do it?" Megan returned anxiously.
"Practice." A kiss." Practice." Another kiss. "Practice." Yet another kiss." And I promise I'll love you anyway."
There was deathly silence in the room and green eyes widened impossibly as Marshall realized what she'd just said.
"Okay." One simple word put Megan's heart into Marshall's hands, trusting her to keep it in one piece.
Long arms tugged Marshall into place and they traded reassuring hugs and kisses late into the evening
*****
Much to Megan's relief and dismay, Marshall never made a move to initiate lovemaking in the following days. Instead, she was showered with affection and warmth, and a lot of good-natured teasing. After their first night together, Megan had checked out of her hotel at the blonde's insistence-no sense paying for something she wasn't going to use, she'd been informed in no uncertain terms-and their days were spent exploring the small town Marshall called home. They made nightly excursions to the tavern for light conversation and pool, before retiring back to Charlie's to snuggle and watch TV or for Marshall to read while Megan typed away on her final draft.
Megan had to admit that, of all the time they spent together, she cherished the nights the most. She'd stopped tensing up when Marshall slipped under the covers with her, and even taken to holding the small blonde in her arms in a gentle embrace without any prompting. And last night last night she'd felt Marshall trembling with excitement when her caresses had gotten too bold.
She was extremely proud of herself for causing that.
Tonight was the night, she decided, and set about making her plans. A hasty conference with Charlie had a bewildered Marshall sent out to a neighboring town for bar supplies. She almost hadn't fallen for the "truck broke down" excuse, but much to Megan's relief, the blonde had driven off with Ben in tow after only a few minutes argument as to why Megan couldn't go with her. Charlie had to feign a sore shoulder for that one, saying he needed Megan to help him lift cases of beer to restock while they were gone.
"Your niece is entirely too suspicious, Charlie," Megan sighed when they were finally out of sight.
"Nah," he winked. "She just hates to be separated from you."
Blue eyes twinkled brightly. "The feeling's mutual, old man." They laughed together as they set about rearranging the living room furniture.
"Oomph!" The couch hit the floor with a dull thud and Megan massaged her aching back. "I think that's got it," she said, surveying the wide, empty area in front of the fireplace.
"You want that little table now, or are you going to bring it in later?"
She considered it for a moment and shook her head. "Later, I think. I don't want to be banging my shins into it when I bring the wood in."
Charlie grinned at her fondly." All right. Well, have a good time tonight. I'm gonna head out now send Ben on his way when they get back."
"He won't even have a chance to get out of the car," Megan laughed as she walked Charlie to the door.
To her surprise, Charlie wrapped her in a hug. "I'm glad you came here, kid," he told her gruffly.
"Thanks for taking me in." Megan cleared her throat and gave him a misty smile. "Now go on with you. I still have lots to do." She pushed him gently out the door and chuckled at his directive not to do anything he wouldn't do. "Conniving old man," she muttered affectionately.
Less than an hour later, she had the wood stacked up, a nice fire blazing merrily, and pillows scattered around the low table in the center of the room. Soft music played on the stereo and all that was missing was a certain beautiful blonde. After fidgeting and pacing for a bit, Megan dragged out her laptop to kill some time.
You know that old saying about things that seem to be too good to be true?
Exactly.
I woke up the following morning and she was gone. Now, not to brag or anything, but I've had my fair share of lovers over the years, and a few of those had crept out in the middle of the night for one reason or another. Nothing unusual there, save for the fact that I always-always-wake up. I'm an extraordinarily light sleeper. Needless to say, I had no clue my little paramour had flown the coop until I'd torn my house apart looking for her.
Not a single sign of her. If it weren't for the scent of our lovemaking lingering in the air, I'd be hard pressed to say anyone had been with me last night at all. Being the easygoing person I am, firm believer in live and let live and all that rot, I took a nice long shower before I proceeded to call every single person who'd been at Lori's party trying to find out who exactly that little blonde was and where she lives.
Hey. Free love's a wonderful thing, but by damn, that girl and I made a connection and I wasn't about to let her slip through my fingers that easily.
Not a one of them knew what I was talking about and they each swore I'd left the party alone.
Best sex I'd ever had in my entire life and it was a figment of my imagination. Go figure.
I generally question my decision to become a private investigator once or twice a week. Then moments like these occur and I breathe a sigh of relief instead. I've gained a lot of contacts throughout my semi-illustrious career in the area.
Let me rephrase that. I've gained a lot of really odd contacts throughout my career.
One of them is a detective with the county, and he happens to know a woman who specializes in, shall we say, abnormal occurrences. Like girlfriends disappearing into thin air. And yes, she's had to help me out before but, honestly, those all had perfectly rational explanations. Really.
Anyway, Misty runs around debunking urban legends, ghost-busting old houses, and showing people how to make those eerie rapping noises without apparently moving. Definitely not the guest to have over on Halloween around Ghost Story Telling time. She ruins all my fun.
So I'm thinking that it's really weird that I'm the only one who remembers the girl and that Misty may just be the ticket in finding out what the hell is happening around here. But let me tell you...if she brings out that damned Ouija board, I'm out of here.
Megan looked at the screen and wondered where on earth this particular story was headed. Not only was it a complete departure from her normal style of writing, but she'd also skipped her meticulous character sketches and outlines that she usually used to keep herself on track.
A car door slamming prompted her to shut down the computer and she grinned wryly at herself. The story, like her relationship with Marshall, was flowing along its own path, and she was content to wait and see where both led her.
*****
She watched as Marshall's eyes made a slow pass over the changes in the living room and sighed inrelief when a beaming smile came her way. "You like?" she questioned softly.
"Oh yes." Marshall glanced around once more, then walked over to give Megan a hug. "Y'know, we went all that way for just one box of supplies. Know anything about that?"
Megan tilted her head back and contemplated deeply. "Um no." She grinned when she got a poke in the belly. "I wanted to surprise you," she admitted finally." Did it work?"
A long, slow kiss was her answer. Taking Marshall's hand, she led her over to the small table and eased her down onto one of the cushions. The meal was a simple one: little sandwiches, cheese and crackers, and a pot of tea for them to drink. At Marshall's questioning look, Megan blushed. "I figured tea would help keep us warm without "
Marshall grinned impishly." Without muddling up our senses too much?"
The flush on her cheeks rivaled the glow of the fire as Megan nodded shyly.
"Well, well, well. Let's get to it then, shall we?"
Megan's heart was pounding rapidly, all of her senses attuned to the soft warmth of Marshall's hand clasping her own. She hoped to God Marshall was paying attention to where they were going, because she was so distracted she could be hit by a truck and not know it for days. Just let her keep holding my hand.
Megan knew she should be scared. She knew she was setting herself up to be hurt again. But it felt so good to be able to laugh with another woman, to play and tease, that she didn't want to think about what might happen later.
Later? She's walking you to your car-there won't be a later. What if she wants a goodnight kiss? Oh God. No...I can do a kiss. I'm pretty good at those. It's just the other stuff I... Don't think about it. No sense borrowing trouble.
Marshall fought with herself to keep the smug smile from her lips. It had been a calculated risk holding her hand out to Megan in silent invitation. She'd had a moment's doubt before her ego stepped in and reminded her she was irresistible. There were enough notches on her bedposts to prove that
little fact.
Her gaze settled on the vehicles across the street, and she wondered idly which was Megan's. The Green Mustang? No, not her color. The black Cougar? Now that was a possibility. The beat up Chevy van? Oh, please. Iwouldn't be caught dead in that thing.
The street lamps glowed softly under the night sky and a chill breeze caused both women to shiver. The air held a taste of snow, though it was still early in the season for it. The previous year had pretty much skipped Winter-Fall had seemingly held out through the months until Spring could take over its duties. This year Winter promised to reclaim its place with a vengeance.
Megan stepped up onto the sidewalk and reluctantly released Marshall's hand. She rubbed her arms briskly, wishing she had brought her jacket into the bar with her, then looked sheepishly at the small blonde next to her. "I have an extra coat, if you like."
Marshall tilted her head and smiled up at the dark haired woman. "If you want to keep talking out here in the cold, then yes. Bring it on." The teasing lilt of her voice softened the remark and Megan chuckled.
"C'mon." She gestured with her head and strode toward the van. She didn't realize she was missing her companion until she had unlocked the passenger door and was halfway inside. She poked her head back out with a puzzled frown." You coming?"
"You're kidding." The comment slipped out before she could stop it and she hurried to the door of the van before Megan could get inside and slam it shut. "Now, c'mon . You just don't look like a van type of person."
Dark brows were furrowed and Marshall was sure she was going to be treated to a caustic remark, but Megan just sighed. "It carries everything I need, and the jackets are in the back. I just thought you'd like to come in out of the wind for a few minutes."
Marshall's eyes twinkled as she came up close behind Megan and pushed her forward lightly. "Now that I think about it, I bet a van could really come in handy some Oh my." Green eyes widening, Marshall stepped around the bucket seat and into the back of the van.
A small sink, stove, and refrigerator were tucked along one side, cupboards lined up above them. Across the back, where doors would normally be, was a love seat draped by a dark blue afghan. Along the driver's side was a long twin bed covered by a comforter that matched the afghan. A couple sweaters and jackets were folded neatly on top of the comforter and Marshall turned a questioning gaze to her new friend.
Megan had to duck her head from hitting the roof as she moved further inside and sat down on the love seat. "I wasn't sure what to wear tonight, so I had these out." She shrugged. "Didn't know I'd have company."
"I thought you were staying at a motel?"
Megan flushed. "Yeah, but I don't like lugging things around, so I kept some clothes in here just in case." Her fingers plucked idly at the fleece-lined leather jacket lying on top, and she spoke again. "When I'm traveling, I like to find RV camps sometimes. I can hook up to their electric and not have to worry about thin walls or nosy neighbors." Blue eyes darted up to meet emerald green. "I like the quiet of the woods sometimes."
"But you don't like to rough it," Marshall responded lightly, a soft smile curving full lips. A sandy brow lifted in silent question as she started to pick up the jacket. When Megan nodded, Marshall slipped the heavy coat on and sighed happily. "I love fleece." The lining was warming her up already and she inhaled a deep breath of worn leather.
Megan smiled as she watched the blonde's eyes close in bliss. Marshall looked nothing more than a small child wrapped up in her Daddy's coat as she scooted back to lean against the fake wood paneling decorating the van's interior, eyes still squeezed shut. Taking advantage of the short silence, Megan sorted through the clothing, finally pulling out a thick, charcoal colored sweater. She hesitated, then shrugged broad shoulders. She had a t-shirt on under the flannel shirt so, even if Marshall opened her eyes, she wouldn't see anything.
Well, not much. Really. Except Megan hadn't anticipated exactly how cold it was in the van, and she'd forgotten she wasn't wearing a bra. A pair of glittering green eyes closely observed the removal of the flannel shirt and Marshall had to struggle with the need to lick suddenly dry lips. The rustle of fabric had alerted her, causing her to open her eyes slightly to the wondrous sight of pert nipples straining against thin cotton. She could almost feel the weight of those soft mounds in her hands, could almost taste them in her mouth. Oh my God.
The torture session wasn't over yet. Megan shivered against the cold air and thrust her arms into the warm sleeves of the sweater. Her upper body contorted as she pulled her head through the opening and snugged the soft material over her breasts and stomach. Freeing her dark mane from the sweater, she chanced a glance at Marshall, wondering briefly if the woman had fallen asleep because of the prolonged silence.
They were only a few feet apart-close enough for Megan to see the rapid beating of the pulse point at the base of Marshall's neck and hear her erratic breathing. Slowly, so slowly, Marshall's wide eyes traveled from Megan's breasts up to her face. "You're beautiful." The words were more sigh than sound. The dark color of the sweater brought out the blue of Megan's eyes, enhancing her tanned
features, and fitting like a thick second skin.
Megan felt her heart accelerate to match the blonde's and she smiled shyly, her hands shaking slightly as she finished adjusting her clothing. Finally she sat still, not quite sure what to do next, hands smoothing reflexively over her knees. A few inane comments were discarded as soon as she thought of them, then she drew her gaze back up to meet Marshall's." Thank you." Her face flushed again.
Marshall laughed suddenly, the bright sound startling her dark companion. At Megan's curious look, she smiled and shook her head. "We're sitting in a cold van, staring at each other, and handing out compliments while we shiver. How 'bout we get something to eat, and save the rest of the compliments for later?"
There was that word again. Later. Megan steeled her nerves. "I thought you were just I thought maybe you wanted me to take you home." She forced herself to keep her eyes locked with Marshall's. She was thirty years old, for God's sake. Old enough to handle a late night chitchat.
With a gorgeous blonde. Who had desire fairly sparking out of her eyes.
"My home is an eight hour drive away. I'd rather eat first." Marshall's lips quirked in a wry grin. Megan was beginning to look uncomfortable again, so Marshall relented. "After we eat you can drop me off at Charlie's house, if you want. I just wanted to get to know you a little better."
"By staying up all night?" Megan asked with a chuckle, her nerves settling for the moment.
"Whatever it takes," Marshall answered with a grin. "Now, c'mon. Will this hotrod make it around the corner to IHOP?" Her answer this time was a light punch on the arm as Megan stepped past her to climb into the driver's seat.
Two waitresses and a busboy sat in the booth reserved for employees and watched the young couple bantering back and forth. Debbie nudged Allan to get his attention." Watch this. She's gonna do it again.
Giggles erupted as Marshall snitched a piece of bacon from the dark haired woman's plate. She had been stealing bits and pieces of food from Megan's plate almost from the time it had been delivered, much to Megan's consternation.
"What's wrong with your food?" Megan asked in exasperation.
"Not a thing. But as slow as you're eating, I figured someone should get it while it's still hot." A bit of sausage disappeared into her mouth.
"Then maybe we should get to the hotel," Megan muttered softly as she shifted in her seat.
Marshall choked and reached for her water, trying to laugh and swallow at the same time. She finally managed to compose herself again, though her eyes were dancing with surprised delight. "Where the hell did that come from?"
"You weren't supposed to hear that." Megan had been struggling with her attraction to the blonde all evening, the close quarters of the van not helping in the least. A hint of light perfume mixing with leather was driving her to distraction. The cute wrinkle that appeared across the bridge of Marshall's nose whenever she smiled didn't help either.
Marshall let another great opening slip by untaken. She'd practically oozed charm and subtlety for the last few hours and it was having the intended affect. She couldn't recall the last time she had worked so hard to turn a woman on. A simple hi and a smile usually did the trick.
With studied nonchalance, she polished off the last of her meal and sat back to slowly sip her coffee. Sparkling green eyes studied Megan as the tall woman played with a slice of toast. "Charlie tells me you've been here for a month."
Ice blue eyes darted up to meet green. "Yeah."
"Looking for a job?"
"No."
Long, slender fingers wrapped around a coffee cup and Marshall lost her train of thought for a moment. "Can I ask why you're here?"
"Why are you here?" Megan shot back instantly.
"Fair enough," Marshall responded slowly. She cocked her head slightly, debating with herself over how truthful she should be.
Charlie had called her and told her about Megan with typical bluntness. "She's just like you, Marshall. All spit and fire and vinegar. But hers is buried so deep, me and Ben can't dig it out. Can you get some time off and give us a hand?"
She'd been right on the edge of refusing because she had too many loose ends to tie up at the architecture firm when Charlie had said the magic words. His voice had deepened with concern. "I don't think she's been treated right by her lady friends, if you know what I mean."
"What? Someone hurt her? What do you mean?" Marshall's voice had risen in panic, visions of some poor woman being beaten mercilessly by other women racing through her head.
"Not physically hurt. God." And then Charlie had started chuckling, completely confusing his niece. "The girl's six feet tall and all muscle, for Pete's sake!"
"Ooo, really? What's she look like?" Marshall had always had a thing for taller women.
"Tall, dark haired, blue-eyed, gorgeous Hey! Get your mind out of the gutter, girl! I think she just needs someone to show her a good time."
Marshall had sighed heavily into the phone. "Hell, you and Ben can do that just as well as me, Charlie." But her mind was already forming a picture of Megan and she felt herself weakening.
"Not as good as you, my dear," he had answered knowingly. "We don't have the right parts."
After she finished laughing her butt off, she had asked him about the women again. "So what did you mean when you said they didn't treat her right?"
"There's a lot of sadness in those blue eyes, Marshall. And even though she likes women, she only talks about guys that she knows back home. Woman pretty as her should be beating girls off with a stick."
"Ah, hell. I guess I can come down there and see what's what. If nothing else, I'll get to see you two old geezers again."
They'd laughed and hung up the phone. Now here it was a week later, and she was in deeper trouble than she'd ever been in her whole life. Megan was even prettier than her overworked imagination could come up with, and the sadness in those eyes tore Marshall to shreds. There was no way she could force herself to just play games with this woman. She wanted to make her smile, and keep her smiling. For a long time.
It was scaring the hell out of her.
Megan watched Marshall carefully, her own thoughts racing over the last few days: Ben disappearing; Charlie's vague explanation that he had gone on an errand; Ben finally showing back up with Marshall in tow; Marshall attaching herself to Megan all night-what were they all up to?
Megan had no illusions about herself. She knew she was attractive-but she also knew what always happened after she'd been approached. Megan was painfully shy around women and horrible with small talk. If by some miracle she made it through those inadequacies and got to the privacy of the bedroom, she was arguably the world's worst lover. She'd been told that often enough. It had to be true.
When Marshall finally spoke, Megan's full attention was riveted on her. It was disconcerting, to say the least. "Charlie is a very caring man. He's always been able to feel other people's pain as if it were his own." The words came cautiously. Marshall had the strangest feeling she only had one shot at this. If she blew it, she lost everything.
"He called me and told me you could use a friend. Someone you could talk to and have a good time with." Green eyes met blue and held steady, full lips curving upward into a quirky grin. "I'm pretty good at talking and having a good time."
"You came here to see me? Just because Charlie asked you to?" Megan's chest tightened and she could feel the old pressure building from deep inside. She took in a deep breath to try to hold off the rising panic. It wouldn't take long for the trembling to start, the uncontrollable tears to fall, and the need to escape overwhelming her.
She feels sorry for you. That's the only reason she's here.
Marshall saw the blue eyes darken, heard the slight tremor in Megan's low voice, and could almost feel the tension radiating from Megan like waves of fire. Oh damn. Wrong thing to say. Wrong thing.
"Megan," she whispered softly, reaching out to touch a tightly clenched hand. "Charlie raised me since I was six. He knows more about me than what I even know."
"So when a woman comes in that he feels sorry for, he calls you and you come to sweep her off her feet." Megan's smile was bitter.
Marshall ran her thumb across the back of Megan's hand, her eyes almost begging the dark haired woman to listen to her words. "He's never called me like this before. I figured, whoever the woman was, she must be pretty special." She smiled and squeezed the dark-haired woman's hand. "And she is."
"You don't even know me," Megan murmured, eyes resolutely on her cup.
"But I want to know you." Marshall was surprised at the vehemence of her own response. And she realized with no little amazement that it was true. "Look. If you want, we can just hang around together for the next few days. I needed a break from work and you could probably use a break from those two old busy-bodies." She flashed Megan a grin, then shrugged casually. "If you'd rather I didn't come around, I'll leave you alone. No big deal. Well, maybe it would be a big deal ." Marshall felt a flush creep up her neck and was startled.
A dark eyebrow rose sharply. This was the first time Megan had seen the small blonde lose her composure and, for some reason, it made her feel infinitely better. "I came here because there was nothing left where I was." Megan's voice was soft and low. "I packed up the stuff I needed, got in my van, and just started driving. When I got here...." she smiled slightly and darted a glance at Marshall before she returned her gaze to their clasped hands. "When I got here, something told me to stay."
She shrugged uncomfortably, not used to opening up so much to another woman, much less a practical stranger. "I'd I'd really like to spend some time with you. If you really want to. I mean you don't have to just because Charlie thinks I'm a basket case."
Marshall laughed warmly. "He doesn't think you're a basket case!" She looked around the empty restaurant and then leaned forward until her face was inches from Megan's. "He thinks you might be able to save me from myself."
Megan's heart leapt into her throat and she struggled to breathe. What on earth is that perfume she's wearing? Whatever it was, it was sending jolts of pleasure all along her body. "How how do you mean?"
"He says I work too hard. And play too hard." Marshall winked as she sat back in the booth again, much to Megan's relief and disappointment. "I think he's hoping you'll settle me down a bit."
"I don't know how I could do that," Megan admitted quietly.
"Why don't we give it a try and see?"
"Okay." Megan smiled shyly and dug into her pants pocket for a tip. "I think I'm about ready to go now, though. Is that okay?"
"Only if you let me pay for this. You can get lunch tomorrow. I mean, today." Marshall flashed another grin and Megan returned it.
"Deal."
Megan caught a glimpse of a taut stomach out of the corner of her eye and she stopped abruptly. Using an edge of the damp towel, she wiped down the mirror to get a clearer view of herself, frowning slightly at what she saw.
Long, dark hair, wet from her shower, lay in tangles along her broad shoulders. Fading tan lines from the summer sun showed mute evidence that she favored shorts and tank tops. She eyed her hands critically as they rested on the curve of her hips. Too large, just like my feet, she sighed.
Her upper body and legs seemed to stretch on forever and she winced in memory of towering over classmates, who called her Giraffe so often that she had taken to slouching to make herself appear shorter. The gleam in the basketball coach's eyes when he had asked her to try out for the team had risen her hopes, but they were dashed cruelly when she found out-in front of thirty other girls-that she couldn't dribble and run at the same time.
Her parents were determined that she would be as much of an athlete as her three brothers, so she gathered her courage and tried out for the Cross Country team next. Not as glamorous as the other sports but it was a sport. Thankfully, that worked out better than the basketball fiasco, and her First Place ribbons were proudly displayed next to her brothers' football, basketball, baseball, and soccer trophies.
Megan sighed again as she eyed her slender, muscular form one more time before heading into the main
room to dress. She may still be tall and gangly, but at least the running she had continued in the years since high school had given her nice muscle definition. She wondered briefly what Marshall would think of her body, then shook her head in embarrassment. Fat chance she'll ever see it.
Megan resisted the urge to straighten the covers on the king-size bed and strode instead to the large desk tucked in the corner of the room. Flipping open the lid of her laptop, she made sure all the wires were connected properly and began to download her email. She dragged her hiking boots over while she waited, and chuckled as she saw it was still receiving mail when she was done lacing the boots.
They're at it again, she thought with a grin. She often wondered if any of the pups worked, considering the amount of mail they generated. Then again, she'd contributed her fair share so she couldn't really say too much about it.
A red flag on one of her private emails caught her attention. She smiled a bit as she opened it.
Hey, Jordan. It's your friendly neighborhood editor. You do realize that you only have two more weeks to send me the final draft of "Starlight and Roses" so I can have a remote chance of having it ready for a January release...
My fingers are itchy and I have extra cartridges of red ink all ready and waiting!
Not that I'm pressuring you or anything...by all means, take your time.
Velvet
Megan snorted quietly after she had read the nicely worded "get your ass to work" message. Her eyes gleamed as she typed up her response.
Velvet. How on earth am I supposed to take someone seriously when they use Velvet as their handle? Have you ever considered changing it to Bull Dog? For some reason that seems so much more appropriate. laughing.
Have no fear, you'll get the final draft in plenty of time. You know I hate to rush perfection. Hope I don't melt the screen with this one...laptops weren't built for steamy sex scenes.
Jordan
Her eyes twinkled with laughter as she went through the rest of the mail, fingers flying over the small keyboard as she added a few comments to the current thread on Pack. Why they were discussing the pros and cons of flannel underwear was beyond her, but what the heck.
After a half hour of typing and deleting, she finally had her inbox cleared. She leaned back and stretched luxuriously and wondered if she should write a bit more. Checking the clock, she saw it was almost noon. Damn. She'll be here any minute.
Megan eyed the flowery beds pread and gave in to the urge to straighten it. Nothing worse than a messy bed when you had company coming over. That quick task accomplished, she wandered around the room aimlessly. The TV was turned on, then shut off again; emails checked and deleted; the bed sprawled upon until she got back up hastily. She wasn't sure it would be wise to be on the bed when Marshall arrived. In her nervousness it never occurred to her that she'd have to get up to let the woman in anyway.
By the time the knock came on her door, Megan was a nervous wreck. Her hands were trembling and sweaty, her hair slightly tousled from running her fingers through it, and her heart was threatening to pound out of her chest. She took a few deep, calming breaths before finally opening the door to greet her visitor.
Marshall's green eyes were almost blue in the soft, cool sunlight, and they sparkled with impish mischief. "Are you ready?" she asked breathlessly.
Megan's eyes narrowed with suspicion. "What do you have behind your back?"
Marshall stood, legs slightly spread and one hand tucked behind her. She looked entirely too cheerful for the little amount of sleep she had gotten. Megan knew there must be something she was missing.
"Give me a kiss and I'll tell you," Marshall responded teasingly.
Megan pursed her lips and felt her heart accelerate. After being teased and flirted with for most of the night by this egocentric blonde, she was ready to knock her down a peg or two. After all, she did have some pride. Her eyes flashed with a wicked glint and she saw Marshall's widen in surprise. Before she could think about it any further, she tilted her head and leaned down, her hands resting lightly on Marshall's waist as she kissed her solidly.
She vaguely heard a soft splat as something landed on the sidewalk outside her door, then she centered her attention on the silky smooth lips beneath hers and the wonderful sensation of Marshall's arms sliding around to hold her tightly. Even through the thickness of the two shirts she was wearing, Megan could feel that one of Marshall's hands was much colder than the other.
Megan eased back reluctantly, ending the kiss. She smiled slightly as it took a moment for Marshall's eyes to open, their color deepened to jade. "So what was it?" she asked huskily.
"What was what?" Marshall returned, still a bit stunned by the kiss.
"Behind your back. What were you holding?" Megan was rather proud of the fact that, not only was she not in a puddle on the floor, she was able to carry on the conversation as if nothing had happened. Granted, her grip on Marshall's waist was about the only thing holding her up, but still .
"Oh. Umm snowball. It snowed earlier and I was going to throw it at you." She grinned suddenly and hugged the taller woman. "Maybe I should just carry one around so you'll kiss me again."
Megan blushed and untangled herself from the embrace. "'A Snowball's Chance.' I should use that for the title of my next book," she mumbled as she turned to reenter the room. She didn't see Marshall's look of astonishment as the blonde followed her inside.
"I have to put my laptop in the safe, okay? Then we can go."
Marshall plopped full length across
the bed, propping her chin in her hands and staring at Megan as she unhooked the laptop. "You write books? What kind?" Curiosity was killing her. She just couldn't picture Megan as a writer. She watched in fascination as the blush covered every inch of that lovely face and crept down Megan's neck and she smiled smugly.
"I umm write romance novels," Megan replied as quietly as possible.
Sandy brows shot up in surprise. "Really? I love romance novels. Are you published? Have I read any of them?" She sat up and swung her legs over the side of the bed, eyes bright with interest.
Megan put the laptop in the safe and did her best not to look at Marshall. "Yes, I'm published. And I have no idea if you've read them I don't know what you have in your bookcase."
Marshall wiggled her eyebrows and laughed. "We can fix that easy enough. So tell me do you use your own name or a pseudonym?"
Megan sighed and sat down at the desk, wondering if she should just call room service for lunch since it didn't look like they were going anywhere anytime soon. Against her better judgment she made direct eye contact with Marshall. Those vivid green eyes were fairly dancing with anticipation and she groaned inwardly. "Jordan Michaels," she answered finally.
Marshall's eyebrows shot up and her mouth gaped open in shock. "Jordan Michaels?" she finally squeaked out in astonishment. "Love's Burning Flame, Broken Promises, Meltdown?"
"To name a few, yes," Megan replied dryly.
Marshall was stunned. Jordan Michaels' books were so erotic that you broke out in a sweat just from reading the jacket blurbs. She started to speak again and then just stopped and stared at the dark-haired woman, who was now intently playing with one of the buttons on her shirt.
"Okay," she managed to get out. "Give me a minute here." Marshall eased off the bed and went to the front of the room to stare out of the huge window that gave a spectacular view of the parking lot. She freaks out when she's flirted with, but writes books that send women nationwide running to take cold showers...after glaring at their partners who must obviously be doing something wrong because they sure as hell didn't make love that way. She grinned involuntarily. She'd gotten half of her techniques from those books.
Shaking her head in exasperation, she turned around and spotted Megan playing around with a pen. She looked even more uncomfortable than she did the night before, if that was possible.
Marshall had no idea why she did it. Had no idea why Megan stirred up such a protective, sensitive streak in her. But she found herself standing behind Megan, lightly massaging her neck and shoulders. "You're a pretty complicated person, huh."
Tense muscles shifted under her fingers as Megan shrugged. "Yeah, I guess so."
Marshall stared off into space, hands continuing to gently rub away the tightness of Megan's shoulders and upper arms. She came back to herself and looked down at the dark head that had bowed to give her hands better access. She slowly leaned over and wrapped her arms around Megan's upper body, her mouth resting against Megan's ear. "Wanna snuggle?" she murmured softly.
Megan's entire body jerked and her hands reached up to clutch Marshall's forearms. "I-uh-I'm not sure that's a good idea."
Marshall eased around her, careful to make sure she kept in constant contact. Squatting on her heels, she took Megan's hands in her own and squeezed them lightly. "C'mon. I'll be good, I promise."
"I bet you say that to all the girls," Megan shot back ruefully.
Marshall chuckled. "Well, yeah, actually I do. How 'bout if I promise to behave too? I've never said that before," she added hopefully. Not until you, anyway.
"Can we eat afterwards? Food, I mean?" Megan felt herself blushing again and closed her eyes in dismay.
Marshall cupped Megan's cheek with the palm of her hand and waited patiently for the blue eyes to open again. When they did, she offered a gentle smile. "Of course we can. I picked a special place for us."
Megan's heart jumped. Us. God, that sounds nice. She smiled back nervously and let the small blonde lead her to the bed.
It was the longest three feet ofher life.
Marshall leaned on her side as Megan situated herself on the bed, laying flat on her back with her arms held stiffly to her sides. This was going to be a little more difficult than Marshall had thought.
"How old are you?" she asked impulsively.
Wide blue eyes stared back at her.
"Thirty."
A fierce anger rushed through Marshall, startling her with its intensity. Thirty years old and she's afraid of snuggling, for God's sake. She just barely restrained herself from asking for a list of Megan's ex-girlfriends and their addresses. Somehow she didn't think Megan would appreciate it if she went out and beat the crap out of them.
"Why?" Megan asked hesitantly, a hint of fear in her eyes.
Marshall thought quickly. "You look a lot younger, that's all." She was rewarded with a bright, shy smile and Marshall was inordinately pleased with herself." I'm twenty-five, by the way."
Megan nodded and resumed staring at the ceiling, trying not to notice that Marshall was wiggling around on the bed.
"C'mere."
The blonde had scooted a little closer and flipped onto her back, bracing her head on a pillow. She was looking at Megan expectantly. Megan gathered up her courage and moved close enough to put her head on Marshall's shoulder, though she tried to make sure they didn't touch anywhere else.
Marshall wasn't having any of that. A gentle tug with her left arm pulled Megan to her side, their bodies flush against each other. Just as gently, she took Megan's left hand and placed it on her stomach, lacing her shorter fingers into Megan's strong, slender ones.
"There. Much better."
Slowly, very slowly, Megan relaxed into the soft body pressed against her. Her eyes fluttered closed and she inhaled deeply, Marshall's scent surrounding her and sending waves of pleasure through her. She really had to know maybe she could spray the interior of her van with the stuff when she had to leave. "What kind of perfume do you wear?"
"I don't wear perfume," came the soft whisper.
"Oh." Oh. That's just her? Megan swallowed hard and tried to figure out how to capture some of that scent. The fact that her chin was pillowed on the gentle swell of Marshall's breast pointed out the most obvious way, and her heart began to race.
It took a few moments, but a realization that had been prodding at Megan came to the forefront of her mind. The heartbeat she could feel under her hand was racing just as fast as her own. She lifted her head and gazed into deep green eyes that seemed to caress her.
"I'm scared, too," Marshall admitted quietly, untangling her fingers to trace the smooth line of Megan's cheek.
"Really?" Megan shifted so that she was leaning on her elbow looking down at the small blonde. She searched Marshall's face intently, surprised to see a slight tremor in Marshall's lower lip. "Why are you scared?"
Marshall chuckled ruefully and tried to duck her head away, only to have her chin caught in a strong, yet gentle, grip. When she finally met Megan's eyes, her own were filled with a strange longing. She took a deep breath and stepped into a place she never thought she'd have the strength to go. "Because I care for you. And it doesn't make any sense.
And I'm afraid that if I say one thing wrong, you'll run out of my life before I ever get the chance to know what love is."
"Oh." Yes. I'm a writer. This is why I make the big bucks. Then why can't I think of a single thing to say to that?
So she said nothing. Simply leaned down and ever so gently touched her lips to Marshall's, sliding her fingers from Marshall's chin to the back of her neck to tangle in the silky blonde hair. One of them made a sound deep in her throat-she was never sure which of them it was-then Marshall's lips were parting beneath hers and she was swept away into a moist warmth that threatened to drown her.
Marshall fought for some semblance of sanity even as her body struggled to get closer to Megan. This was nothing like the kiss in the doorway. That had lasted just long enough to wake her senses. This-this kiss had her gasping and throbbing every nerve ending alive with delight and screaming for more.
Suddenly the woman above her tensed and jerked away, sending Marshall crashing back to earth painfully. Her eyes snapped open in stunned disbelief. "What! What?!"
She met dark blue eyes wild with fear and belatedly realized she had both hands clenched tightly to Megan's hips, holding the dark-haired woman forcibly to her. She let go instantly, though every instinct she had was begging her to hold on tighter.
Megan was up and across the room like a shot, leaning heavily against the wall and breathing in great gulps of air. "Jesus H. Christ on a raft, Marshall!" she finally sobbed out.
"What?!" Marshall repeated again heatedly. "You kissed me, Megan. Remember? All I did was lay here and enjoy it." A lot. Too much, as a matter of fact. But she was damned if she was going to tell Megan that.
"You...I...you..." Megan gave up and slid down the wall to sit huddled on the floor.
Marshall moved to the end of the bed and peered at Megan. Part of her was mad as hell and another part was busy reminding her of her own shortcomings. That part got even louder as she realized Megan was crying.
"Hey now...don't cry." She slid off the bed and crouched in front of the huddled form, keeping her voice as gentle as possible. "I'm sorry, Megan. Really. I didn't even know I was doing that." She cast around desperately for something else to say to get Megan to uncover her face and look at her.
Well, damn me then, she decided. "You know, it's your fault." Marshall got the full force of shocked, red-rimmed blue eyes and her heart lurched. She arched an eyebrow cockily. "If you weren't such a good kisser, I would never have lost control."
Megan smiled shakily at that. "I wasn't expecting that," she admitted hesitantly.
Marshall moved around until she was leaning against the wall next to Megan, careful not to touch her. "Expecting what? Me to lose control, or you to turn out to be such a good kisser?" She allowed herself to grin when Megan nudged her shoulder into her.
"Smart-ass." Megan's eyes widened again as she shot a look at the small blonde. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to..."
"Yes you did," Marshall laughed. "I've been called worse before and probably will again. No worries here, sweetheart." She tried to keep her expression casual as she realized what she said. But Megan simply reached over and shyly took her hand, not saying a word.
They stayed that way for a long time. Content just be close to each other without any pressures or expectations.
Megan let the warmth of Marshall's hand soothe her as she tried to figure out what was happening to her. She had managed to bury her need to be close to other women-channeling her desire through the characters in her books-and whenever it raised its head in real life she had only to remember what happened the last time she had walked into the bar in Terrance.
Megan and her three brothers had just gotten back from a rare week's vacation together. They had terrorized a town a hundred miles north with their laughter, jokes, and high spirits and Megan was feeling pretty good about herself. The boys had done a good job of taking her mind of her last dating fiasco, so she was completely unprepared for the conversation she overheard shortly after arriving at the bar.
"I'll tell you what, girls. She may be tall, dark, and gorgeous, but she's a cold fish in bed!" That statement was followed by a chorus of: "I can't believe that!" "You're kidding!" "Really? Man, I thought she'd be hot!"
The redhead had gone on to describe the disastrous evening in humiliating detail, right down to Megan's inability to orgasm. "And, trust me, it sure wasn't for my lack of trying!" She laughed harshly.
Megan had just stood, frozen with embarrassment and shame, while the bartender studiously cleaned glasses and tried to pretend she hadn't heard the cutting remarks. It was the outlining of the plan to buy the dark haired beauty an inflatable doll that finally drove Megan away. She barely managed to hold in her tears until she reached the safety of her car.
She never went back.
Instinct. Everyone said when you made love your body would know what to do even if your mind didn't. Megan decided that there must be something inherently wrong with her because, no matter how badly she might want or desire someone, when it came right down to it her body didn't have a clue.
"Megan?"
"Yeah?"
"You're hurting me."
"Damn!" Megan let go of Marshall's hand like it was on fire. "I'm sorry. Why didn't you say something?"
Marshall grinned a little as she looked into abashed blue eyes. "I did, you nut." She rubbed her right hand lightly with her left, trying to get feeling back into it. "Are you okay? You kind of went off there for a minute."
Megan expelled a breath of air and nodded, her eyes going distant again. "I was just thinking about home. And some girls there." She stopped and shook her head.
"Some girls?" Marshall's smile got even wider, while she tried to ignore the sudden stab of jealousy. "You go, Megan! Keeping them on a string, or what?"
"Stop!" Megan nudged the
blonde with her shoulder again. "I didn't mean it that way. And it was a few years ago, after my last date ."
Marshall leaned forward and wrapped her arms around her knees, eyes intent on the woman next to her. "Your last date was a few years ago?" she asked incredulously.
Megan flushed scarlet. "It was a really bad date," she replied quietly.
A sandy brow shot up and Marshall shook her head. "I guess so." She pursed her lips and studied the huddled form of her friend. "Hey. Why don't we " The ringing of the phone interrupted her and she almost fell over when Megan leapt to her feet and dashed to the phone.
Marshall stretched out along the floor and watched in amazement as Megan changed into a completely different person right in front of her eyes. She stood straight and tall, shoulders back, and a wide smile on her face. Even her voice was different-a soft drawl that sounded almost southern, but not quite.
"You're always interrupting something," Megan responded laughingly to the person on the other end. "How are things going down there? You doing all right? Any new ladies I should know about before I come home?"
Marshall felt an odd pain in her chest at the last question and she sat up, unconsciously straining her ears to hear the conversation better.
Megan paced back and forth in front of the desk, chuckling as the other person continued to speak. She held her hand up in a stopping motion as if that would actually shut whoever it was up, and Marshall shook her head. Who was this relaxed, happy person and why couldn't she make Megan laugh like that?
"Susan? You're going out with Susan now? What happened to Sharon? And Melody? And what was her name the one you fought with Chris over? Oh yeah Cheryl. You what?" Megan stopped her pacing and laughed until she had tears in her eyes. "Oh my God you didn't! I can't believe you set her up with him. He's such a loser!"
She resumed her pacing, then stopped again suddenly, her eyes shooting toward Marshall and a blush rising to her face. "Well, umm yeah. I guess you could say that."
She turned her back and Marshall was immediately intrigued. Rising quietly, Marshall moved closer and sat on the edge of the bed. Megan still had her back turned and her voice had gotten a lot softer. She was almost whispering.
"I don't know, Robbie. She's nice." A snort in response to a comment. "She'd mop the floor with them in a heartbeat. What? Yeah look, Robbie, I don't want to talk about them." Megan was quiet for a moment, her body tense, then she relaxed again. "Her name's Marshall and she's a lot cuter than anybody you've ever brought home." The teasing was evident in her voice.
Marshall grinned and preened herself smugly. This is good. I'm getting compared favorably to someone, at least. She missed the next bit of the conversation as she congratulated herself, but swiftly brought her attention back when she heard her name mentioned again.
"She's not like them at all. She well she listens to me. And we played pool, then went out for dinner." Another pause. "Okay, so it was a really late dinner fine, Robbie. It was breakfast, okay?" Megan chuckled, her fingers stretching out to capture a pen to play with while she talked. "Where is she now?" Megan turned and her eyes locked with twinkling green. "A lot closer than I thought she was," she answered dryly, taking in Marshall's new listening spot. Marshall simply shrugged at her and smiled impishly.
"Look, Robbie, I have to go. Tell Mom I'll be home in a week or so, maybe longer." Megan was swiftly losing track of the conversation as Marshall's expression went still and quiet. Her voice took on an urgent quality, "Robbie, scratch that. Tell her it might be another " She looked at Marshall questioningly and got a half smile and another shrug in answer. " another month or so. I don't know."
It took another few minutes, but Megan was finally able to hang up the phone. "My younger brother," she said, in answer to Marshall's questioning look. "He doesn't like to go too long without talking to me. I've never figured out why."
Marshall just smiled back." Maybe because he misses you?"
"Naw! That can't be
it there's a law against mush in our family." Megan laughed a little and plopped down on the bed. She didn't notice the frown her flippant answer caused. "That boy has so many girlfriends he could form his own volleyball team!"
Marshall's eyes lit up." Hey! Maybe we could ." She stopped abruptly and cleared her throat. "Umm, maybe we should get going. To umm lunch, I mean."
Megan eyed her companion thoughtfully. "Uh huh. Just how many volleyball teams could you staff anyway? Or do I want to know?" Megan took a perverse pleasure in seeing the blush darkening Marshall's cheeks, and actually laughed out loud when the blonde grabbed for her jacket and tugged it on. She shrugged into her own coat and followed the muttering woman out the door.
Megan stopped on the edge of the sidewalk and stared in consternation at the tiny vehicle parked outside her hotel room. "I'm not getting in that."
"Oh, c'mon, Megan. It's a fun car to drive around!" Marshall patted the top of the metallic blue Miata, while her eyes sparkled with glee. She'd had a grand time taking the corners when she was driving over...thank God she had seen that cop before he spotted her. She didn't need another speeding ticket.
Megan crossed her arms over her chest and jutted her chin out. It was
suspiciously close to a belligerent pout. "Marshall, I can't get in that thing! My legs are longer than the damn engine, for Pete's sake!" Her legs hurt just thinking about trying to fold herself into the tiny vehicle.
The blonde sighed heavily and rolled her eyes as she walked around to the passenger side. Unlocking the door, she reached down and pushed the seat back. "See? Plenty of room for you."
Megan shot her a dubious glare, then gave in and crawled into the car. It wasn't so bad once she figured out the embarrassing scissor position she had to put her legs into while holding onto the roof with a death grip so her back wouldn't hit the pavement. She scowled at the smug expression on Marshall's face as the smaller woman slid into the driver's seat with no problem at all. "Paybacks...are a real bitch, Marshall."
"I'll massage the kinks out of your body later," Marshall promised airily.
Megan just closed her eyes and prayed as they shot out of the parking lot in a spray of gravel and screaming tires.
There was more leg room in the tiny vehicle than Megan had expected, but she didn't think she'd ever get used to racing along so low to the ground. Heart in her throat and her fingers clutching the dashboard, she'd finally risked a glance at the speedometer to find they were only going forty miles an hour. She gave Marshall a sheepish grin and felt warmth spread throughout her body at the exhilarated smile she got in return.
"Hey! Isn't this the road to Charlie's?" she asked a short while later.
"Well, I promised you special," Marshall answered, "and it doesn't get more special than Charlie's house."
Megan twisted slightly in her seat, careful not to hit the stick shift with her knee. "You two are pretty close, huh?"
Marshall's smile faltered and it took her a few moments to answer. When she did, her voice was as soft and serious as Megan had ever heard it. "When my parents died, he was all I had left. He took me in and raised me like I was his own daughter. Helped me with my schoolwork, came to all my games ." She flashed Megan a crooked smile. "Got me through all my crushes, even though it took him a while to understand why I kept falling for girls instead of boys."
Megan grinned a little." Heartbreaker from a young age, were you?" she asked lightly.
"Oh yeah," Marshall laughed. "You should have seen Anthony's face when Sharon broke up with him to go out with me!"
"Who were they?"
Green eyes twinkled merrily." The quarterback and the head cheerleader."
Megan's eyes widened before she broke out in laughter. "You're kidding!"
"Nope. I don't think his ego's recovered yet!"
They were still laughing when they finally pulled into the driveway to Charlie's house. Both the house and the garage sitting beside it showed signs of age, the paint yellowing and peeling, the wood of the screened-in porch beginning to warp and buckle in places. But Megan could feel the love and history exuding from it as if it were a living being. Even before she stepped into the house itself, she felt comfortable and at home the age of the place adding character and charm.
Charlie met them at the door, leaving as they were coming in. "I'm going to the bar, ladies." He gave Marshall a peck on the cheek and Megan a hug and a wink. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do and try to keep the house in one piece," this to Marshall, who gave him an indignant glare.
"Just for that, no leftovers for you, mister," she retorted with a grin.
Charlie placed his hand over his heart and rolled his eyes skyward. "Whew! Thank God for small favors." Then he laid his hand on Megan's shoulder, giving her a grave look. "It was nice knowing you, Megan. I'm sorry it had to end this way."
"I'm but a small sacrifice for the greater good of humanity," she answered every bit as seriously.
Marshall threw her hands up in the air and stalked into the house muttering. "Fine. Be that way. Hot dogs and chips. That's all you're getting out of me today." Megan followed her in with a broad grin on her face, while Charlie chuckled all the way to his car.
Her eyes drawn to the swaying hips just in front of her, Megan almost missed the fact that the interior of Charlie's home sparkled with newness: the sharp scent of fresh paint on the walls mixing with sawdust, the tiled floor glistening and echoing the shades of light oak paneling, and over all of that, the pervasive tinge of beeswax polish. Curious now, she stepped into the living area and immediately fell in love with the huge marble fireplace she found ensconced within.
"Wow!"
"Like it, huh?"
Megan jumped a foot at the low voice right behind her. "Yeah." She gave Marshall a sheepish grin. "Not quite what I expected."
Marshall laughed lightly. "I know, I know. Charlie has this odd idea that if he lets the outside of the house go to rack and ruin, the taxes will be lower. He does all his fixing up on the inside instead, so the appraisers won't notice it."
Megan shrugged. "I don't know anything about that stuff, but it sounds like a plan to me. It's really nice in here, though."
Butterflies danced in the dark woman's stomach. As big as the living room was, Marshall still stood within inches of her and she was finding it extremely difficult to breathe. "I'm going to fire up the grill," Marshall informed her. "You want to come with, or grab a drink and wait for me here?"
"I'll come with you. There's got to be something I can help you with."
Marshall smiled. "You can help me by giving me something pretty to look at while I cook. How's that?"
Megan felt a brief stab of panic, then spotted something out of the corner of her eye. Grabbing the vase filled with flowers, she tipped them toward Marshall in a mock salute. "Not a problem," she drawled, just barely dodging the blonde's slap at her shoulder.
The late afternoon sun found the two women sprawled in front of a roaring fireplace, their bellies filled to bursting with steak, potatoes, and corn. Despite her lethargy, Megan's mind continued to run a mile a minute and she spared a glance at her companion. Lowered lashes hid the brilliant eyes, but that only allowed Megan to concentrate on softly curved cheeks, moist full lips, and golden hair that Megan's tingling fingers could almost feel.
I love you. The words trembled on the tip of her tongue and she swallowed heavily. Less than twenty-four hours and she felt this way? It was impossible. And once Marshall found out she was frigid . Megan shuddered. Why don't we just totally screw up our lives, hmmm?
The comfort and warmth she'd felt just moments earlier disappeared and she scrambled to get to her feet. "Look, Marshall, dinner was nice. Really nice." She took a deep breath and rambled on. " But I think I'd better get back to my hotel. Work on my book and stuff you know? Maybe umm maybe we'll see each other tomorrow." Indigo eyes darted around the room searching for the phone. "I'll take a cab back, so you don't have to worry about me, okay?"
Marshall's eyes popped open in surprise and she gawked at her tall companion, who had just found the phone and was furiously flipping through the yellow pages. "Megan, what's the matter?" Not receiving an answer, Marshall leapt to her feet and snatched the phone out of Megan's hand. "C'mon I thought we were doing really good here," she pleaded.
She'd carefully kept the conversation light all through the preparation of dinner and during it. At the least little flicker of those expressive blue eyes, Marshall had artfully changed the subject and things were progressing rather smoothly. At least, she had thought so. Now all of a sudden, Megan was acting as panicked as she had been at the hotel and Marshall felt the stirrings of her own panic. Let me in, dammit!
Megan shoved her hands in her pockets and stared at the smooth floorboards. "Please call me a cab," she requested quietly.
"Megan ."
"Please." Megan grated the word out and hoped like hell the cab wouldn't take too long in arriving. She'd already cried enough in front of the woman.
Defeated, Marshall dialed the phone and quietly gave her address to the person on the other end. She watched Megan put her jacket on, then stepped closer to her and took her hands in her own. "Will you at least tell me what I did wrong?" she asked with a quaver in her voice.
A single tear slid down Megan's cheek and Marshall's heart broke. "I didn't mean to hurt you, whatever it was I did," she whispered.
The dark head shook from side to side. "You didn't do anything, Marshall," Megan answered brokenly. "It's me. It's always me." It was taking all of her willpower not to look Marshall in the eye, and she knew if she did, she'd do something horrible. Like profess her undying love for
the entirely too enchanting woman. Disengaging her hands, she stepped toward the outer door, pausing only long enough to mumble out a goodbye before dashing outside.
Marshall leaned heavily against the door and let her own tears fall, wondering how it was possible to fall in love so quickly and so deeply with someone who so desperately deserved it, yet so desperately kept it at arm's length.
*****
I don't know what I was thinking. The room was crowded-too crowded-and it was starting to get to me, so I just glared at everyone in my path until they finally just let me through. A birthday party for a friend of a friend is what it was, and I think Lori had invited every damned lesbian in a five hundred mile radius.
Jesus.
I suppose it's fairly obvious that I'm claustrophobic. And anti-social. And I have no idea why I'd even accepted the invitation, except for the fact that Lori was drop-dead gorgeous and recently single. Of course, now she's over by the kitchen surrounded by ten baby butches who are practically drooling over that little piece of fabric she calls adress.
Silly me, for thinking she'd look at me this time.
Anyway. I made it through the sliding glass doors with no bloodshed and stood there looking at the stars and breathing in nice, clean air. I didn't notice I had company at first...not until I heard the softest hint of a sigh. Strange. If I was the sighing kind, that's exactly the type of noise I'd make.
I could just barely make the woman's form out, leaning against the balcony railing as she was. A tiny, slip of a thing she was...hardly coming to my shoulder should we stand side by side. I was curious about that so I did. Go stand by her, I mean. Close enough to see mist green eyes reflecting the moonlight as she glanced up at me. Sure enough, when she straightened up, she only came to my shoulder. Imagine that.
Blonde hair tumbling loose down her back and soft looking pouty lips that begged for a kiss. For a moment there I forgot all about the party inside with its too loud music and too loud conversation, and I just lost myself in those eyes. What a cutie....
"I hate crowds," she told me in a sweet, low voice.
"So do I," I answered her just as quietly. Then we just stared at each other until I gave in to the craving that had snared me the moment I saw her.
We'd probably still be kissing if a chair hadn't chosen that moment to come crashing though the glass door.
So I grabbed her hand, took a quick peek around the jagged edges, and hauled ass out of there without sparing a second to say goodbye to what's-her-name...you know, the woman with the baby butch entourage. It was the start of a really nice memorable evening.
*****
Megan sat back in her chair and sighed. It wasn't working. She'd come back to her hotel room intent on burying herself in her novel and found herself beginning a new story with a character who bore a suspicious resemblance to Marshall . Marshall . What the hell is her last name, anyway? Shaking her head, she shut the laptop down and went over to flop on the bed.
She was tired. Tired of always feeling bad, tired of being scared to death of her own emotions, tired of being hurt, tired of always being on the outside looking in tired of everything. And most of all, she was tired of only being able to express her love through the cold medium of her computer. She wrapped herself around a pillow and purposely brought up the memory of being tightly held in Marshall's arms, feeling her soft breasts pressing into her own, the silky sweetness of her mouth, the firm warmth of her muscles as she gently pulled her between her legs .
Marshall's scent surrounded her and Megan cried; deep, desolate sobs that shook her entire body and left her feeling as weak as a newborn. "All I want to do is love her!" she wailed to the unfeeling room. Despair changing rapidly to anger, Megan jumped off the bed and changed hurriedly into her running clothes. Within minutes, she was out the door and running as fast as she could down the trail she'd found when she first came to town.
As she ran, she forcibly kept a picture of Marshall in the forefront of her mind, using it as a torch to burn away her pain and humiliation at all the other women in her life. It took two miles of all-out exertion, but finally she felt her mind begin to calm down and she realized something she had somehow missed before. Not a single one of her previous lovers had tried to be patient with her. Not one of them had asked her how she felt, or made an effort to make her feel comfortable. Marshall, on the other hand, had done everything she could to do things the way Megan wanted or needed. Sure, she'd gotten carried away a time or two, but if Megan was honest with herself, that was as much her fault as it was Marshall's.
She slowed her pace down and headed back to the hotel, her mind made up. Maybe if she just told Marshall instead of getting hysterical on the poor woman, she'd be able to help her.
*****
"Charlie? It's Megan. I I need your home phone number."
"If you're looking for Marshall, she's not there," Charlie responded, his voice noticeably cooler than normal.
Megan felt her heart sink to her toes and a deep, stabbing pain in her chest where it used to be.
"Oh. Did she . I needed to apologize to her."
Charlie closed his eyes at the obvious pain in Megan's voice and he sighed. All he'd wanted to do was help the girl out, not break his own niece's heart in the process. Opening his eyes again, he glanced over to where Marshall sat by the pool table, staring into mid-air and looking as though she'd lost her best friend. "She's here at the bar. But, Megan?"
"Yes?" the dark haired woman answered anxiously.
"She's really hurting, okay? If you "
"I won't hurt her anymore, I promise, Charlie," Megan interrupted him hurriedly. "Just don't let her leave. I'll be right over."
Ironically enough, it was seven o'clock on the dot when Megan strode into the bar. She didn't spare anyone else a glance, just looked around long enough to find Marshall and make her way to the blonde's table. She took a deep breath and stuck out her hand. "Hi. I'm Megan Beauchamp."
Worried blue eyes pleaded silently with green.
Very slowly, Marshall got to her feet. "Marshall Dillon," she answered, a faint smile tugging at the corners of her mouth.
Megan's eyes widened and she lost it. "You're kidding!" she said through her laughter , holding on to the edge of the table to keep from falling over.
Marshall's laughter joined hers and for several minutes neither of them were able to talk with any clarity. Charlie's eyes twinkled at them from across the room. "Yes, I'm kidding," Marshall finally admitted when her giggles subsided. "That's what the other kids used to call me in school. It's Marshall Saunders, actually."
Megan shook the smaller hand shyly." I'm really pleased to meet you, Marshall."
"Does this mean we're starting over?" Marshall asked, not quite sure of what Megan was trying to do.
"In a way, yes. I just " Megan felt the heat of another blush coming on. "I just figured if we were going to be closer, maybe we should know each other's names."
"How much closer?" Marshall pressed gently.
Broad shoulders squared, then Megan took a step forward, tipping her head down to steal a swift kiss." As close as possible," she whispered into a tiny ear.
Marshall's entire body shuddered delicately. "Oh."
"I have to take care of something first, okay? Will you wait for me?" Megan asked hesitantly, pulling back to look into Marshall's eyes.
"I'll wait," she agreed. "But don't take too long, all right? I don't want you to change your mind."
Megan gave her a little smile and a wink, then hurried over to where Charlie was cleaning glasses. "You've been a good friend to me, Charlie, and I'm really sorry I hurt you," she told him.
He gazed at her steadily." Marshall may be twenty-five, but she's still my little girl. I just don't want anything I did to cause her pain." Megan dipped her eyes down and he reached over to tap her arm. "For what it's worth, I think she really likes you, Megan. Give her a chance."
"I'm going to." Her eyes swept back to take in the sight of the small blonde waiting at the door. "I really like her, too."
"G'wan with you then," he grinned, snapping her with his towel. "Tell her I'm staying at Ben's tonight." Megan nodded and blushed before she dashed away.
Marshall watched warily as Megan paced across the room in front of her. She'd tried to get the woman to sit, but she'd just given her a shaky smile and refused. Something about pacing helping to clear her thoughts. Finally Megan stopped and knelt down in front of her, taking a deep breath and keeping her gaze locked on their entwined fingers.
"I write better than I talk," Megan began apologetically.
"S'okay. I talk better than I write," Marshall responded lightly. A ghost of a smile flitted across Megan's lips and Marshall saw the tense shoulders relax.
"In my books, my characters always know what to do what to say how to act. It always seems so easy." The nervous woman drew in a shaky breath. "I can't do any of that. I get nervous and tongue-tied all tensed up like I'm going to be beaten or something stupid like that."
A thumb glided across the back of her knuckles, calming her.
"I do all right with kissing." She risked a glance up and caught Marshall's smile of agreement. "But when it comes right down to it, that's all I know how to do. I've tried really hard but no matter how much I want to, I've never been able to do it right." A tear escaped and her lips trembled. "Then they they laugh at me. And the few times someone's tried to make love to me, nothing they do works. At first it feels good," she rushed on, "but after a while it just hurts so I make them stop." Another shuddering breath and she unconsciously tightened her grip on Marshall's fingers.
Marshall spread her legs wide apart and pulled Megan until the woman was cradled up against her. She didn't speak, knowing that Megan wasn't through yet; she simply pressed a kiss into the soft hair and squeezed her gently.
Megan shifted slightly and nestled closer. It was easier to speak when she couldn't really see Marshall watching her. "I never had anyone I could talk to. Dad was Well, he was Dad. And Mom and I always started crying the minute a conversation even started getting serious." She chuckled weakly. "God knows what would have happened if I tried to bring this up with her."
"What about your brothers?" Marshall asked quietly.
The dark head shook. "They knew something was wrong, but I talk a good game, so it never really came up. I can't very well let them know they have better luck with women than me, now can I?"
Marshall laughed lightly. "Well, now you can tell them you've got a prettier girlfriend than any of them do."
Megan's head popped up and she stared into warm, green eyes. "Do I?" she asked hesitantly.
"You damn well better think I'm prettier," Marshall growled softly. Then she planted a light kiss on lips that were so temptingly close.
"I'm a basket case," Megan sighed. "Why on earth would you want a sexually dysfunctional girlfriend?"
"I think of it rather as a challenge," Marshall responded smugly. She was rewarded by Megan's snort of laughter and a slap on her thigh. Sobering, she tilted Megan's chin up and looked into slightly reddened eyes. She spoke slowly and deliberately. "I think those other women were the dysfunctional ones. Not you. What you need is someone who'll take things nice and slow and show you how good it can be."
Megan pursed her lips thoughtfully." Know of anybody like that?" she asked innocently.
The next thing she knew, she was flat on her back with a blonde woman straddling her belly. Much to her bemusement Marshall simply sat on her, forearms resting on her knees, apparently deep in thought and with no regard for the woman she was using as a chair. "I could always call Shelly," Marshall offered at last. "No, she's seeing someone now. Hmm ." More deep thought, while Megan thumped her head back onto the floor and resigned herself to her fate. "Kelly? Nah, she wasn't all that spectacular. Amanda?" A slow, sexy grin crossed Marshall's face and Megan glared. "Amanda was really, really good," she informed her captive audience.
"I'm going to hurt you," Megan threatened, trying her best not to let a smile slip past her. Then her eyes widened as Marshall changed positions again, dropping down so their faces were inches apart.
"How about me?" Marshall breathed out, completely serious now.
"What if I can't do it?" Megan returned anxiously.
"Practice." A kiss." Practice." Another kiss. "Practice." Yet another kiss." And I promise I'll love you anyway."
There was deathly silence in the room and green eyes widened impossibly as Marshall realized what she'd just said.
"Okay." One simple word put Megan's heart into Marshall's hands, trusting her to keep it in one piece.
Long arms tugged Marshall into place and they traded reassuring hugs and kisses late into the evening.
*****
Much to Megan's relief and dismay, Marshall never made a move to initiate lovemaking in the following days. Instead, she was showered with affection and warmth, and a lot of good-natured teasing. After their first night together, Megan had checked out of her hotel at the blonde's insistence-no sense paying for something she wasn't going to use, she'd been informed in no uncertain terms-and their days were spent exploring the small town Marshall called home. They made nightly excursions to the tavern for light conversation and pool, before retiring back to Charlie's to snuggle and watch TV or for Marshall to read while Megan typed away on her final draft.
Megan had to admit that, of all the time they spent together, she cherished the nights the most. She'd stopped tensing up when Marshall slipped under the covers with her, and even taken to holding the small blonde in her arms in a gentle embrace without any prompting. And last night last night she'd felt Marshall trembling with excitement when her caresses had gotten too bold.
She was extremely proud of herself for causing that.
Tonight was the night, she decided, and set about making her plans. A hasty conference with Charlie had a bewildered Marshall sent out to a neighboring town for bar supplies. She almost hadn't fallen for the "truck broke down" excuse, but much to Megan's relief, the blonde had driven off with Ben in tow after only a few minutes argument as to why Megan couldn't go with her. Charlie had to feign a sore shoulder for that one, saying he needed Megan to help him lift cases of beer to restock while they were gone.
"Your niece is entirely too suspicious, Charlie," Megan sighed when they were finally out of sight.
"Nah," he winked. "She just hates to be separated from you."
Blue eyes twinkled brightly. "The feeling's mutual, old man." They laughed together as they set about rearranging the living room furniture.
"Oomph!" The couch hit the floor with a dull thud and Megan massaged her aching back. "I think that's got it," she said, surveying the wide, empty area in front of the fireplace.
"You want that little table now, or are you going to bring it in later?"
She considered it for a moment and shook her head. "Later, I think. I don't want to be banging my shins into it when I bring the wood in."
Charlie grinned at her fondly." All right. Well, have a good time tonight. I'm gonna head out now send Ben on his way when they get back."
"He won't even have a chance to get out of the car," Megan laughed as she walked Charlie to the door.
To her surprise, Charlie wrapped her in a hug. "I'm glad you came here, kid," he told her gruffly.
"Thanks for taking me in." Megan cleared her throat and gave him a misty smile. "Now go on with you. I still have lots to do." She pushed him gently out the door and chuckled at his directive not to do anything he wouldn't do. "Conniving old man," she muttered affectionately.
Less than an hour later, she had the wood stacked up, a nice fire blazing merrily, and pillows scattered around the low table in the center of the room. Soft music played on the stereo and all that was missing was a certain beautiful blonde. After fidgeting and pacing for a bit, Megan dragged out her laptop to kill some time.
You know that old saying about things that seem to be toogood to be true?
Exactly.
I woke up the following morning and she was gone. Now, not to brag or anything, but I've had my fair share of lovers over the years, and a few of those had crept out in the middle of the night for one reason or another. Nothing unusual there, save for the fact that I always-always-wake up. I'm an extraordinarily light sleeper. Needless to say, I had no clue my little paramour had flown the coop until I'd torn my house apart looking for her.
Not a single sign of her. If it weren't for the scent of our lovemaking lingering in the air, I'd be hard pressed to say anyone had been with me last night at all. Being the easygoing person I am, firm believer in live and let live and all that rot, I took a nice long shower before I proceeded to call every single person who'd been at Lori's party trying to find out who exactly that little blonde was and where she lives.
Hey. Free love's a wonderful thing, but by damn, that girl and I made a connection and I wasn't about to let her slip through my fingers that easily.
Not a one of them knew what I was talking about and they each swore I'd left the party alone.
Best sex I'd ever had in my entire life and it was a figment of my imagination. Go figure.
I generally question my decision to become a private investigator once or twice a week. Then moments like these occur and I breathe a sigh of relief instead. I've gained a lot of contacts throughout my semi-illustrious career in the area.
Let me rephrase that. I've gained a lot of really odd contacts throughout my career.
One of them is a detective with the county, and he happens to know a woman who specializes in, shall we say, abnormal occurrences. Like girlfriends disappearing into thin air. And yes, she's had to help me out before but, honestly, those all had perfectly rational explanations. Really.
Anyway, Misty runs around debunking urban legends, ghost-busting old houses, and showing people how to make those eerie rapping noises without apparently moving. Definitely not the guest to have over on Halloween around Ghost Story Telling time. She ruins all my fun.
So I'm thinking that it's really weird that I'm the only one who remembers the girl and that Misty may just be the ticket in finding out what the hell is happening around here. But let me tell you...if she brings out that damned Ouija board, I'm out of here.
Megan looked at the screen and wondered where on earth this particular story was headed. Not only was it a complete departure from her normal style of writing, but she'd also skipped her meticulous character sketches and outlines that she usually used to keep herself on track.
A car door slamming prompted her to shut down the computer and she grinned wryly at herself. The story, like her relationship with Marshall, was flowing along its own path, and she was content to wait and see where both led her.
*****
She watched as Marshall's eyes made a slow pass over the changes in the living room and sighed in relief when a beaming smile came her way. "You like?" she questioned softly.
"Oh yes." Marshall glanced around once more, then walked over to give Megan a hug. "Y'know, we went all that way for just one box of supplies. Know anything about that?"
Megan tilted her head back and contemplated deeply. "Um no." She grinned when she got a poke in the belly. "I wanted to surprise you," she admitted finally. "Did it work?"
A long, slow kiss was her answer. Taking Marshall's hand, she led her over to the small table and eased her down onto one of the cushions. The meal was a simple one: little sandwiches, cheese and crackers, and a pot of tea for them to drink. At Marshall's questioning look, Megan blushed. "I figured tea would help keep us warm without "
Marshall grinned impishly." Without muddling up our senses too much?"
The flush on her cheeks rivaled the glow of the fire as Megan nodded shyly.
"Well, well, well. Let's get to it then, shall we?"
Over an hour passed as they swapped nibbles of food along with nibbles of flesh and soon they were sipping the last of their tea. Megan's heart rate was steadily rising as she realized the moment of reckoning was almost upon her. With trembling hands, she added a few more logs onto the fire before she turned to face Marshall again. "W-would you like anything else? More tea? Coffee? Sandwiches?"
Green eyes narrowed slightly." Why don't you just come back here and lay with me for a bit?" Marshall held her hand out in silent invitation.
Megan cleared her throat. "All right," she answered, the slightest tremor in her voice.
It hadn't taken Marshall long at all to realize what the afternoon was leading up to. Part of her was exhilarated at the knowledge, while another part was almost as terrified as the violently trembling woman in her arms. "Shh " With easy, gentle touches, she calmed Megan down, letting her know without words that nothing had to start just yet.
"I'm sorry," came a quiet whisper.
"There's nothing to be sorry about, Megan. I'm just as happy lying here with you as I would be if we were doing anything else." At the suspicious look she received, "You know what I mean," she grinned, then rested her cheek along the soft slope of Megan's chest.
Long moments passed as they cuddled together, neither really noticing the passage of time or the subtle movements of hands casually caressing and stroking. The crackle of the flames, the hint of wood smoke in the air, and the growing warmth combined to send the two women into a different world where all that mattered was the sweetness of lips and the exquisite fit of their bodies.
Bright blue eyes, wide with arousal and a touch of fear, met emerald green. "I think I'm ready," Megan offered shyly.
No answer was needed as Marshall quietly continued with her quest. Keeping her movements languid and completely non-threatening, she carefully eased open Megan's shirt, pressing kisses to each area of skin as it was revealed. Whenever she heard a hitched breath, she'd stop and return to full, red lips, then continue on her way.
Before Megan was quite aware, she was divested of her clothing and Marshall was running her fingertips lightly along her ribcage. She swallowed against a completely dry throat and looked up with wide eyes. "Should I do you want me to " She pointed vaguely at Marshall's clothed form.
"Only if you want," Marshall whispered.
Megan nodded quickly. If nothing else, she hoped it would keep her mind off the fact that she was buck naked in front of this beautiful woman. Though, from the look in Marshall's eyes, she didn't seem to be disappointed in how gangly Megan was.
Everything was fine until Megan's fingers stumbled trying to unhook Marshall's bra. Face flushed with embarrassment over her inability to do this simple thing, Megan dropped her hands and started to turn away before the blonde could see the tears in her eyes. Why she'd ever thought being with Marshall would be different was beyond her. The laughter would becoming soon, she was sure.
But Marshall wasn't laughing at all when she stopped Megan from twisting away. Eyes dark and serious, she guided Megan's hands to the straps of her bra and helped her slip them off her shoulders and down her arms. With that done, they nudged the bra to her waist, then slid it around so the fastening was in front and easier to unhook. "And if that's too slow for you," she told her with a slight smile, "next time, you can just yank the thing up and over my head. Won't bother me a bit."
That earned her a bit of a grin, so she kept a hold of Megan's hands and they removed the rest of her clothes together. "Now, I want you to lay back and relax, okay?"
At Megan's nervous nod, Marshall helped her get comfortable and then settled in next to her, letting her fingers draw light trails across Megan's chest and along the slope of her breasts. She kept up a light murmur of words, saying how beautiful she was, how soft her skin, how it glistened in the firelight, how glad she was that she had the chance to be with such a sweet, sweet woman, and all the while her touch glided across Megan's body, soothing her light trembling.
Megan kept waiting for her breasts to be groped, or for Marshall's hand to plunge abruptly down to her sex, but it never happened. Instead, all she felt were mild caresses that started a slow burn in her blood as Marshall kept tracing paths all along her skin. Face, neck, torso, arms, legs-Marshall didn't miss a single point on Megan's body as she showed her what being loved felt like.
Soon Megan was trembling again, but this time it wasn't in fear or apprehension. Her breath was exhaled in tiny pants that seemed to echo the pulsing between her legs and she finally reached up and pulled Marshall into a deep kiss, unable to keep still any longer. As Marshall slid on top of her, Megan felt the unmistakable moisture being spread on her stomach and she whimpered in need.
"S'all right," Marshall whispered. "I'll take care of you." She sat up slowly, letting Megan caress her breasts for a few moments before she began moving down her body. "Try to stay relaxed."
She was finding it difficult to follow her own advice, but her tension was deliciously familiar as her mouth and hands discovered every curve and hollow of the beautiful body beneath her. She had no idea how much time had passed as she licked a muscle stiffening in fear, nibbled a particularly sensitive fold of skin, and caressed her way toward her goal. When she finally reached the source of aromatic musk, she carefully folded her hands over Megan's belly to rub away the tension when it arose and to keep the woman steady as she loved her with her mouth.
A harsh whimper escaped from Megan when Marshall's lips finally touched her inner folds and her head pressed back into the pillows. Marshall grasped one of her hands and used the thumb on her other hand to draw light circles on Megan's belly, even as her tongue followed the same path lower down. Light, easy strokes until she felt Megan's hips tentatively begin rolling in a counter-rhythm, then she slowly picked up the pace until suddenly Megan's hands were on her head, guiding her where she needed her to be.
Just as she felt Megan's body begin to tremble, Megan's hands tried to push her away instead of closer. Marshall wanted to scream in frustration, but abruptly remembered her promise so she left the warm, moist sanctuary and kissed her way back to Megan's mouth.
"It's okay it's okay," she whispered as Megan wrapped her arms around her with desperate strength. They snuggled tightly together and she murmured soothing words over Megan's apologies. "Practice, practice, practice remember? We've got all the time in the world."
"But, I wanted to I wanted " Tears burned in Megan's eyes and she buried her face into Marshall's neck. "Tonight was supposed to be special," she
choked out.
"Oh, Megan, it is special! We're here, we're together," she paused and pulled Megan's head up to look her in the eye, "and I got to see and taste your gorgeous body "
One glimpse of the roguish twinkle in Marshall's eyes and Megan found herself laughing. It was mixed in with a few sobs, but she was laughing. "You're such a dog, Marshall Saunders."
"Why, thank you, Miss Beauchamp. I've worked very hard at it," Marshall said with a grin. She wiggled her way out of her comfy spot and poured them some tea." Here, we don't want to die of thirst while we're snuggling."
Back into position again, they sipped their tea and watched the sparks flare up in the fire. "You're really not upset?" Megan asked at last.
Marshall sat up and faced her dark haired companion, taking her hands as she did so. "The only reason I was upset was because you were upset." She took a deep breath and leaped off the cliff. "I love you, Megan. If I have to figure out other ways to show you that until you're ready to make love, then I guess I'll just have to come up with some."
Megan just stared at the blonde with a blank look of shock on her face. "R-really?"
"Well, yeah it can't be that difficult. A few flowers, some wine, a nice dinner now and again oomph!"
Megan rubbed the spot she'd smacked. "I meant, do you really love me."
Marshall's smile softened and she wrapped Megan up into a heartfelt embrace. "Yeah, I really do."
Megan felt like her heart had busted free and was floating somewhere up in the ether. How this had happened was completely beyond her, but she was pretty damned glad it had. "I umm I love you, too," she whispered into a conveniently close ear.
Marshall pulled away slightly and lightly caressed a strong jaw. "Told you it was a special night." And the kisses that followed that proclamation were special, indeed.
*********
A light snow was falling later that evening as the two women cleaned up the room. They'd put their clothes back on, but Marshall was pleased to see that Megan had left her shirt unbuttoned. Every now and again, as they crossed paths, she'd reach out and stroke a bit of flesh that peeked out at her. Then pout when her hand got slapped.
"You shouldn't have them hanging out there if you don't want them touched," she defended herself.
Megan shot her a look of patent disbelief. "I could be dressed in a snowmobile suit and you'd be grabbing at me!"
"Yeah...so? What's your point?" Marshall clicked on the TV and slouched onto the couch, trying mightily to scowl. It was hard to do when Megan was standing there, hands on hips, the front of her shirt not even close to concealing the objects under debate, and her cheeks still flushed from the kisses they'd shared.
"My point is...is...." Megan scowled back, fumbling when she realized she really didn't know what her point was. "Oh, never mind."
A touch on Marshall's shoulder got her to sit up, then Megan wiggled in behind her, stretching out her long legs on either side of the smaller woman. "Tell a woman you love her and all of a sudden she's got more hands than an octopus," she muttered.
"Octopi don't have hands, they have suckers." Wiggling eyebrows accompanied the word "suckers" and made Megan burst out laughing.
Twisting around, Marshall speared her fingers together and began attacking the helplessly giggling Megan, making sucking sounds as she pinched various parts of the woman's anatomy. "Oh yeah...I've got you now!" she laughed. "I'm a Boa Constrictor Octopus. Once I've got you in my deadly grasp, you're mine forever!" She wrapped her arms tightly around Megan and got a firm hold of her butt, making her scream.
The next thing they knew, their roughhousing tumbled them off the couch and they landed on the floor in a tangle of arms and legs, still giggling through the shock of it.
"Okay, okay!" Megan gasped out. "I give up! I'm yours!"
"Whew! Thank God, because I'm feeling pretty whipped now," Marshall admitted, sucking in a few deep gulps of air. "I think it's time to hit the showers."
Megan made a show of sniffing Marshall's skin and crinkled up her nose. "Ew...you're right." Then she swiftly untangled herself and dashed up the stairs with a growling blonde directly on her heels.
Marshall's offhanded comment of "Jesus, you're beautiful all over" made Megan blush at the same time it made her relax, as they got ready to step into the steaming shower. She'd never taken a shower with another person before, but somehow Marshall made it seem like the most natural thing in the world. Other than the initial comment, the blonde simply picked up a washcloth and soap and they spent the next twenty minutes quietly bathing each other.
Megan was pretty sure Heaven didn't get much better than this.
She would never have imagined going from a failed lovemaking session, to cuddling, to a giggling wrestling match, to a shared shower with any of her previous girlfriends. She'd have had her happy ass kicked out into the snow right after she made the woman get off her. And to top it all off, Marshall said she loved her. Loved her. Who'd have thought it?
Squeaky clean and flushed from the heat of the water, they padded back downstairs dressed in their sleep shirts. A brief pause to pop in a tape, then they snuggled up on the couch together and proceeded to ignore the screen yet again, this time in favor of soft touches rather than teasing horseplay.
And in yet another change, Megan didn't stop when she felt Marshall begin to tremble. Instead, she mimicked the blonde's earlier caresses, taking advantage of her longer reach to stroke and fondle, while her kisses traveled from Marshall's mouth to the tender flesh of her neck and back again.
A deep breath and then her fingers trailed from Marshall's inner thigh to graze against tight blonde curls, and then further to dip into a wellspring of moisture. Marshall whimpered and her hips bucked in an automatic response. Drawing her head back slightly, Megan met wide green eyes.
"You'll have to tell me... I can never tell if..." She stumbled over the explanation and was stopped by lips pressing over her own.
"Don't worry, I'll tell you," Marshall whispered. Leaving it simply at that, she casually dropped one hand to cover Megan's and then let her body take over the motion she needed for release.
The quiet murmur of sound from the TV set was broken by occasional words of encouragement from Marshall: a soft gasp of "down, just a bit" then "easy, easy" and then a "yes, right there...slowly now" and finally a brief shudder, while she tucked her face under Megan's chin and whimpered out her name.
Megan drew in one short breath after another as her fingers were carefully guided into Marshall's heated channel, the slick walls pulsing hard around them. Dizzy from a combination of fear and arousal, she didn't notice that her hips were rocking in counterpoint to Marshall's movements until Marshall choked out a "curl your fingers up...there...yes...harder!" and the sudden, sharp lunge of the blonde's body hit her center and set off sparks that flowed down to her toes, up to her head, and back again.
A high pitched noise Megan couldn't recall ever making before squeaked out of her throat just as Marshall went rigid, and she just barely heard her say "stop a sec, just a sec, lover." Stopping the thrusting of her fingers, but leaving them inside, Megan took deep breaths as her own rigid body slowly relaxed against the blonde.
They breathed quietly for a moment, small tremors lacing through both of them, and then Marshall was blinking up at her, an impish grin spreading across her face. "Was it good for you?"
Megan grinned back, eyes bright blue and sparkling. "Oh yeah...I don't think I'm leaving this spot ever again." And she wiggled her encased fingers to make her point, catching her breath when the movement made Marshall's eyes shade to forest green.
"Maybe we should go up to the room and start you on the intermediate lovemaking lessons. Since you passed the beginner's level with flying colors..."
"Lots of colors," Megan nodded in emphatic agreement.
But they didn't leave just yet. Neither woman was in any particular hurry for Megan's fingers to leave their cozy nest, and holding Marshall so closely with the blonde's head tucked under her chin was fast becoming Megan's favorite position. Besides, she really didn't think she could walk yet.
Eventually, Megan did remove her hand, if only because she was getting a cramp. Then they spent another few long, luxurious moments exchanging touches and light, fleeting kisses. It was only when their breathing started to become a bit more erratic, and their caresses a bit more daring, that they finally made their last trek up the stairs.
Happily ensconced on the thick comforters adorning Marshall's bed, they made love again, with Megan discovering that all she'd really needed was a woman who paid attention to her. Who knew when to slow down and when to take her breath away, and whose voice stayed calm and reassuring even as her world was tilting on its axis.
All she'd really needed was Marshall Saunders.
"You're not going to get all cocky on me now, are you?" Marshall asked as she stretched worn out muscles and draped herself across Megan's body.
"Naw, it's too soon for that. Give me a day or so," Megan answered, a trifle smugly. Having the blonde tell her to stop because she couldn't take any more had been quite the ego boost she had to admit.
Marshall idly trailed a finger around a pert brown nipple and cleared her throat. "I was wondering...well, my vacation's almost up and..." She cleared her throat again and sighed. "You know, if you're not doing anything, you could...you know. If you wanted to." She rolled her eyes at herself in disgust. How lame can you get?
Megan pursed her lips, then stared up at the ceiling. "Sure, save old Ben a trip, right?"
Blue eyes met green and they shared a shy grin.
"You could hang around a while, maybe," Marshall offered, trying to contain the urge to jump up and dance around the room.
"Maybe so," Megan agreed solemnly.
Then they were laughing and rolling around on the huge bed, giddy with relief that they both wanted the same thing, and that a heart once thought lost was found again.
Epilogue/Conclusion coming soon....