Part Two:
Chapter Six: Suspicions
"Hey, Maura, are you coming to see me later?" Jane asked,
sitting by the window in the 'community visiting area' as she spoke
into her cell phone. The section of the hospital that Maura had
paid for her to stay in was really ritzy. It was definitely more
expensive than she could afford and far fancier than she wanted,
but she didn't have the heart to tell Maura no. Besides, there were
some perks... she was really enjoying her private recovery
room.
"Once I finish up this au - I mean, yes, in a little while,"
Maura answered from the other end. The medical examiner avoided
talking about work around Jane even though the stubborn detective
liked to hound her for details. She knew that Jane missed being
busy with work, and the subject usually made her feel
depressed.
Unfortunately, she didn't correct her sentence quickly enough.
"You're talking on the phone while doing an autopsy?" the brunette
squawked, sitting a little straighter in her wheelchair and causing
several people just entering the room to glance at her in surprise
and curiosity.
Jane could almost hear Maura roll her eyes. "Of course not, that
would be unsanitary, distracting, and counterproductive. You called
while I was transcribing my autopsy notes from my tape recorder to
my computer."
"Don't you have assistants to do that sort of
thing?"
"I've already been overworking my assistants lately," said
Maura. Jane frowned, feeling a little guilty for usurping so much
of Maura's time. She knew that her... friend? Maura was more than a
friend... but definitely not a girlfriend. Jane wasn't ready to go
there. Yet. Well, whatever Maura was, Jane knew that she had a very
busy and important job - one that the detective had been keeping
her away from too much over the past few weeks.
"You know, you can visit me tomorrow instead," the detective
offered. She was sincere, but unable to keep a note of sadness from
her voice. Jane was feeling lower by the second. First she was
stuck in this stupid wheelchair, and now she was becoming a burden
on everybody she cared about...
"Of course I'll come visit you tonight, Jane. In fact, I'm
finishing up right now."
Even though she hated herself for being so needy, Jane was
pleased to hear that Maura was coming to see her. "Thank you... I
hate being a prisoner in this damn place." The brunette glanced
over at Mr. Heissmann, an older gentleman who visited the hospital
on most weekdays to spend time with his wife. He was speaking to
one of the nurses on duty with a peculiar expression on his
face.
Maura's sigh redirected her attention back to her conversation.
"It isn't so bad. You need to stay at the hospital to rest and
recuperate."
"I know," Jane grumbled. "That doesn't mean I have to like it."
Suddenly remembering that Maura was the one financing her stay, she
hurried to add, "I mean, this private wing is really nice... I'm
glad to be staying here. It's just not home."
"And I'm sure your lack of mobility is particularly
frustrating."
Jane decided not to respond to that comment. Instead, she
continued to watch Mr. Heissmann as he sank into an available
chair. The nurse, one that Jane recognized from the day shift, put
a hand on his shoulder.
They were a good distance away, but between the inflection in
their speech and Jane's ability to lip-read, she put together
pieces of the conversation.
" - so sorry for your..."
"The doctors said she - it's such a ..."
" - not sure how... died-"
Jane's eyebrows rose as she tried to fit together the broken
phrases. Suddenly, she remembered that Maura was still on the other
end of the line. "... and you should be able to try crutches in a
week or so," she was saying, trying to pass some of the cheeriness
in her voice on to Jane.
Even though talking to Maura was one of her favorite things to
do, especially recently, Jane's curiosity had gotten the better of
her. "That's good. Listen, Maura, I'll let you go finish up the
rest of your paperwork. Then you can be done faster... See you
later, right?"
Maura said something in acknowledgement, but Jane wasn't really
paying attention. When she heard the medical examiner say 'talk to
you later', Jane mumbled a quick goodbye and hung up the
phone.
"I can't believe she's gone..." Mr. Heissmann's voice became
clearer now that the phone conversation wasn't distracting her.
Jane had never been very good at keeping up with two conversations
at once.
"It's just so strange. The other nurses and I were all so
pleased with how much progress she was making."
Jane began searching her memory for all the information she knew
about Mrs. Heissmann. She was currently staying - or was it 'had
been staying' now? - in the room across the hall and one door down
from Jane. From what she could recall, her first name was Rose, she
was in her early sixties, and she was finishing chemotherapy for
breast cancer. Thinking back, Jane remembered the last time she had
seen Rose Heissmann. The older woman had been using a walker, but
moving on her own, and her hair was beginning to grow back. She had
smiled at Jane as the detective was being wheeled past for physical
therapy and, as usual, greeted her with a cheerful 'Hello,
dear.'
On the other side of the room, Jane could still hear Mr.
Heissmann speaking. "Do they know if she was in any pain? The
doctors haven't been able to tell me much. She was doing well when
I left yesterday."
The nurse sighed. "I wasn't on duty, but from what I've heard,
she was complaining of chest pains. You would have to talk to Susie
if you want to know more."
Jane recognized the name. Susie was the short, plump morning
shift nurse that came to check on her around breakfast
time.
"Will there be some sort of - I don't know... test? To see what
happened?"
"I'm not sure."
"The doctors haven't explained things very well..."
Seeing her opening, the detective began wheeling herself over to
the two people. "Excuse me, Mr. Heissmann," she interrupted as
politely as possible. "You might not remember me,
but-"
The sad gentleman's eyes narrowed a little as he studied Jane's
face, and then brightened with recognition. "Jane? Jane...
something. I'm sorry, young lady, I can't remember your last
name... In fact, I'm not sure if Rose ever mentioned it." Jane felt
strange after being called 'young lady', but decided to let it
slide. "My wife told me you were moving in down the hall. Aren't
you some kind of policewoman?"
Jane offered him a small smile. "Yes sir, I'm a detective with
the BPD. I didn't mean to eavesdrop on you," she lied, "but I
overheard part of your conversation. I'm very sorry about your
wife."
"It's... certainly a shock," he said, frowning.
"Of course," Jane murmured sympathetically. "I wouldn't have
bothered you, except that my good friend is a medical examiner.
Since your wife passed away very suddenly, maybe she could help
answer some of your questions if your doctors weren't much help."
Silently, the detective prayed that Maura wouldn't be angry with
her for volunteering her assistance with such a 'speculative'
assignment. The ME usually preferred cold, hard facts along with
cold, hard bodies, and unless she had access to both, she was
generally reluctant to draw conclusions. Still, at the very least,
she might be willing to translate some of the 'doctor language'
that Mr. Heissmann had been unable to understand.
Mr. Heissmann looked up. "Really?" he asked, looking hopeful in
a tired sort of way. "Rose's death was just so sudden, and her
attending physician only confused me more. The way he explained it
didn't make sense to me."
"Yes. I just spoke to her on the phone, and she's coming over to
visit me in a little while. If you want to hang around here for
about thirty minutes, she could try to clear up some of the
confusion."
...
"Jane, I'm really not sure about this," Maura whispered. "I
hardly know anything about this particular patient. There's no way
I can determine her cause of death or explain it to her
husband."
The detective, who had been expecting Maura's reluctant
attitude, was prepared to argue her case. "Listen, just talk to the
guy for me, will you? His wife died suddenly and he only wants some
answers."
"That's the problem," Maura muttered. "He wants answers, and I
don't have any. It would be unprofessional, not to mention
inaccurate of me to make conjectures about his wife's medical
problems."
Jane sighed. "Maur, his wife's already dead. What harm could it
do? Just listen to what he has to say and explain some of those big
medical words you people use."
The ME raised her eyebrows and crossed her arms over her
breasts. Jane tried valiantly not to look down. "You people?" she
repeated.
Realizing that she was losing ground, Jane stared up at Maura
from her wheelchair and gave her a pout. Inwardly, she grimaced at
using such an underhanded tactic. If Korsak or Frost saw her using
a puppy face on Maura, they would never let her live it
down...
But then Maura smiled, and Jane knew that she would get her way.
"Thanks," she said, not even waiting for the medical examiner to
agree with her out loud. "I owe you one."
"I'll talk to him, but I can't make any promises other than
that. Medical problems can be very complex and unique to each
patient..."
Sensing that Maura was about to go on a tangent, Jane briefly
touched the medical examiner's hand, causing both of them to jerk
with surprise as a strange spark shot between them. The blonde
doctor blinked, surprised that the contact had summoned such a
strong reaction. Then again, Jane's touch had always been
'electric' to her...
"Excuse me." A masculine voice interrupted the strange moment
hanging between them, and both women turned. "Are you Dr. Maura
Isles?"
"I am." Automatically, Maura extended her hand. "You must be Mr.
Heissmann. I'm sorry about your wife. Jane told me that she had a
very pleasant disposition." Although the words were somewhat
clinical, the feeling behind them impressed Jane. Obviously,
Maura's condolences were heartfelt even though she had not known
the deceased.
"Thank you," said Mr. Heissmann, equally touched. "Everything's
still settling in. The worst part is that her doctors can't seem to
tell me what went wrong."
Maura nodded thoughtfully. "Sometimes it can be difficult to
tell. The only way to know for sure is to do a full autopsy. That's
what my job is, actually."
Mr. Heissmann looked disappointed. "I asked about that. Dr.
Ferrell - that's the breast cancer specialist - he told me that it
would cost several hundred dollars. I can afford it, if you think
it's a good idea-"
Instantly, Maura's expression changed from sympathetic to
annoyed. "Legally, they should have told you that you have the
right to request a free autopsy. It might not necessarily be done
at this hospital, but it's still federal law."
"How much do you charge?"
Mr. Heissmann seemed slightly uncomfortable asking, but Jane
couldn't really blame him. She knew that if she were trying to
settle Maura's affairs after the doctor passed away, she would be
just as bewildered and confused.... - wait, where had that
thought come from? Why on earth would she be the one managing
Maura's affairs? 'Slow down, Jane,' the detective thought
silently. 'You're getting way too far ahead of
yourself.'
"I work for the police department, so nothing. I do autopsies on
people that have died in unusual circumstances."
"Rose did die in unusual circumstances. She had breast cancer,
but they said she was complaining of chest pains and throwing up
before she died."
"What stage of breast cancer?" Maura asked, pressing for more
details. Jane noticed that she avoided using Rose's name, keeping
the questions purely clinical.
"She was diagnosed in stage II and moved to stage III. The
cancer had spread to her upper lymph nodes... but the chemotherapy
was working. Dr. Ferrell said that, hopefully, they had caught it
before it spread to her other organs."
"So there wasn't any further metastasis yet?"
As Mr. Heissmann shook his head, Maura noticed his pale
complexion and became concerned. "Why don't we sit down in the
chairs over there?" she said. "Jane can pull up beside us. All
right?"
"Yes, thank you," he said, relieved for the short break.
Jane tried not to be too disappointed that she couldn't walk
over and sit in a chair like her companions. "Metastasis is when
cancer goes into the rest of the body, right?" Jane asked for
clarification. Maura nodded. "So she was getting
better?"
"That's what we thought."
The medical examiner sighed, shifting in her seat to face the
tired looking man. "Mr. Heissmann, vomiting and pain are normal
symptoms of cancer and also side effects of the drugs used to treat
it, but sudden onset like you've described sounds like an overdose.
Of course, without access to the body, medical history, or
toxicology reports, I can only speculate. "
Both Jane and Mr. Heissmann stared at Maura. "You think she ODed
on something?" the detective asked, sounding surprised.
"Yes."
"Why do you think that?"
"The mention of abnormal chest pain could mean that her heart
was strained by an overdose. Again, this is just a rudimentary
guess. You shouldn't assume anything until the body has been
examined."
"Isn't the hospital supposed to make sure things like that don't
happen?"
"Yes," Maura said again. "In this case, Mr. Heissmann, I would
recommend a full autopsy and lab report. If your wife's toxicology
results are abnormal, you'll have your answer."
...
Chapter Seven: Questions
"Dr. Isles, I'm afraid I can't release any of that information
to you. I'm sure you understand-"
Inside of her room, Jane shifted on the mattress and tilted her
head, tucking a lock of dark hair behind her ear and listening
intently to the argument happening on the other side of the door.
She was supposed to be asleep, which was probably why Maura had
decided to question the night shift nurse in the hallway, but the
constant soreness that radiated out from the bullet wound in her
abdomen kept her from drifting off. She wasn't allowed to use a
morphine drip anymore, but Jane preferred the pain. She had seen
too many other cops become reliant on painkillers after being
injured on the job.
"I simply want to know where the bodies are sent to be autopsied
if a person dies under unusual circumstances here," Maura
continued. "Surely that information isn't protected by federal and
state privacy laws."
The nurse's answer was too low for Jane to make out, but she was
almost sure she caught the word "lawsuit" in there somewhere. A
familiar, exasperated sigh followed, and Jane could picture Maura
tapping the toe of her shoe impatiently.
"Mr. Heissmann is the one who wanted me to ask in the first
place! Apparently - and I can't imagine why - he is under the
impression that a fellow doctor's request for information might
carry more weight with the decidedly unhelpful
staff..."
Jane smiled when Maura continued after a brief pause, obviously
not pleased with whatever the nurse had said. "Well, no wonder you
don't advertise where you send your bodies! Dr. White couldn't find
his own ass with both hands, let alone identify a cause of death,
and I'm sure his students are hardly any better."
Maura's atypical outburst made Jane laugh, but she regretted it
when violent streaks of red exploded behind her eyes. Letting out a
muffled groan of pain, she tried to ignore the sharp, stabbing
sensation in her gut. Unfortunately, Maura heard her from outside
the door and abandoned her tirade, hurrying back into the
room.
"You're supposed to be asleep!" she scolded, bending over to
check on her friend, her brow creased with worry.
Jane tried to bat Maura away with a few weak swings of her hand.
"Stop that. I'm fine. Why were you swearing? You don't
swear."
Maura sighed. "Well, I certainly won't attempt to do so again
any time in the near future if this is the standard result..." she
muttered, pushing past Jane's arms and lifting her shirt to check
on her bandage, not thinking twice about Jane's modesty. Jane,
however, was not so oblivious, and she tried to pull her shirt back
down, at least for the sake of the bewildered nurse who was
standing in the open doorway. The bandages stopped just beneath her
breasts, and she didn't want to give the poor woman, plus anyone
else who happened to be strolling through the hallway in the middle
of the night, a free show.
"Maur, stop that," she said, managing to preserve some of her
dignity while the ME fussed over her. "Who is this Dr. White guy
who can't find his ass with both hands?"
Maura sighed. "I use the term Doctor loosely in reference to
him. He is a professor at the University, and while Boston sports
some of the greatest Academic minds in the United States, his is
not one of them. I had the displeasure of sharing my second year
residency with him. The man is a complete moron. I'll do poor Rose
Heissmann's autopsy myself just to prevent him or one of his
students from making a butchery of it."
"Is that even allowed?" Jane asked.
"I'll make it allowed." Ignoring the fact that her sentence
wasn't grammatically correct - she was two for two today on unusual
sentences - Maura turned around to send the attending nurse away
with a pointed glare. Wisely, the cowed woman shut the door behind
her, leaving the two women in relative privacy.
An uncomfortable silence stretched between them, setting the
doctor and the detective on edge as they studied each other. Maura
was the first to speak, but she did so reluctantly. "Please don't
think that I'm arguing the merits of looking into Rose Heissmann's
cause of death, but Jane, have you given any thought to your
motivations?"
Jane gave the medical examiner a curious look. "My motivations?
I never asked you to do anything but talk to her husband. You're
the one that's going all body snatcher on the hospital." The way
that Jane's dark eyebrows moved as she spoke made Maura's stomach
twist itself into slippery, uncomfortable knots.
"I knew you wanted me to look in to it. I know you,
Jane. I know how you think. You didn't have to ask."
The detective took an almost defensive posture, not sure she
liked what Maura was implying. "You're exaggerating. I'm not that
easy to read..."
"You are to me." There was no smug pride in Maura's admission.
Like most of her statements, it was simply a fact. "I can tell you
want to find out what happened to her. What I would like to know is
why."
Jane shrugged, even though the motion stretched the bands of
muscle across her stomach and made her feel a little sore. "I'm
bored. Let's just leave it at that. It'll be weeks before I can get
back to work, and I have to see a shrink, re-qualify with my
weapon, all that crap. I know finding out how she died is your line
of work, not mine, but putting the wheels in motion gives me
something to do. God, time just crawls by in this place... and Ma
never gives me a moment's peace..."
Although she could tell that Jane was being truthful, Maura
suspected there was more that her friend wasn't saying. "So that's
it? This is just a distraction for you? There's nothing else on
your mind?"
"Yeah." But the blonde didn't miss the slightly startled look in
Jane's eyes. Suddenly, it didn't feel like they were talking about
Rose's death anymore.
"Well, I've been rather preoccupied lately. In fact, I have a
confession to make."
Still a little nervous, Jane tried to tilt the conversation in a
more humorous direction. She was too tired and sore for serious
discussions. "As long as you aren't going to confess your undying
love for Korsak or force me to move back in with my parents once I
break out of this joint, I think we'll be okay."
Maura gave Jane a reassuring smile and instinctively placed a
hand on her arm. "Actually, I wanted to talk about..." Us.
Maura couldn't quite bring herself to define 'them' as an 'us', at
least not out loud. Even though she felt ready for that step, she
didn't want to pressure Jane in any way. "Over the past few days -
no, before that... Recently, I've come to certain realizations
about myself..."
Jane sat up straighter against the headboard, making use of the
stack of pillows behind her head. She tried not to look as
uncomfortable as she felt. For some reason, Maura's touch seemed
unbearably warm on the bare skin of her arm. The contact almost
burned, but it wasn't unpleasant.
"-I think I'm developing strong feelings for you." Maura
barreled on, determined to get the rest of her impromptu speech
over with before Jane could stop her. "I don't know how to classify
them, since this is a new experience for me, but I felt that, as
your friend, I need to be honest with you."
"What do you mean, feelings?" Jane said, almost choking on the
words. Her mouth suddenly went dry, and she struggled for words.
"Maura, we're friends... good friends... I mean, I know we've, but
- do you really want to screw that up?"
Instead of deterring her, Jane's hesitance only emboldened
Maura. Obviously, Jane knew what she was getting at, and she didn't
seem surprised, just very unsure, testing each step before she took
it so that she wouldn't start sinking. That meant there was a
chance - a slim chance - that her feelings might be reciprocated.
"Nothing's going to change right now. You need to focus on getting
better. I just thought you should know."
Instantly, Jane felt a little of her panic subside. A thin layer
of sweat spread itself over her palms, and she hurriedly wiped them
on her bedsheets, trying not to look as nervous as she felt.
Somehow, she had known this conversation would happen between them
one day... but she had always tried not to think about it.
"Jane..." The familiar sound of her name on Maura's lips was
soothing somehow, and the detective relaxed. She looked up into
soft, concerned green eyes. "Jane, you look exhausted. Get some
sleep."
"If I had a quarter for every time someone told me that, I'd be
richer than Donald Trump," Jane muttered, deciding to fall back on
ill humor in order to avoid thinking about all of the things Maura
had said.
"We've been friends for a long time now. You know I only tell
you the truth, even if you don't want to hear it."
The detective sighed. "Especially when I don't want to hear it."
To soften the words, she placed her hand on top of Maura's, giving
the medical examiner's hand a friendly squeeze. For just a moment,
their eyes met as a brief connection passed between them before
both women looked away with identical sheepish
expressions.
...
"Ma, what did you mean the other day about me and Maura?" Jane
asked her mother the next morning as the determined Angela Rizzoli
attempted to replace Jane's damp hospital sheets with colorful ones
from home. The detective suspected that her mother was deliberately
disobeying hospital policies by doing so, but she didn't have it in
her to argue or protest. She simply sat in her wheelchair and
watched, content to let Angela have her way for the
moment.
"Oh, so now you want to talk?" Angela said, pausing in her task
to fold her arms over her chest and give her daughter a smug look.
"I thought all you've been doin' lately is complaining about
me."
For a moment, Jane wondered if Maura had ratted on her, but
dismissed the thought immediately. Her mother just knew. "You know
I love you, Ma. I just don't like being babied."
Tucking the sheets under the mattress in a perfect corner,
Angela walked over to Jane's wheelchair and threaded her fingers
through her daughter's hair, massaging her scalp and rubbing the
back of her neck. "I know, but you'll always be my baby,
Janie."
Jane realized that she would have to give in a little, at least
for now, if she wanted any useful advice from her mother. "I know,"
she said, permitting the attention. "So, what did you
mean?"
"I told you. That girl's in love with you, and in my opinion,
you couldn't do much better." Angela sighed. "But since when do
daughters ever want the people their mothers approve
of?"
"You approve of Maura?" she asked. Even though the topic was
uncomfortable for her, Jane couldn't help being curious. "I mean,
we're Catholic..."
"My Maura's a good girl," Angela said, referring to the absent
doctor almost like a family member. For some strange reason, it
felt right to Jane. "The Pope probably wouldn't approve, but since
when is it his business? God saved both of my children, and Maura
helped... All I want is for you to be happy and
healthy."
"I'm working on the healthy part," Jane said, stretching her
arms and doing a few twists to show her mother the results of her
PT exercises. Angela seemed pleased with Jane's range of motion,
but she shepherded her daughter into the freshly dressed bed anyway
and forced her to lie down.
"So isn't it about time to do a little work on the happiness
part?"
"I am happy," Jane said, but she knew that she wasn't. Even
prior to the shooting, she hadn't been truly happy. Before, she had
just assumed it was a rough patch, the kind of tough few months
everyone went through at some point, but now, she wondered if there
wasn't more to it. Maybe the lingering dissatisfaction that had
been plaguing her had something to do with Maura.
'Why do all of my thoughts seem to come back to
Maura?'Jane wondered to herself. 'Maura...
Maura...'
"Jane!" Her mother's voice jolted Jane out of her entranced
state. "Your cell phone?" Now that her mind was focused, she could
hear the familiar 'Dun Dun DuDun' that signaled a call from the
very woman she had been thinking about. Maura's voice floated in
her ears. 'You should really change it to Dies Irae, Jane...
the melody is so much more melodic...'
Reaching for the phone, Jane held her breath as she waited to
hear Maura's voice. "Hello?"
"Hi there. You'll be pleased to know that my connections have
paid off and I can solve your little mystery for you. I'm going to
perform Mrs. Heissman's autopsy, with her husband's permission of
course. At least I'll have some news to entertain you with tonight
when I visit."
"I'm always entertained when you visit," Jane blurted out before
realizing how that sounded. Angela winked at her and she let out a
frustrated groan.
Recognizing that Jane was irritated rather than in pain, Maura
wasn't too concerned. "What's bothering you now?"
"How do you do that, Maur? It's creepy... And nothing's
bothering me. "
"Are you sure?"
"You're worse than my mother. I'll see you tonight. Does Rose's
husband know you're going to do the autopsy? He was really worried
about it yesterday. It might put his mind at ease."
"Yes, I've already spoken with him. It will mostly be standard
procedure, and my assistants have been doing a good job lately
helping me get through my regular caseload, so I should be able to
take her out of the freezer in a day or so."
Jane shuddered. Although her up-close and personal experiences
with the dead had increased in recent years thanks to Maura, the
thought of human bodies being stored in a freezer still gave her
goosebumps. "Eurgh, Maura, that's gross."
The light sound of Maura's laughter put a smile back on her
face. "Why do you think I said it? Anyway, I have obtained her
medical records, and by all accounts, she was doing much better.
Her cancer was responding very effectively to the treatment.
Whatever happened to this poor woman, it wasn't the disease that
killed her."
"Yeah?" Jane said, feeling slightly guilty for being excited
over someone else's death. Of course she didn't like to think of
anyone being hurt or killed, but finding the solutions to problems,
especially problems that involved dead people... well, that was
what she and Maura did best.
"Yes, Jane, not 'yeah'."
"Fine, fine, 'yes'..." Angela nodded her approval at the side of
the conversation that she could hear, and then gestured that she
was going to leave the room for a little while. Probably to find
more food to torture her with, Jane thought glumly. "I'll see you
tonight," she said, waving goodbye to her mother as she
simultaneously ended her conversation with Maura.
...
Chapter Eight: Puzzles
Maura Isles enjoyed solving puzzles. Puzzles only had one right
answer, one correct sequence, and she liked using the process of
elimination to discover it. Currently, she was labeling the chart
of her latest puzzle - Rose Heissmann.
It was late evening, and the first two shifts of the day had
already departed. The almost otherworldly third shift cops, the
ones who patrolled through the early morning, were out doing their
jobs. Maura made her own work schedule, and performing an autopsy
close to midnight didn't bother her. Fears and superstitions were
borne from ignorance, and there was no room for ignorance in her
life. Maura Isles' universe was constructed entirely of facts. And
facts would lead her to the answer to this particular puzzle: the
cause of death.
"Head-Central Nervous system: the brain weighs..." [A
crackle as the microphone shifts, then a pause] "1,310 grams,
within normal limits."
Maura dutifully typed out the weight of the brain, letting the
recording of her voice continue to run as she prepared her report.
The glow of her computer screen gave the glass walls of the morgue
an eerie sheen, but she ignored it.
"Skeletal system: Significantly decreased bone
density-"
Even though she was dead, Rose Heissmann's expression had seemed
strangely peaceful to Maura while she worked. During the external
examination, the doctor had noticed her sunken cheeks, the
brittleness of her bones as they poked through thin layers of skin.
Maura did not work with many cancer patients. Most of her bodies
were clear homicides or bloody accidents - brutal, but quick.
Seeing the way that the cancer, radiation, and chemotherapy had
ravaged the old woman's body was depressing in a different sort of
way.
"The lungs weigh: right, 353 grams,
left..."
Maura turned off the recording. She normally liked taking
dictation, but tonight, her mind was filled with thoughts of
Jane.
Jane.
She hadn't spoken with the detective since their awkward
conversation the day before. Maura had called in the morning and
offered to spend a few hours visiting, but Jane had told her not to
bother, claiming she had physical therapy scheduled. The blonde
knew that was a lie, but she couldn't get a handle on Jane's
motives. Was the detective embarrassed by Maura's confession, or
was she just tired of everyone hovering over her? Maura knew how
much Jane valued her space and her independence.
"I can't finish this until I get the toxicology report back
anyway," Maura said to herself, saving her work so far and shutting
down her computer. Trying to get anything else done tonight was
hopeless. The techs in the lab would take a while to send her the
results.
Raising her arms above her head and leaning forward, Maura let
out a sigh of relief as she stretched the soreness out of her
shoulders. She normally had excellent posture, but working long
hours into the night took a toll on the healthiest of physical
specimens. A fleeting thought of what a fine specimen her friend
Jane Rizzoli was made the medical examiner pause, and then chastise
herself as she lowered her arms.
Perhaps confessing that she felt something 'more' for Jane had
not been a wise decision. At least she had not attempted to define
'more'. That might have gotten her into even deeper
trouble.
The buzz of Maura's phone against her hip interrupted her silent
analysis. "Isles," came the crisp, automatic response as she
answered the call.
"Maura, it's Jane. Can you get over here right
now?"
The medical examiner frowned even though Jane couldn't see her.
"Where, the hospital?"
"Yeah, could you - sir, you need to calm down. No, I'm just -
sir, I... Maura, I need you..."
If only Jane had said those words to her in a different context,
it would have made Maura's night. But it sounded like the detective
needed to her help. That hypothesis was confirmed when Maura heard
muffled voices in the background and what sounded like the scuffing
of boots across a tile floor. Then, Jane's voice again - "Oh good,
security. Listen, if you don't calm down, they're going to haul
your ass out of here."
Maura's eyes widened and she instantly grabbed for her purse,
leaving the computer and the rest of her belongings where they
were. "Security? Jane, what's going on?"
"Sorry, Maur, I have to go..." was all the detective managed to
say before she hung up the phone.
There was no question in Maura's mind. If Jane needed her, she
would come right away, even without a full explanation.
The drive to the hospital seemed to take longer than usual
despite the lack of traffic on the roads. Even in a city as busy as
Boston, most people were sound asleep at this time of night. Maura
clutched the steering wheel hard enough to drain the blood from her
knuckles. She knew that Jane was capable of taking care of herself,
and it hadn't sounded like her friend was in immediate danger, but
Maura's mind kept returning to the shooting.
'There was so much blood...'
Clinging to the rational hope that Jane wouldn't have hung up if
she was in physical trouble, Maura parked the car near the
emergency entrance in the back, ignoring the blaring,
large-lettered signs that told her the area was off limits. If Jane
did need her help, she wasn't taking any chances.
Pulling out her cell phone again, Maura quickly checked for
messages and missed alerts. Jane hadn't tried to call her a second
time. Deciding to take that as a good sign, the medical examiner
scrolled through her contact list, hitting a number that she had
used several times in the past few weeks. She was lucky that Gerald
Forbes owed her a favor - she had helped him pass his Boards with
flying colors several years ago.
"Gerry? Yes, this is Maura," she confirmed when a sleepy voice
answered. "No, just stay on the line. I need you to say 'open
sesame' for me so that I can get into the hospital after hours..."
After explaining herself to two EMTs, the irritated night
receptionist, the RN on duty, and a Fellow who blanched at the word
'lawsuit', Maura was finally able to gain access to the upper
floors. There was muttering about 'visiting hours' and 'completely
unnecessary panics', but Maura ignored the cross-looking nurse that
finally let her through.
To her surprise - and the nurse's, she could tell - there was
already quite a crowd assembled in the hallway. A trio of security
guards fingered their belts, reaching for something Maura couldn't
see, but assumed was some sort of stick or taser. Were hospital
security guards even allowed to carry weapons...?
And then she saw the source of the commotion. Jane, always one
for finding new ways to get in trouble, had used the bulk of her
wheelchair to back an angry looking young man against a door,
positioning herself directly between him and the frightened looking
floor nurses and a night janitor who had stopped at the other end
of the hall to watch.
"Let me talk to someone in charge!" The young man pushed
forward, moving past Jane's chair and clenching his fists.
"Sir, you need to leave," one of the security guards said,
stepping forward. "This area is restricted."
"Find me someone who can explain what happened to my mother! I
just got off the plane from New York, and nobody knows where her
body is or how she died..." The man continued ranting, completely
ignoring the presence of the security guards.
Typical to her nature, Jane interrupted, putting herself right
in the middle of the confrontation. "I understand that you want to
know what's going on with your mother. Have you talked to your
father at all, Mr. Heissmann?"
"Weaver," the man corrected. "My last name is Weaver. He's my
stepfather."
Jane raised her eyebrows, making a mental note of the new
information. "Your mother's body is at the Boston Police
Department. I promise, we're going to figure out what happened to
her, but you need to calm down." Noticing her new audience, Jane
motioned for Maura to join her. "This is Dr. Maura Isles. She's
doing the autopsy-"
As soon as he heard those words, Weaver's interest was
immediately piqued. "No one's giving me any answers. She was doing
better, and now..."
An expression of grief played across his face, and Maura
couldn't help empathizing with his loss. She stepped forward. "I
promise that your mother is in good hands." She extended an arm in
greeting, and then reached into her purse to fish for one of her
business cards. "Her autopsy is complete, and all of her bloodwork
has been sent to our lab. Hopefully, we'll have some answers for
you soon. Normally, those results are kept confidential, but
considering the unusual circumstances, I would be willing to
discuss some of the details with you..." she paused, glancing at
the security guards who were still hovering around them, "...
tomorrow morning. Here's my contact information. Call me, and we'll
set up an appointment."
She didn't mention the numerous favors she had called in to get
Rose on her table. A sweet, angelic smile had convinced the Chief
to let her tap BPD resources, and a touch of blackmail (she had
witnessed a certain lab specialist in a compromising position with
a colleague at last year's New Years gathering) had gotten her name
bumped up on the waiting list. Although she was extremely satisfied
with her career as it was, Maura would have made an excellent
businesswoman.
"Okay." Still burning off his residual anger, Mr. Weaver shoved
Maura's card into his pocket a little too roughly, but he seemed
satisfied with the compromise.
"All right, people, clear out," the detective said, waving her
hands and trying to look as official as possible from her
wheelchair. Surprisingly, everyone obeyed, even Weaver, who finally
allowed the burly security guards to escort him off the floor,
although he did snatch one last glance over his shoulder before
leaving the hallway. The nurses and janitor were quick to leave
since the commotion was over, and Jane and Maura suddenly found
themselves alone.
The medical examiner reached out to push Jane's wheelchair, but
pulled her hands back before making contact, realizing that Jane
would probably resent the help. "How did he even get up here? The
RN looked at me like I had requested the secret formula to
Coca-Cola when I asked to come upstairs," Maura asked, opening the
door to Jane's hospital room and letting the detective wheel
herself through.
Jane shrugged, stopping next to her bed and attempting to lift
herself onto the mattress. "Well, you didn't have security come
chase you down," she pointed out. Reluctantly, she accepted Maura's
nonverbal offer to help. "Ugh, I hate this. It feels like I can't
do anything anymore because the rest of my body is all connected to
my torso."
Maura opened her mouth to begin explaining how the abdominal
muscles and lower back helped regulate balance and posture, but
stopped as she looked down into Jane's familiar brown eyes. They
were creased at the corners in discomfort, and she was obviously
irritated at her limited mobility, but somehow, Jane still looked
beautiful to her.
'Beautiful. I have always thought of Jane as powerful,
confident, maybe even sexy, but beautiful?'
"Jane, why did you ask me to come here tonight?" Maura asked
impulsively, almost blurting out the question. "Mr. Weaver seemed
frustrated, but it didn't seem like anything you couldn't handle."
Jane had faced down serial killers and convicted felons before.
Surely one pushy relative couldn't be too much
trouble.
"Because we're a team. I know this isn't a real case, but...
you're my back-up, Maur."
Coming from anyone else, it would have been a casual statement,
but knowing Jane like she did, Maura knew that it meant so much
more. The doctor was suddenly acutely aware of the fact that Jane
was in her nightgown, definitely lacking a bra, and even with
slightly messy bandaging and even messier dark hair, she looked
absolutely stunning. Maura couldn't decide whether to step back or
pull closer...
'Jane, if you had any idea...'
But Jane did seem to have an idea. She was a detective, after
all, and she gave Maura a pointed look when the medical examiner's
eyes drifted down the length of her body. Reaching a silent
decision, Jane patted the mattress beside her. "Come
here."
The normally verbose Dr. Isles obeyed without a word, perching
on the edge of the bed. She almost jumped when Jane's arm moved to
wrap around the curve of her waist. "You don't have to sit so far
away..."
"Jane, I really don't want to make you uncomfortable. I know
what I said yesterday-"
"I've been thinking about that," Jane said in a low voice, never
breaking eye contact. Maura felt hypnotized. How could Jane just
look at her like that and make her train of thought completely
disappear? "I'm thinking that... maybe you shouldn't think so
much..."
And miraculously, Jane leaned up, and Maura found herself
dipping down to meet her, pausing inches away from her lover's face
and holding her breath. She still felt the detective's arm, warm
and secure, around her waist, and her heart was hammering
double-time against the wall of her chest. She held completely
still, waiting for Jane to close the final distance.
With a tilt of her chin, Jane caused their lips to brush, and
Maura felt the familiar spark shoot up her spine, the welcome heat
blooming in her abdomen, causing her face to flush and goosebumps
to spread rapidly along her arms.
They pulled apart for a single heartbeat before their mouths met
again. And again. And somehow, Maura found herself with eyes
closed, tucked tight against Jane's side, their thighs pressed
together and their lips dancing in a deep, hungry kiss that was
everything Maura wanted, but also everything that she was terrified
of.
...
Chapter Nine: Feelings
"Jane," Maura whispered, almost choking over the detective's
name. "What are we... are you sure you..." She groped for words,
but nothing came to her. There were only Jane's lips, Jane's hands
holding her waist. Bliss.
"Don't talk so much," Jane whispered. "Don't think so much."
Their mouths met again in a fierce dance, tongues stroking, hands
wandering. When Jane's fingertips crept beneath the hem of Maura's
blouse, skating over bare skin, they left trails of fire in their
wake.
Memories floated up through the haze of arousal, leaving Maura
almost as breathless as the kiss. Jane pinning her against the
door, taking her... A warm, wet mouth folding around the excited
tip of her breast... Kneeling between lean thighs, dipping her
head, grazing her tongue through slick heat...
Jane held Maura closer, tangling her fingers in silky blonde
hair as the medical examiner tucked her face against an offered
shoulder. "Maur..."
The sound of Jane murmuring her name only drove her need higher,
and she caught the detective's lower lip between her teeth, tugging
sharply before using her tongue to soothe the sting. Jane tried to
move beneath Maura, giving her more room on the bed, but the shift
in weight caused the ache in her abdomen to flare sharply, and she
grunted in pain.
"Oh no..." Maura pulled back immediately, almost losing her
balance. "I could have hurt you!" She hadn't even remembered that
Jane was injured. She chewed on the corner of her mouth, her glazed
eyes clearing and filling with guilt instead.
Jane frowned, shaking her head and trying to pull Maura back on
top of her. "Don't care."
"But..."
"Maur. Just keep kissing me... keep kissing me..." Jane leaned
forward, touching her nose to Maura's, breathing lightly against
her cheek. "Kissing can't hurt, right?"
"I -I don't know..."
The detective gave a deep, throaty chuckle, using the strength
left in her upper body to coax Maura to straddle her waist. It
hurt, but she tried to hide the grimace of pain that crossed her
face. "The brilliant Doctor Isles doesn't know the answer?" Jane
let her hands trail along Maura's upper thighs, toying with the hem
of her skirt, which fell to just above her knees. She was delighted
to notice that the medical examiner was wearing stockings. "Maybe
we should conduct some tests."
For a moment, Maura came back to herself. She shook her head. "I
want you, Jane... I do. But your body isn't ready," she said
regrettably. She dipped her chin to place a kiss on Jane's
forehead. "Now stop that," she murmured, placing her hands over
Jane's to try and stop the detective from stroking her legs.
Despite her words, Maura's hips pressed down against Jane's, and
she could tell that her panties were probably already
ruined.
Seeing her chance, Jane let her right hand slide higher
underneath Maura's skirt, taking encouragement from Maura's
quickened breathing and the subtle rocking motion of her pelvis.
Right now, she didn't care about the confusing state of their
relationship, that she was still injured, or that they were in a
hospital room. She needed to feel Maura. All of her.
Her fingers skimmed over the garters that held up Maura's
stockings, smiling at the softness of the material. "Just how much
did these cost, I wonder?" she mused, deciding that a slow,
seductive touch was just what she needed in order to persuade the
medical examiner.
When Maura didn't resist, Jane's touch became even more daring,
and she cupped her hand directly between Maura's legs, her eyes
widening at the heat and the obvious wetness she could feel through
the soft material. "Nothing's wrong with my fingers, right?" Jane
purred, but when Maura's hips bore down on her hand, it put a
slight strain on her torso, and she couldn't hide a small grunt of
pain.
"No," Maura decided, immediately swinging her leg over and away
from Jane, avoiding the all-too-tempting touch. "It's too
risky..."
"We'll be careful."
There were only two ways to end this battle of wills, Maura
realized. One would be to give in. To surrender herself to the
things that she and Jane both wanted, to disobey all of her
instincts except one and ignore all the possible repercussions. The
other was to walk out the door. And as much as she wanted to, she
couldn't find the strength to climb off of the small, cramped
hospital bed that she and Jane had managed to squeeze
on.
"If we... have sex..." She settled on 'sex', since 'intercourse'
sounded far too medical even for her, and 'making love' was too
much of an emotional gamble. "You have to promise to do exactly
what I say, Jane Rizzoli."
Jane smiled. "Does that mean you want to be on top?" she
whispered, beginning to unbutton Maura's blouse from the bottom up.
If the doctor wasn't going to straddle her anymore, she could at
least get working on her clothes. Maura slapped her hands away
lightly.
"I mean it, Jane. Exactly what I say."
"Sure."
So it was decided. And once Maura committed herself to a course
of action, she always followed through.
Reaching beneath her own skirt this time, she unclipped her left
stocking and, turning to make sure Jane could watch, began rolling
it down over her knee. The detective's eyes widened, aroused but
also slightly surprised by the sight. She had assumed that they
would keep their clothes on, just in case one of the nurses felt
the need to check on Jane or investigate a 'suspicious
noise'.
Once the stocking was pulled down to her ankle, Maura removed it
and straightened the bunched material, tucking her knees beneath
her as she shifted her weight on the bed beside Jane. Taking one of
the brunette's hands in hers, she began tracing the outline of her
fingers, exploring the texture of her palm and the lines that
creased its center. Jane attempted to take Maura's hand in hers,
bringing her knuckles up for a kiss, but the ME resisted. She
pulled Jane's hand up to the head of the bed, threading the
stocking through one of the white bars on the side and looping it
around the detective's wrist. That got a surprised snort from Jane,
but no verbal response.
"I don't trust you to keep your hands to yourself," Maura
clarified. "You get carried away."
"I still have one hand free," Jane pointed out, turning slightly
onto her side so that she could cup one of Maura's breasts through
her partially-unbuttoned blouse. She was about to slip beneath the
underwire of her bra, which Jane knew was completely unnecessary,
when Maura stopped her.
"I still have another stocking." Shifting down on the bed so that
Jane couldn't quite reach, she removed her right stocking in the
same manner as the first, holding it up when she was done and
reaching for Jane's other wrist. "You promised to do exactly what I
said. This is just a... reminder."
Having delivered her orders, Maura finally climbed down off of
the mattress, not even noticing the cold tile under her bare feet.
Her body felt like it was on fire. The sight of Jane's arms
restrained to either side of the bed, even by something as flimsy
and easily tearable as a stocking, was strangely appealing. She
would examine her motivations later. Jane's dark eyes bored into
her, somewhere between demanding and pleading for Maura to come
close enough to touch again.
"Hold completely still," Maura warned as she approached the foot
of the bed, standing level with Jane's knees. Seeing the
frustration in her lover's eyes, she tried her best to add a little
humor to the situation. "Why don't I check on your bandages, then,
Detective Rizzoli?"
If it were possible, Jane's eyes grew even wider, even darker as
Maura lifted the hem of her gown. Thankfully, it was a nicer one
that had been purchased for her instead of the paper hospital
variety. "Fuck, Maura..." For some reason, that simple action was
almost as arousing as a physical caress. Jane felt her desire
double and her inner walls twitch as Maura hooked her fingers in
the elastic of Jane's underwear, pulling them down to her knees and
urging her to spread her thighs as much as the restriction would
allow.
Maura almost swallowed her tongue as she looked down. Even in
the unflattering fluorescent lighting, with the middle of her torso
wrapped in bandages, what she could see of Jane's naked body was
absolutely stunning. She trailed her fingertips along the soft,
tanned skin of Jane's inner thigh, drawing a trail of hearts using
the edge of her nail and making her lover shiver. Jane arched the
small of her back, offering herself. "Maura..."
"Don't move, and be quiet."
The medical examiner wasted no time, dipping her fingers into
the wetness pooled between Jane's legs, using her other hand to
hold the taller woman's lower body absolutely still. Not being able
to thrust up, to take the teasing fingers inside of her, was
absolutely maddening, and a sob broke in Jane's throat. She wasn't
too proud to beg. "Please!" She reached down to try and direct
Maura's touch, which was playing through her folds at a torturously
slow pace, but remembered too late that her hands were fastened to
the bars on the side of the bed. "Dammit!"
"You need to learn how to take instruction better," Maura
chastised, emphasizing her point by hooking her fingers just inside
of Jane's entrance.
Unable to speak loudly, unable to use her hands, and unable to
move unless she wanted Maura to stop what she was doing, Jane's
only way of dealing with the building pressure was to chew
furiously on her lower lip and concentrate on her breathing. But
Maura was making it exceedingly difficult, and Jane knew that there
was no way she would last. Maura's hand was playing her expertly,
and she knew that the blonde was doing it on purpose. She knew how
to draw Jane's release out, and she knew how to send it crashing
down around her head. Right now, she was obviously not going to
stretch it out, however much Jane might have wanted her
to.
"God, Maur..."
Since Jane's plea came out as a breathy whisper instead of a
shout, Maura didn't object to it. She shot Jane a meaningful look
as she sped up the pace of her thrusts, crossing her index and
middle fingers as she twisted them forcefully inside of her
partially immobilized lover.
It was all too much for the poor detective. The threat of
getting caught, the smooth texture of the stockings wrapped around
her wrists, and the furious motion of Maura's hand between her
legs. "Jesus. I'm gonna... aaah..."
Feeling the tips of Maura's fingers push against the rough spot
inside of her that always made her melt was too much. Jane's
release was quiet, but shattering. It left her gasping and staring
up at Maura with a dazed expression on her face, wondering what had
happened to the truck that had obviously just run her
over...
"There, Jane, that's it." Maura stopped the motion of her hand,
keeping her fingers inside as her other hand caressed Jane's cheek,
sweeping over the detective's lower lip with the pad of her thumb.
She smiled when Jane bit down before the imprint of her teeth with
a kiss. "Are you experiencing any pain?"
"No, Doctor Isles," Jane said, trying to roll her eyes
but unable to sound annoyed after such a powerful orgasm. She
exhaled, relishing the feeling of Maura inside of her, lying next
to her, and hoping that they could risk a few more minutes in this
position. "That... was not what I expected," she panted, unable to
resist returning Maura's seductive smile. "But..."
"But?" Maura gave her embedded fingers another shove, coaxing a
few more aftershocks from her bound bedpartner.
"But I'm definitely not complaining."
...
Chapter Ten: Risks
'I can't believe I did that...'
At 9:00 the following morning, Maura still couldn't fully
process the frantic, forbidden experience that she and Jane had
shared just a few hours before. Unfortunately, most of their
encounters were frantic and forbidden.
'I can't believe Jane let me do
that.'
Perhaps it was partially because of their eclectic work
schedules, but Maura suspected that there was more behind their
tendency to rush, to consume each other in flames until nothing
remained but ashes. Maybe they didn't want to bring deeply buried
emotions to the surface and jeopardize their fragile
relationship.
'She made herself so vulnerable to
me...'
Maura shook her head and sighed. "What am I doing here?" she
asked aloud. The Medical Examiner was not referring to her
early-morning presence in the morgue, but it was easier to phrase
her question as 'what am I doing here' instead of 'what on earth
are Jane and I getting ourselves in to...'
Unfortunately, Maura had a feeling that she knew exactly what
they were getting themselves in to. According to her research, it
was called a 'relationship'. The only problem was Jane. She wasn't
sure if the detective was ready for labels, or any kind of
relationship beyond what they already had. Maura knew that Jane was
fond of her. More than fond of her. They were friends. But did her
friend have any romantic feelings for her aside from sexual
attraction?
Maura had never been good at working through these sorts of
problems. In fact, she went out of her way to avoid them. This
time, she did not need to search for a work-related distraction,
because one presented itself right on cue.
"Dr. Isles?"
Maura looked up. She had a memory for voices as well as faces,
another of her quirks, and she immediately recognized Rose
Heissmann's son. "Good morning, Mr. Weaver. I assume someone
upstairs directed you to my morgue, since there is no other way you
could have gotten past the detectives and patrol officers
upstairs."
The young man reached into his pocket and pulled out a small
white square. "I showed them your card."
Maura decided to have a talk with the boys upstairs later.
Although she was actually grateful for the brief respite from her
own thoughts, that didn't mean she wanted strangers tramping
through her morgue on a regular basis. She gave her card out
frequently, and it wasn't an all-access visitor's pass by any
means.
"Very good," she said anyway, putting the problem aside for
later. Maura was very skilled at putting problems aside for
later... "How may I help you?"
Looking much less angry than the night before, Mr. Weaver seemed
almost contrite as he shifted his weight from loafer to loafer. His
hair was neatly groomed and he had no facial hair to speak of. "I
apologize if I behaved... inappropriately last night. I was very
upset, and no one seemed to be able to give me any
answers."
"Understandable." Maura dismissed the apology. "First thing's
first, your..." she paused, remembering that Mrs. Heissmann's
husband was not Weaver's father, "your mother's husband is
officially on record as our contact for her remains. This might be
an awkward subject, but do you have any plans to challenge that in
court?"
"I didn't know I could," said the young man. "But no. I'm sure
I'll help with the funeral arrangements, but I have no problem with
that. I just wanted to be certain that she was... taken care of.
You understand."
Maura was about to state that she did not understand, since her
own mother was still alive, but thought better of it. Sometimes her
literal nature rubbed people the wrong way. "Of
course."
"Do you know how she died?"
The medical examiner did not mind the abruptness of the
question. "I'm afraid that I can't give you a straightforward
answer," Maura said, putting on her most convincing disappointed
face. "I will say that her death was unexpected and sudden, and
most likely not directly related to her recent battle with cancer.
There were no signs of trauma to her body, so I suspect the answer
will come from the lab in a few days."
"You think she had some kind of infection? Or something
poisonous got in her system?"
Maura's eyebrows rose slightly, lips parting. "It is possible
that your mother received too much medication, or medications.
Sometimes the danger lies in the combination..." She decided not to
delve further into the subject. "Anyway, as soon as I find out
anything pertinent that I am authorized to share with you, I
promise to let you know. You have my card and my work
phone..."
To be honest, Maura was slightly confused about why Mr. Weaver
had dropped by in person. Most of this information could have been
delivered through a phone call. However, she chalked it up to
normal grief and concern after the death of a loved one and the
fact that he didn't live in the area.
"I'm planning on staying for a few weeks," Mr. Weaver said,
"just to make sure everything is settled. I want to find out what
happened to my mother, and make sure she died of natural
causes."
Maura nodded sympathetically even though she already suspected
that Rose had definitely not died of natural causes. She wasn't
going to make her next move until she was absolutely sure - the lab
results would answer her questions. "All right. I promise to stay
in touch." Making sure that he was comfortable with having her in
his space, she carefully approached him and put a small hand on his
upper right arm. "I'm very sorry about your mother. My friend Jane
tells me that she was a very strong and cheerful person despite her
illness." The medical examiner wasn't always the best "people
person", but she wasn't terrible at faking it, either. She really
did feel sorry for Mr. Weaver.
"Thank you. My first name is Jim, if you'd like to use it." As
far as Maura could tell, Jim wasn't trying to flirt with her, and
so she didn't object.
"All right. I need to get back to work, but I would highly
recommend the deli across the street. I don't always trust meat in
places like that, but Frank's has some excellent lunch
sandwiches... that is, unless you aren't omnivorous and prefer a
vegetarian diet."
Jim Weaver nodded his thanks. "Uh, yeah, I'm not a vegetarian.
I'll give it a look. I definitely need something to eat. Thank you
again."
"You're most welcome."
Maura wasn't sure whether to be relieved or disappointed when
her guest departed, leaving her alone in the morgue. She almost
wished one of her assistants were there to bother her. She could
use the distraction. She stood in silence for a moment, wondering
exactly what she and Jane were heading towards, and hoping the fast
pace of... whatever it was... wouldn't end in a collision.
Automatically, Maura started drawing up a mental contract with
herself. The passionate, risky sex she and Jane had engaged in the
night before couldn't happen again. They would just have to return
to their regular friends-with-benefits routine or cease and desist
completely, she decided.
Rule one. I will not have sexual intercourse with Jane in
places where we might be discovered. Rule
two...
Maura paused. Unfortunately, the thought of discovery aroused
her even more than simply remembering the encounter, and even
though she was glad that no one had walked in on them, she had to
admit that it heightened the sense of excitement. Perhaps she was a
closeted exhibitionist... but she would deal with that later. Like
so many other things that swirled around in Maura's giant brain, it
would just have to be put off for another, more convenient
time.
Rule two. I will not confess my feelings to Jane because it
might scare her away.
The medical examiner deliberately ignored the fact that she had
already let a few things slip. She would have to keep the rest of
her cards close to her chest.
Rule three. I will not do anything to endanger Jane's
physical or mental health while she is
recovering.
That was the only rule that Maura thought she would have an easy
time following. She didn't want to do anything to jeopardize her
friend's healing process.
Rule four. I will resume my yoga practice in order to
perfect the art of meditation and clearing my mind of all...
distractions.
Distractions - Jane, licking her - long, dexterous fingers
clutching at her thighs, spreading her knees -
"Ugh," Maura said, walking over to the desk that held the
autopsy room computer and banging her head on it repeatedly. "Rule
four needs to begin immediately."
With a sigh, she decided that she might as well get most of her
boring paperwork out of the way. If she was going to be distracted,
it was better to be distracted over paperwork than a corpse. She
didn't want to miss a single detail during the autopsies she had
lined up for later in the afternoon.
Maura collected her things and headed for her office, smiling at
the thought of the new red chair that was waiting for her there.
Jane would throw an absolute fit when she saw it... Have to
stop thinking about Jane.
Digging through her purse to find her keys, Maura finally found
what she was looking for and pull them out, inserting them into the
lock and entering the dark room for the first time that day. To her
surprise, a red light was blinking on her work phone, indicating
that she had a message. "Already?" she asked herself aloud, setting
down her things and striding over to her desk to see who had tried
to call.
The medical examiner pressed one for Voicemail, then speaker.
"Dr. Isles? This is Teddy from the lab." Maura smiled at the
familiar, slightly high-pitched voice of the lab technician. He was
still very young, in his mid-twenties, and had a bit of a crush on
her. Despite her guilty conscience, she had occasionally used that
to get her results processed slightly faster. "I processed the
samples you gave me for Rose Heissmann. Apparently she was on
several medications, but one level was several hundred times over
the recommended dosage limit, an SERM called Raloxifene, marketed
as Evista."
Although Maura wasn't a surgeon, she knew enough about cancer to
recognize the acronym. SERMs were Selective Estrogen Receptor
Modulators, hormone therapy drugs used to slow or prevent the
growth of breast tumors.
"But aside from the sky high dosage, here's the weird thing...
she's also on another SERM called Tamoxifen. I'm no surgeon, but I
don't know why they would prescribe both. Just something to look in
to. I'll fax you the full report later in the day."
The message ended. That was all Maura needed to hear. Obviously,
someone had given too much medication to Rose, causing her untimely
death. Now, she just needed to find out who, why, and
how.