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This
is a story set in a BDSM bar. While you could technically say it
doesn't have sex between women, you could also argue that it does.
Yes, there is bdsm in it. If you don't know what those four letters
stand for, you might want to find out first.
This was edited
for grammar and writing details, but no one has looked at it for me
in terms of reality. I am not a member of the leather community. I've
never witnessed a scene like this. If you are a member of the leather
community, and I've made some terrible grievous error or even a minor
one that bothers you, please let me know. I'm always looking to
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Love to you all.
After an hour's
drive, Jordan reached the edge of Long Island. Parking her bike in
the employee lot, she took the elevator to the top floor of the
building she worked and then climbed the utility staircase to the
roof. With a sigh, she crossed the gravel surface to drop into her
favorite thinking spot.
The lights of Manhattan seemed far
away from here.
Jordan sat casually on the edge of the roof,
one leg hanging over the side of the building. She pulled out a
cigarette, but left it dangling from her fingers as she leaned
against the large air conditioning unit. Staring out at the lights
she tried to hide from her memories of what had happened that
night.
Glancing at the cigarette, she knew she couldn't light
it. Just like she couldn't forget, or go back.
The footsteps
behind her were almost a pleasant distraction. She knew who it was
before he spoke.
“Jordan?”
She grinned and
waved at the night guard without looking. “Hey, Tony.”
“What
are you doin' here, girl? Don't you get enough of this place during
the work day?”
“I don't work on the roof, Tony.”
She shook her head and pointed at the roof top. “That's work
down there. This?” She waved at the sky and the city lights.
“This is totally different. This is life.”
The
guard shook his head and squatted down next to her. “Known you
four years and I never get you when you talk about life. You're not
drunk or stoned, are you?”
A wry smile crossed the
tanned face, and her short dark bangs fell into her eyes as Jordan
shook her head. “Nah. Rode my bike here from the island. You
know I don't drink much if I'm on the bike.” She lifted the
cigarette, as if to take a drag, and then stared at it. “I wish
I was, though.”
Tony watched his friend closely. They
usually told him what was up with her, but tonight there was a new
look, with an old haunt. “Xochilt showed up at the bar,
huh?”
His question had been asked in a quiet voice,
which made the volume of her laughter all that much louder. After a
moment, it ended, and she sighed. “Am I that transparent,
Tony?”
He shook his head. “Nah. I just had a
feeling.” Sighing, he shifted position and sat beside her. “So
she showed up again. What'd you do? Run?”
She glared at
him.
“Well, that's what you do, isn't it? She shows up
at Sirens, you dump whatever chick you were talkin' up, and you
hightail it outta there.” He took out his own lighter and
cigarette. “Isn't that what you did?” Motioning with his
hand, he offered her a light.
Jordan glanced absently at the
white stick in her fingers and put it to her mouth. She leaned
forward towards the flame, then pulled back and took the cigarette
out from between her lips. “No, wait. I – ah, shit.”
With a grimace she tossed the object over the edge, not even watching
as it fell.
Tony raised an eyebrow and glanced after the
cigarette, as if it had left a vapor trail on its end flight. Looking
back at his friend, he shook his head again. “Just don't try
that with mine, okay?” He lit his and watched her. “So
you gonna tell me what happened?”
She shrugged and
stopped herself from leaning closer to breathe in his smoke. “You
know what happened.”
“Is that it?”
She
shrugged again and didn't say anything.
“You don't
usually end up on the roof. Usually you just go home and mope. What
drove you up here tonight?”
The tiniest of real smiles
crossed Jordan's face and was gone again. “Would you believe me
if I said Xochilt got topped?”
The question was enough
to freeze the big black man. “Huh?” She nodded to him.
“The ultimate fucking top – got topped?”
Another
nod, and a hint of hysterical laughter. “She sure did.”
Jordan sobered quickly. “She sure did.”
“Well,
damn, girlfriend. Why the fuck are you mopin' around instead of
partyin'? 'Bout fuckin' time someone took that bitch down.”
Jordan
sighed and shifter her body, both long legs dangling above the
pavement some twenty stories below. “You don't get it,
Tony.”
“What don't I get?”
“It
– changes things.” She shifted again, and Tony put an
hand on her shoulder.
“Uh, Jordan, you're makin' me
nervous. Move to this side of the ledge, would you?”
Rolling
her eyes, the brunette did what she was asked. “Happy?”
“Put
your butt on the gravel, not the cement, and I'll be happy.”
“You
mean, put the leather on these stones?” She brushed her hands
down the leather pants she wore. “Not on your life, you
rent-a-cop.”
In one swift motion, he grabbed her legs
and pulled until her rear end slid off the cement ledge and made
contact with the gravel top. “Goddamn it, get your ass down
here, and don't call me that, you 'ho.”
“Boot
boy.”
“Dyke.”
“Cock-sucker.”
“Rug
muncher.”
They glared at each other until Jordan raised
an eyebrow. “Do you realize that everything except for 'ho and
rent-a-cop is true?”
Tony nodded and took a drag. “It
ain't an insult if it ain't true.”
Both of them held
straight faces for a moment more before busting out in laughter. It
took them several moments to get hold of themselves. Just as they did
so, Tony's radio squawked to life. He answered the call, saying he'd
be down to the lobby after another sweep of the upper floors.
Jordan
looked on as Tony stood and looked at his watch.
“Holy
shit, almost four. Mornin' crew'll be showin' in an hour.” His
gaze returned to his friend. “Wanna get some breakfast with me
when I get through?”
She shook her head and absently
reached for her cigarette pack. “Nah. Gonna sit for a few more,
then get moving.” Staring at her lighter, she let a tiny smile
pass her lips. “Got a little thinking to do.”
Tony
sighed, but nodded. “All right, if you want. Saturday fuckin'
morning. Why the hell you like hangin' out up here when you don't
have to work, I don't get." He shrugged. "Don't stay too
much longer, okay? And keep your ass off the ledge.”
With
a smile and a wave, she watched him disappear back through the door
to the stairs. Then she turned her eyes to the lights and let her
mind turn back to the beginning of her evening.
***
For all its glamour and
glitz, Manhattan had a definite seedy side to it. Part of that
seediness was the nightclub called Sirens. Located behind and under a
fancy restaurant, the entrance to the club was at the bottom of a
staircase directly across an alley from the back door of a porn
shop.
Although Sirens was owned by the same gay couple that
ran the trendy restaurant upstairs, it catered to a completely
different clientele. Simply put, Sirens was a leather bar. Women from
across the city came to the club, dressed in their finest fetish
gear, all looking for something they only dared to name when the
lights of the city burned bright.
The sweet voice of Tori Amos
greeted Jordan as she entered, and she mouthed the words to “Sweet
Sangria” as she craned her neck to look toward the dj booth.
Sure enough, it was Tammy, who was a Tori freak. Jordan smiled,
knowing that some of her best scenes had been accompanied by Tori's
smooth croon.
Most of the regulars that she knew were already
at their accustomed places. Chevy was at the pool table with her
crew, wearing jeans and a denim jacket; she always said it was the
leather scene she loved, not the leather.
Magnum was leaning
against the bar, her favorite sub Terence right beside her. Magnum
was an investment realtor during the day, she knew, but at night she
was a top in full black leather regalia. Terence, also dressed in
full gear, was subservient only to Magnum. The two of them had been
together for as long as Jordan had known them; they loved to add a
third person to their scenes.
Near the far wall, sitting at a
table with two subs already positioned at her feet, was the queen of
the Victorian discipline scene. Elly was dressed in a dark silk suit
with a real top hat on the table beside her. The birch walking stick
that leaned against the table, within easy reach of one elegant hand,
wasn't just for show; Elly was as good with that carved instrument as
Jordan was with the cat that hung from her belt.
With a nod at
a few of the other regulars she knew, Jordan made her way to the bar.
Cleo was on duty tonight, and grinned at Jordan, leaning forward to
show off her cleavage. “What are you in the mood for, Jordan?
Or can I call you Mistress tonight?”
Raising an eyebrow
and glancing appreciatively at the displayed flesh, Jordan laid a
twenty on the bar. “Two fingers of Jameson's, neat. Thought you
were with Chevy last week.”
The blond bartender shrugged
and slapped a glass onto the wooden bar. “I was. It was good.”
She poured the whiskey and winked at Jordan. “But that was last
week. And besides – she's not you.” With a wink, she
added an extra finger of liquor to the glass before sliding the drink
towards her customer.
With a smile, Jordan slid the bill
towards Cleo. “Keep it. I'll want another later.”
“Yes,
Mistress.” Another wink as Cleo palmed the twenty and turned
aside to deal with another customer.
Jordan couldn't help but
chuckle as she turned from the bar. Cleo was hers for the taking
tonight, but she wanted to see what else would turn up
first.
Leaning against a pillar, she took a better look around
the club to see what her options were tonight. She considered and
discarded several young women who were obviously there just to say
they'd been to a leather bar. You could always tell the type; they
stayed in a group, drank champagne or some kind of mixed drinks, and
would get giggly if anyone actually made eye contact. This current
group was whispering among themselves and looking nervously towards
the stage. Jordan doubted that they'd even make it to the eleven
o'clock floor show. It was only ten-twenty, but usually the
'gigglers', as she called them, disappeared when someone actually
took the stage.
As she scanned the rest of the women in the
bar, Jordan noticed what she'd missed earlier. Tucked away in a back
corner table sat Tash, her blond hair shining softly even in the low
lights of the bar. Jordan sipped from her drink and studied the other
woman.
Like Jordan, Kelly Tasher was a top. Yet she was also
completely unlike any other top that Jordan had ever known. Chevy was
all sweet talk and hand spanking. Magnum was rough language and lots
of pain. Elly was elegance and discipline with a touch of theatre
thrown in.
But Tash was all cool, calm control. Discipline
when needed, pain as a method of focus, sensation as arousal. Jordan
had watched the woman do a few public scenes, and she'd noticed
something. While most of the other tops were loud and brash on stage,
showing their control over their subs through flash and volume, Tash
wasn't. Tash never yelled. She never threatened. She gave quiet
warnings and backed them up with a strong whip arm. But Jordan had
never heard her raise her voice, had never seen her lose any of the
cool control she projected at all times.
Sometimes it
irritated her. And at other times she found herself wanting to feel
that calm control.
There had been a night, a couple of months
earlier, when they'd both been on the verge of drunkenness. Jordan
had come to the bar just for fun that night, and she and Tash had
shared some beers and laughs, with others and just the two of
them.
At one point in the evening, as Tash was about to go for
another round, she stopped and looked at Jordan. After a moment she
leaned down and whispered in the darker woman's ear.
“You
need my whip, Jordan. When you're ready, come to me.”
With
that she headed off to the bar.
Jordan had been frozen in her
chair, her intoxication and sudden fear preventing her from reacting
in any other way. When Tash returned she didn't bring the subject up
again, and Jordan had chosen to ignore it.
But she couldn't
forget. Sometimes, in the darkest part of the night, when the high
from a scene had dissipated and she was left alone in her bed with
only her memories and her Marlboros, Tash's words would echo in her
ear. For that moment she'd imagine what it would be like, to be
caught in that web of control, to let Tash have her way and swing her
whip.
With the coming of first light, however, those images
would flee, and all that was left was her fear.
Shaking her
head and trying to put the blond out of her mind, Jordan scanned the
crowd again, watching for that one person who would catch her
attention. She finally found her at a table not far from Tash's.
The
brown haired woman was seated with a group, but didn't appear to be
participating in the conversation. Her chair was pushed back from the
table, one booted foot crossed over a denim covered thigh. Every few
minutes she'd sip from the beer she held while scanning the room, as
if looking for something or someone.
Jordan kept her gaze on
the woman and let a light smile play across her lips. Eventually the
woman noticed her attention and she hesitated before taking another
sip of beer and continuing her perusal of the bar. Another heartbeat
and her eyes lifted to meet Jordan's again, this time with nervous
anticipation in them.
Knowing that the game was just
beginning, Jordan waited another moment, then deliberately looked
away. She could feel the woman's eyes still on her, and she knew
chances were good that she'd be taking her home tonight.
But
not yet. They were just getting started.
Feeling another set
of eyes on her, she glanced around and found Tash watching her with a
smile on her face. The blonde glanced at the woman Jordan was toying
with, then smiled and nodded. She pushed out a chair with her boot,
an invitation to join her while Jordan let her quarry simmer.
With
one more glance at the brown haired woman, Jordan moved toward the
offered seat, a touch of swagger in her step.
"Tash. Good
to see you."
"Jordan. Glad you're here. How've you
been?"
"Good." She noticed Tash's drink was
nearly empty, and she nodded at it. "Can I get you
another?"
The blond shook her head. "No, thanks. I'm
about to switch to ice water."
"You driving or --
hunting?"
Tash laughed, her voice light and soft. "I
think I'll leave the hunting to you tonight. You just walked in and
you've got someone on the hook."
"You're mixing your
metaphors, Tash."
"Sorry. You do have a good eye,
though." Tash nodded toward the woman Jordan had been watching.
"She's got just enough of a vulnerable look to be
alluring."
Jordan smiled and shrugged just a little.
"Jealous that I got to her first?"
The blond shook
her head. "Not really. I'm not in the mood for someone like her
tonight."
"Who are you in the mood for?"
Tash's
smile softened, and there was a decided glint in her eye. "Maybe
someone like you."
Jordan nearly choked on the whiskey
she'd just swallowed. She coughed and wiped her mouth with the back
of her hand. She didn't even try to look at Tash, almost afraid of
what she'd see.
Or what she'd say.
Tash laughed softly.
"Sorry. Didn't mean to startle you, Jordan."
"Yeah,
well." The taller woman shrugged again and took another sip of
her drink. It was a stall and she knew it. "One day you'll get
the concept of top and bottom, Tash."
"Oh, I get it,
Jordan." She grinned and tossed back what was left of her drink.
"I just don't always accept it."
"Well, you
should."
"Why?"
"Because that's the
way some people are. They're either, or. And you can't force them to
change."
Tash shook her head. "I don't think that's
true. You can force anyone to change. But that's not what a true top
does. There is no force involved. You know that."
Jordan
nodded, but didn't look at her.
Blue eyes watched her
carefully, a thoughtful look in them. "But you were forced,
weren't you?"
Jordan's face tightened, the muscles in her
jaw standing out. "I don't know what you're talking about."
"I
know about Xochilt. About what she did to you."
Suddenly
there wasn't enough whiskey in Jordan's glass. She wondered idly if
there was enough Jamison's in the bar to make her forget.
"She
changed you. Forced you to change your very nature in order to
survive."
"Shut up, Tash."
"You
need to deal with it, Jordan."
"What I need,"
the darker woman stressed the word, "is another drink, and to
fuck someone." She finished her glass and stood. "Nice
talkin' to you, Tash."
"Better collect your prey and
get out of here, Jordan."
"Why's that? You thinking
of joining the hunt?"
The blond top shook her head and
pointed toward the bar. Jordan turned to see the one person she
dreaded running into. Xochilt was there, talking to Cleo, reaching
across the bar to caress the woman's cheek.
"Isn't this
where you normally run?"
Jordan couldn't even deny
it.
***
But instead, she sat back down and waved at
Georgia, the one and only waitress in the bar that night. Within a
few minutes the waitress had gotten Jordan another Jamison's, and the
dark haired woman was calming down. Tash had stayed quiet, but Jordan
could feel the blonde’s eyes still watching her. She turned
away, glancing over to the last place she saw her prey.
"Looked
at the bar?"
Jordan gritted her teeth. "Don't care
what she's doing."
"You might. She's talking to your
quarry."
A quick turn of her head confirmed Tash's
statement, and Jordan sighed. "Fine. There are other
women."
"Other fish in the sea, yes indeed."
Tash's voice was slightly teasing before getting serious again. "Or
you could fight for her. Give the girl a choice."
"Right."
Jordan shook her head.
Tash sighed. "Why do you put up
with it, Jordan?"
"Put up with what?"
"She
stole your power. And she continues to do it, and she's been doing it
for so long that you just let her."
"I don't let her
do anything."
"Then why do you always run away from
her?"
"I don't." Jordan spread her hands out.
"See me not running?"
"Yeah. I also see you
hiding."
"Fuck you, Tash."
"Not
until I fuck you first."
Jordan raised her head in
surprise at that. "I -- I didn't think --"
"What?
There's no sex in my public scenes, so you didn't think there would
be in private?"
"No. There's no sex in anyone's
public scenes, at least not here."
"So?"
"So,
I just -- I didn't know you -- felt --" She stopped and
shrugged. "Never mind."
Tash shook her head but let
it go for the moment. They were both quiet, Jordan sipping her
whiskey and Tash crunching ice from her glass of water. Jordan tried
not to look toward the bar area, but Tash was keenly watching the
seduction of Jordan's former prey.
"She does have a way
about her. And she's a little exotic looking. I can see why you fell
for her."
"I didn't, and I don't want to talk about
it."
"I didn't ask you to talk. Merely making an
observation is all."
"Uh-huh." The tension was
making Jordan fidget, and she finally decided she needed a cigarette.
Eying the distance to the back porch, she wondered if she could make
it without being seen.
Tash noticed the path of Jordan's gaze.
"Don't, Jordan. I don't like the smell of cigarettes."
"Then
don't come with me."
The blond rolled her eyes but stood
when Jordan did. She followed the taller woman, noticing her steps
were more hurried than usual. As they went through the patio door,
Tash risked a look back. She winced when she saw Xochilt's head
turned in their direction. For a moment she wondered if she should
have let Jordan make good her escape before the other domme had
noticed. Then she shook her head. This was a confrontation that
needed to happen.
In more ways than one.
She watched
while Jordan lit her Marlboro, then wrinkled her nose as she fanned
away the fumes. "You shouldn't smoke, Jordan."
"Why
the hell not?" The tall woman took a deep drag and exhaled out
of the corner of her mouth. "I don't do drugs, I don't drink to
excess, I don't steal, and I even stay close to the goddamn speed
limit. Leave me one goddamn vice, okay?"
"You mean
besides indiscriminate sex?"
Jordan laughed. "I can
be very discriminating in my choices, Tash." She flicked the
ashes from the tip of her cigarette. "I haven't slept with you,
have I?"
"Not yet."
All Jordan could do
was roll her eyes and turn away. She was quiet for a minute, keeping
her back to Tash. The blond let the silence stand, her calmness
bleeding across the empty air between them.
"Do you think
she saw me?"
Tash sighed, knowing exactly who Jordan was
referring to. "Yeah, she did."
"Shit."
Another long drag and a heavy exhale that ended in a sigh. "I
should have stayed home tonight."
"Jordan -- you
need to face her."
"You don't know anything,
Tash."
"I know it eats inside you. I know it's made
you hard - so hard you're brittle. One good blow and you'll
shatter."
Jordan laughed and stabbed out her cigarette
against the wall. "And you think facing her is going to fix me,
huh?"
"Not fix you. You're not broken. But it will
make you stronger."
"So, I'm weak, huh, and anything
that doesn't kill you will make you stronger, isn't that the
cliché?"
"I don't care about cliché’s
or generalities. I care about you." Tash's simple statement was
enough to make Jordan turn to face her. Taking advantage of the
taller woman's surprise, Tash stepped closer, right into Jordan's
space, until the other top was pressed up against the wall, her eyes
wide. "She twisted you up inside, Jordan. She made you think
that you can't show your own vulnerabilities, that you can't be you.
To please her, you became that wall behind you, stone and brick. And
it wasn't enough." Leaning even closer, Tash put her hands on
either side of her friend's head, lowering her voice.
"She
took your power, Jordan."
The brunette's eyes closed and
her head dropped a little. "It was consensual, Tash."
"It
stopped being consensual when she gagged you."
Jordan
winced and lowered her head a little more, her shoulders drooping. "I
told her she could."
"I know." Tash's voices
was soft, but firm. "Jordan, look at me."
Raising
her chin, Jordan opened her eyes. She managed to hold Tash's gaze a
moment before looking away again.
"I said, look at me."
Tash waited until her friend's eyes met hers again. "Why did you
agree to be gagged?"
"I -" Her gaze lowered
again, but Tash grabbed her chin and forced her head back up. "Look
at me and tell me. Why?"
"She said . . . Xochilt
said . . . it would show that I trusted her."
"Did
you?"
Jordan swallowed. "No."
"Then
why did you agree?"
"Because she said if I didn't .
. . she wouldn't . . ."
Tash nodded. "She threatened
to break it off. Do it her way or you don't get what you need. Isn't
that right?" The blond cocked her head to the side. "Is
that what you do, Jordan? Threaten your subs? Blackmail them?"
Anger
flashed in the brunette's eyes. "No. I would never do
that."
Another nod and a smile from Tash. "That's
right. Because you know better than to take someone's power."
The hand holding Jordan's chin moved to the side of her face,
stroking it with the backs of Tash's fingers.
"Power
taken is power stolen. It breaks you down, changes you, makes you
feel weak. It can even turn you away from yourself, make you doubt
what you need, what you want, what you are." She shifted her
hand once more, cupping Jordan's cheek in her palm. "Power given
is power shared. And the sharing of power is like a joining. It
builds you, strengthens you. Gives you the ability to see and know
yourself. It gives you a foundation from which you can grow."
Tash moved forward a few more inches, letting Jordan feel the touch
of her body. "It heals, Jordan. It can heal the wounds inside
you, bring you back to who you are."
She held her
position a moment longer, searching Jordan's eyes. Slowly, but with
confidence, she leaned in and kissed the taller woman, gently but
firmly urging Jordan's lips to part, before fully claiming her
mouth.
When the kiss ended, Jordan stood still, her eyes
closed and her breach coming in quiet gasps. Her body was tingling,
both from the feel of Tash leaning against her, and from the power of
the blonde's kiss.
A very large part of her mind was screaming
in her ear to run and run fast. There was a tremor in her stomach
that had nothing to do with the kiss and everything to do with her
fear.
But she could feel desire as well, and its seductive
song held her in place even though Tash was no longer touching
her.
She opened her eyes to see the blonde standing just a
foot away, her hands in her back pockets, a gentle smile on her
face.
Jordan cleared her throat and turned her face away.
After a deep breath, she reached for her pack of smokes. Tash put a
hand on hers and shook her head.
"Don't. Nicotine is a
drug, and like all other drugs, it dulls your emotions, separates you
from them so you can't feel. It's the same as running." Her gaze
turned serious. "It's time to stop running, Jordan."
After
a moment, Jordan left the pack in her pocket. She ran her hands
through her dark hair and sighed. "Do you know what she
did?"
Tash nodded. "She took you to Trab's bar and
topped you. Humiliated you. Made you crawl. And once you had, she
walked away from you. I heard."
Jordan squeezed her eyes
shut. "Didn't know you knew anyone from there."
"Everyone
knows someone from Trab's. Besides, word gets around." Tash
moved closer to the wall and leaned against it, still facing her
friend. "Magnum was there that night."
"She
was?" The brunette's eyes widened before she looked quickly
away. "She never said . . ."
"Why should she?
You made it clear you didn't want to talk about it."
"What's
to talk about? And why would Magnum want to hear it anyway?"
"Do
you think you're the first one who's ever been humiliated? Or even
the first to have been humiliated by Xochilt?"
"Well,
no, but --" She stopped as the thought hit her. "Magnum?"
Tash
nodded.
"Oh, no. Not a chance. I mean, have you really
seen her? She's --"
"Had to put up with a lot. Had
to learn a lot." The blond shook her head. "Look, most tops
put in some time as bottoms. You did. Otherwise, they don't have any
understanding of what their subs go through, and they could easily go
too far in a scene."
Jordan shrugged and snorted.
"Xochilt didn't."
Tash nodded, soberly. "I
know. That's why she doesn't top people -- she breaks them." She
took a deep breath. "And someone should show her the
difference."
"Right. Like that's going to happen in
my lifetime." Jordan took her lighter out and flicked it
absently.
The blond looked at her closely. "You don't
believe it can happen?" She crossed her arms and tilted her
head. "Anyone can be broken, Jordan." Another shrug was her
only reply. Tash sighed. "Well. We'll just have to see if I
can't change your mind." Reaching out, she took the lighter away
from the brunette and turned to head inside. "Coming?"
By
the time Jordan realized that Tash was leaving, the door was already
half closed behind her. With a curse, Jordan practically ran to catch
the door before it slammed. She slipped inside, spotting Tash
scanning the room. "Tash, what are you doing?"
The
blond turned toward her for just a moment, and even in the vague
shadows of the bar, Jordan saw her wink seductively. Then she was
moving across the floor in fluid strides, purpose in her
step.
Moving towards the one person Jordan didn't want to
see.
Tash took up a position just down the bar from the darker
top. Xochilt was sprawled in her chair, a young woman on her knees in
front of her. Jordan winced when she noticed it was the woman she'd
earlier planned on taking home. The young woman's shirt was already
open and her hands were bound behind her. Her face was still wet with
tears and one could see the red outline of a hand on her cheek.
It
took only a few seconds for Xochilt to turn and notice Tash and her
obviously belligerent stance. The blond had ordered a drink and was
watching the darker top with a derisive grin.
"Something
on your mind, Tash?"
Tash nodded, and her smile turned
more seductive. "You."
Jordan groaned and turned
away.
Xochilt raised an
eyebrow and grinned, rising with confidence. She ignored the young
woman still waiting at her feet and approached Tash.
"Been
thinking about me, have you?"
"Yes." Tash
motioned to Cleo for another drink and waited. Xochilt, obviously
intrigued, took a seat next to her. The blonde top felt like rolling
her eyes when she realized the other woman had left her conquest
still kneeling on the floor.
"Been wanting my
attention?"
With a laugh, Tash shook her head. "You
are arrogant, aren't you." It wasn't a question.
"It's
not arrogance. It's confidence. You should know the difference."
"A
little too confident." When her drink was delivered, Tash met
Cleo's gaze. Motioning with only her eyes, she drew the bartender's
attention to where the girl waited. After a glance at Xochilt, Cleo
nodded to Tash. Moments later she was helping the girl up from the
floor.
"You never answered my question, Tash. Looking for
a little attention?"
Tash's smile was gentle, but
confident. "Are you?"
Xochilt laughed. "More
like looking to give some." She picked up her own drink. "I'd
heard that you sometimes get dommes and subs confused, Tash. Tops
top. Bottoms take what a top dishes. That's it." With a shrug,
she sipped and waited.
The blonde's smile never faltered.
"See, that's what bothers me about this place sometimes.
Everything's so rigid." With a shrug of her own, she met
Xochilt's eyes. "I like it when things are a little more . . .
fluid."
"Fluid." The red head did roll her
eyes. "Next you'll be telling me you believe that bull about the
bottom truly controlling the scene." She threw her drink back
and signaled for another without even looking. Cleo's fellow
bartender obliged. "A true top controls the scene. The bottom
adapts, not the top. You have to be strong, Tash. Not . . . fluid."
Xochilt said the last word in a sarcastic voice, the look on her face
matching her tone.
Tash narrowed her eyes in thought. "Did
you know that a green board is stronger than a dried one?"
Confusion
showed on Xochilt's face. "What are you talking about?"
"Well,
a green board is one that's just been cut from a living tree. It
contains a lot of moisture, while a dried board is, well, dry. And
while a green board is easier to mold into a shape, like for a
guitar, it's also stronger than a dried board."
"Uh-huh."
Sipping from her drink, Xochilt watched the blonde top. "And
this is important, why?"
"Well, it's important in
any discussion of strength. You said a top has to be strong, but not
fluid. And I say there is no strength without fluidity. Without the
ability to adapt, to change the scene to the needs of those involved,
there is no strength in either top or bottom." She shrugged a
little. "I can make the analogy with leather if you
want."
"That's wood and leather."
"It
applies to people as well, Xochilt. And dommes especially." For
the first time in the discussion, she shifted position. "Look, I
can prove it if you want."
"Oh, really. And how do
you propose to do that?"
Tash realized she'd have to be
careful reeling the other domme into the trap. "A contest of
strength. Between you and I."
Xochilt raised an eyebrow.
"What -- you want to arm wrestle or something?"
Laughing,
Tash shook her head. "Maybe another time. I'm not worried about
arm strength; I've seen you swing your whip." She took a last
sip from her drink and pushed it away. "But I've never seen you
take a whip. And that's what I'm talking about. Can you? Can you take
a flogging without breaking? Are you strong enough to accept what you
can dish out?"
Xochilt looked sharply up at this. "I'm
not a bottom, Tash."
"Neither am I, but I can take a
lash. I know that I won't break." She cocked her head to the
side. "Can you say the same?"
"Why would I want
to do that?" The expression on Xochilt's face was cold. "Tops
top, Tash. I swing the whip. Why should I bottom for you?"
Again,
Tash gentled her expression and smiled. "I'm not asking you to
bottom for me. I just want to see this great strength of yours."
She toyed with her glass. "If you show me yours, I'll show you
mine." Knowing it was a corny line, her grin turned coy, and she
glanced up at her fellow top to see if it had worked.
It
had.
Xochilt laughed. "A contest is
it?"
"Absolutely."
"And how do I
win this contest?"
The blond head tilted again. "You
just have to outlast me."
"And what do I
win?"
"Winner gets to top the loser -- in
public."
The red head raised an eyebrow as she watched
the blonde's expression. She felt a flash of indecision, but the
confidence in the other top's smile made her want to wipe away the
hint of arrogance she found there. After a moment she nodded slowly.
"Fine. A contest of strength. And how do you propose we do this?
Whip each other till one of us yells uncle?"
Careful not
to show the triumph she felt inside, Tash shrugged. "Something
like that."
***
After initially turning
away Jordan let her curiosity get the better of her. She found an
empty bar stool and moved it against the back wall, hooking one
booted foot on the rung as she sat down. Then she watched the other
two tops. Their voices had lowered, so she couldn't hear the
conversation, but that was okay. After bottoming for two years for
Xochilt she knew the woman's body language well enough to see
annoyance in the dipping of one shoulder, which turned to interest as
her back straightened. Then came surprise as her shoulders came back
and her heels came off the floor, and finally curiosity as her arms
crossed and her head tilted. Jordan didn't even have to see her face
to know the expression she would have.
Knowing Xochilt the way
she did, she wasn’t surprised that the girl had been left in
position on the floor. Jordan noticed the unspoken command from Tash
to Cleo, and watched the bartender help the girl to a bar stool at
the end of the counter, far away from the two discussing tops. The
fact that Xochilt either didn’t notice or didn’t care was
something Jordan had expected.
Tash, on the other hand, was
somewhat of a mystery. She was turned to face the taller top, giving
Jordan a clear view of her face and eyes, yet there was little hint
to what she was feeling. She'd turned in her seat, her right arm on
the bar and her weight leaning to that side. Her left hand rested
negligently over the back of the bar stool, giving Tash the
appearance of being at ease. She didn't fidget, or drum her fingers,
and when she sipped her from her drink, her hand became still again
afterwards.
Xochilt's hands were never still. Jordan watch the
redheads fingers as they ran circles around the top of her drink,
then drummed silently on her own thigh, before slowly stroking her
chin in contemplation.
Then Tash was smiling a coy smile, and
Xochilt was nodding. Another minute and Xochilt turned to call Cleo,
who went scurrying back to the bar. Tash used that moment to catch
Jordan's eye and wink.
Jordan gave her a hesitant smile.
Cleo
left the bar to carry out her instructions. Soon, Elly, Chevy, and
Magnum had gathered with Tash and Xochilt. Jordan felt a little
embarrassed as she realized that she was the only heavy top in the
bar that had been excluded. It made sense, when she thought about it,
but it still made her feel a little depressed, like she was being
purposely excluded.
When Xochilt glanced towards her, Jordan
swallowed hard. But Tash smiled and shook her head, then met the dark
woman's gaze. She appeared to give the redhead an explanation, which
made Xochilt shrug. The taller top turned her attention from Jordan,
but Tash held the gaze a moment or two longer before turning to the
other women surrounding her.
Not knowing whether to be upset
or not, Jordan felt a small sense of relief pass through her. With no
idea what was happening, she could only sit and wait.
***
"Does everyone understand?"
Tash looked each of her fellow tops in the face. Each of them nodded,
serious expressions on their faces. Elly, her top hat and cane in
hand, shifted her gaze from Tash to Xochilt. Tash turned to look the
redhead in the eye. "Xochilt? Any questions?"
The
taller top glanced back toward Jordan, a half smirk on her face. "I'm
surprised you didn't invite your little pet along."
The
blonde smiled, her gaze drifting toward the dark woman watching at
the back of the club. "There are many lessons to be learned
tonight, and Jordan's is just as important. But hers will come
later." She captured and held Jordan's attention, then looked
back at Xochilt. "Do you have any other questions, or is the
contest acceptable?"
Xochilt raised an eyebrow, but after
a moment she nodded. "I accept your challenge, Tash. Are you
sure you're up to it?" She crossed her arms over her chest. "I
can't wait to correct your attitude and teach you the truth about
tops."
"And what is that truth, Xochilt?" Tash
let herself smile at the other woman's arrogance. "That everyone
who bottoms is strictly a bottom and you're the only top out there?"
The smile became a grin. "Everyone has a bottom inside them
somewhere. Let's go find yours."
Elly raised her eyebrows
and motioned toward the stage. "Ladies?"
The redhead
rolled her eyes, but followed Elly's pointing cane.
Chevy and
Magnum had already set up for the contest. Two spreader bars, wrist
cuffs attached on either end, had been hung from the overhead beams
that covered the stage. Ankle restraints had been set out next to the
eye bolts that protruded from the floor. When secured, the two
contestants would be spread eagled, facing each other.
Tash
let the others get a few steps ahead of her, then motioned to Cleo,
who stepped over quickly.
"Is the girl okay?"
The
bartender nodded. "Her name's Kelly, and she's confused as
hell."
"Take her over to Jordan. Tell Jordan I said
she's to take care of the girl, but no one tops Kelly tonight.
There's going to be too much energy flying for a novice to get
involved."
Another nod, then Cleo headed back to the bar
and Tash moved on to the stage.
***
It seemed to Jordan that
the whole bar had collectively inhaled, but not exhaled, as
preparations began on the stage. When Tash and Xochilt began
disrobing, the inhalation became a gasp, one that she shared with all
the other patrons.
She did have enough sense to note the
gigglers were quickly heading to the exit, and a small part of her
smiled.
The rest of the audience was focused on the stage
where the two tops, now dressed only in their underwear and bras,
were being secured to the cuffs. When Magnum stepped forward to place
a collar around each of their throats, Jordan let her mouth hang
open. She knew the collars were a safety precaution during a
whipping, but the sight of her former tormenter wearing one made her
stomach jump. She couldn't tell if it was from fear or from
excitement.
***
Xochilt glared at Magnum. "Is
the collar really necessary?"
The leather wearing top
just grinned. "I know you only make slaves wear them to remind
them where they belong, but this is a safety collar. Chevy swings a
mean whip, and I wouldn't want her to wrap it around your throat and
do any damage."
The blonde bit her lip to keep from
smiling as Xochilt rolled her eyes and submitted to having the wide
leather collar buckled around her neck. When Magnum stepped over to
put one on her, Tash couldn't resist smiling and winking. Magnum's
grin and wink back were her signs of support for the blonde
top.
***
Jordan was surprised to see Cleo approaching
her, towing behind her Xochilt's earlier prey. Remembering her own
desire to take the girl for the night, she felt a little embarrassed
as the bartender tugged the young woman in front of her.
"Mistress
Jordan, this is Kelly. Kelly, this is Mistress Jordan." As an
aside to the novice, she said just loud enough for Jordan to hear,
"She's a domme, so remember your manners." The girl
flushed, but nodded. Her gaze turned toward Jordan, but never made it
to her eyes.
Cleo leaned over and whispered in Jordan's ear.
"Mistress Tash told me to bring her to you. You're to watch over
her, but no one's to top her. Tash says there's too much energy in
here tonight."
The dark top nodded, her eyes taking in
the frightened stance of the young woman and the nervous way her eyes
kept darting to the stage. "I'll take care of her. Thanks,
Cleo."
The bartender lowered her head, then gave the girl
a hug before heading back to the bar.
Jordan pulled over
another chair and motioned for Kelly to sit in front of her. The girl
hung back a moment, looking worried. After a moment, Jordan reached
out and took her hand.
"It's okay. I'm not going to do
anything. No cuffs, no slapping, nothing. Just sit here. Trust me,
Kelly. You'll be fine."
Her shoulders hunched, but she
slowly edged up to the chair, facing Jordan. Her entire demeanor
reminded the top of a frightened rabbit, and Jordan imagined she
could see the girl's heart beating frantically in her chest.
"No,
don't face me. Just sit." She pushed the chair a little farther
away and patted the seat. "Face the stage."
Kelly
turned around and straddled the seat backwards. The tension in her
was obvious, and she flinched as Jordan pulled the chair closer to
her own and placed a hand on the girl's shoulder.
"Easy.
It's all right." She rubbed the girl's back gently. "Hell
of a night already, huh?" Kelly nodded. "Well, it's gonna
get kind of interesting. But no one will hurt you. I'll watch over
you. You can ask questions and talk to me if you want."
On
the stage, the preparations appeared to be finished. Xochilt and Tash
had been restrained by both ankle and wrist, facing each other.
Jordan estimated that there was less than two feet separating the two
tops. Magnum had stepped aside, but was still on the stage. Chevy had
unclipped her whip and stepped behind Xochilt. Elly was approaching
the microphone.
The voice was so soft Jordan barely heard
it.
"What's happening?"
She leaned forward
and whispered in Kelly's ear. "I don't know, but I think we're
about to be told. Let's see what's up."
***
Elly made sure the microphone was on
and cleared her throat. As she spoke, her very slight English accent
came through.
"Ladies, a good evening to you all. We have
an especially wonderful treat for you this night. There has been a
challenge issued and accepted. The lovely Mistress Tash," she
motioned toward the blonde domme, "has issued a challenge of
strength to the ever so delicious Mistress Xochilt, who has
accepted." There was a definite buzz throughout the room and she
paused a moment to let it die down. "The terms, as agreed upon
by both ladies, are these: The contest is to see who can outlast the
other. Winner will top the loser publicly at a scene to be performed
in the future at Trab's bar. There is no safe word, and the only way
for the contest to end is for one of our contestants to call for
mercy. At that point she becomes the loser, and the challenge is
over."
Again there was a rise in conversation, only for
it to lower again as Elly lifted her hand. "Each of our dommes
will receive constant punishment by either myself or the wonderful
Chevy; Chevy will use her whip and I will wield my cane-"
Someone yelped in the audience and Elly smiled. "Yes, it's nice
to see you too, dear." There was laughter for a moment. "As
I was saying, I will use my cane for the first set, and then switch
to my wooden paddle. Every twenty strokes, Chevy and I will switch
positions, thereby being certain neither contestant receives too much
of a good thing."
She motioned for Magnum to step
forward. The leather dyke did, her arms folded across her chest,
creating an imposing figure.
"Every contest needs a
judge, and ours will be the oh, so charming Magnum. Her job will be
to guarantee fair treatment for both of our ladies, and to confirm
the end of the contest. Any breaks in the competition will be called
by Magnum solely for the purpose of checking the health of everyone
involved." This was something she and Chevy were both grateful
to Tash for remembering. Everyone knew the people receiving
punishment would be in need of attention, but most people forgot that
the top could be just as exhausted.
"Magnum, I believe
all the participants are in place and we are ready?"
Leaning
in toward the microphone, Magnum nodded. "We’re just
waiting for you, Mistress Elly."
Elly beamed. "Then
let the punishment begin." She placed the microphone back on the
stand and moved it aside. Removing her black coat, tail and all, she
took up her cane and bowed to the audience, and then to Magnum, who
took one last look at both contestants, and then at each participant.
"Begin."
As
the first strokes fell, Jordan felt Kelly jump. She squeezed the
shoulder gently, and let her other hand brush through the girl's
hair. "It's all right, Kelly. There's no need to be
afraid."
Kelly turned her head as far as she could
without taking her eyes off the scene. "Is . . . is this . . .
happening because of me?"
Jordan smiled, but shook her
head. Kelly had been rescued from Xochilt's clutches by Tash's
perfectly timed challenge, but the dark top knew it hadn't been the
blonde's main intent. "No, Kelly. I think -- I think it may be
happening because of me."
That brought the young woman's
head around to stare at Jordan, who just smiled, her hand squeezing
the girl's shoulder again. "Just watch. I'll tell you about it
later, if we get time."
Kelly nodded and turned back to
the stage.
Jordan sat back and wondered how and why Tash had
set this up.
She also wondered what would happen between them
if Tash lost.
And what she would owe her blonde friend if the
mighty truly fell.
Xochilt had, in
Elly's words, magnanimously given Tash first choice of which top she
wanted working on her to open the contest. To everyone's surprise,
the blonde had chosen Elly herself. There were two reasons: first,
she knew that Chevy had a seductive way of using her whip to cause
just as much pleasure as pain, and this would cloud her thinking if
she started with such mastery. Pain, on the other hand, would force
her to concentrate on what she wanted to accomplish, rather than what
she was feeling.
The other reason for letting Chevy start on
Xochilt was to let the denim clad top hook into the redhead's libido,
stirring it, even as the pain was accepted. The same hook that Tash
had wanted to avoid, she wanted set firmly in her opponent's
mind.
As the first few strokes fell, Tash worked hard to keep
her eyes open. She let the pain wash over her, accepting it, but
working to convince herself that it wasn't important. What was
important was to watch Xochilt, and keep her focus on the other
woman. The redhead had clenched her teeth and would tense with each
blow. Her hands were tight on the spreader bar, as if she was holding
on for dear life, while Tash concentrated to keep her hands relaxed
and merely curled around the cold metal. As she counted the strokes,
Tash watched, waiting for the opportunity to begin the
seduction.
***
Jordan's eyes, like everyone else's,
were riveted to the stage, but her gaze never rested on one
participant for long. They moved from one player to another, from
Chevy's lazy but powerful swing, to Elly's precise strokes, and from
Tash's open eyes to Xochilt's clenched jaw.
While she knew
there were stylistic differences between the cowboyish Chevy and the
Victorian Elly, it was fascinating to watch the two of them. Elly
stayed in one position, her arm extending back and swinging forward
to bring her long slim cane to bear on her target. Each blow to
Tash's ass appeared to land within an inch of the last; each swing
propelled the blonde victim forward while each back stroke gave her
time to prepare for the next blow.
Chevy, on the other hand,
played Xochilt's back as if it were a canvas that she was painting.
Jordan watched with interest, and a little envy, at how easily the
denim-clad woman uncurled her own body to bring the leather strap
behind her only to bring the whip forward with a whistle, the
followthrough leaving her partially bent forward only to uncurl and
strike again. Each woman seemed unhurried, the strokes falling
slowly, in a measured pace, yet each domme swung at the same time,
with the crack and thud falling merely a millisecond apart.
It
was easy to hear the blows, as the entire club had fallen silent to
watch the spectacle. Even straining her ears, Jordan heard no more
than the clink of ice in glasses or the occasional hushed whisper.
Every other sound came from the stage, from either captor or
captive.
She could hear, now, the quiet gasps that mingled
with the sound of the falling whip and cane. It was almost impossible
to tell which sound came from which bound woman, but Jordan narrowed
her eyes and concentrated on what her eyes could see. From her
position most of Xochilt's face was hidden, with only part of her
profile showing, but Tash's was angled slightly towards her, and
Jordan could see the concentration on the woman's face. She could see
tiny signs of pain, now; occasionally Tash closed her eyes, or pulled
tightly on the bar that kept her hands apart. Every once in a while
the blonde's head would go up and back, and her mouth would open just
a little, as if she was giving a soft gasp. Yet, even as still as the
club was, Jordan couldn't match what she was seeing to the sounds she
was hearing.
Though she couldn't see the redhead's face,
Jordan did notice the rigidness in Xochilt's stance. She was still
holding onto the bar tightly, the tendons in her arms standing out in
relief. As the blows fell, she seemed to pull away, and the muscles
in her jaw would stand out even further. The small gasps Jordan had
been hearing turned to short hisses, and she could match them
perfectly to the squirming off the redheaded top.
There was a
slight tug on her sleeve and her head, if not her attention, turned
to the young woman in front of her.
"That has to hurt,
doesn't it?"
Jordan smiled, her eyes still focused on the
stage and it's players. The voice had been a soft whisper, and she
replied in kind. "Which part?"
"The cane? The
whip would hurt too, but . . ." The girl shivered even as Jordan
stroked a hand down her back in a soothing motion.
Jordan
noticed Tash lean forward and appear to speak to the redhead, but she
couldn't hear the voice.
Refocusing, she glanced at the young
woman practically sitting on her lap. "Each hurts in a different
way. But you knew that, right? Isn't that what you wanted?"
The
girl turned wide eyes on Jordan. "That? No! I . . ." Her
words trailed off as she turned back to the stage. "I . . . I've
never . . . I mean, I've thought about . . . and . . ."
"Shh."
Jordan stroked her back again. "Hush. You and I will talk later.
Right now, just watch, okay?" Pulling the girl a little closer
and softening her whisper, she started telling her about what each
stroke felt like, how there was a small rush of air just before the
blow fell, and how each little pain built on another in a never
ending chain.
***
Letting the silence fill
her mind and still her thoughts, Tash waited and watched. Even as her
mind dealt with the pain of Elly's blows, she noted the clenched jaw
and tense face of her fellow domme. She could hear the faint creak as
Xochilt pulled on the bar over her head. Letting her own pain flow
through her, she opened her mouth to take deep breaths, keeping her
own stance as relaxed as Xochilt's was tense. Tash heard the redhead
begin gasping, saw her start to squirm just a little.
Then she
was tightening her jaw and hissing her breath, and Tash knew it was
time. Taking a tight hold of her bar, she pulled herself forward as
much as she could without moving her feet.
"Open your
mouth." There was no response to her whisper but she kept
trying. "Xochilt, listen to me. Open your mouth. Take deep
breaths. Breathe. Come on. You can do this. Open wide and breathe."
The lips opened a little, but the jaw remained clenched. "Open
your mouth. You're only hurting yourself -- by tensing so hard. Relax
your jaw. Open your mouth to breathe."
The blows stopped
for a moment; it was time for Chevy and Elly to switch sides. Magnum
stepped forward and looked at both bound women. "Tash, are you
all right?"
She nodded and smiled, taking a deep breath
in preparation.
"Xochilt, are you all right?"
The
redhead said nothing but nodded. Her eyes never opened. Magnum leaned
a little closer.
"Tash is right, you know. You need to
breathe better or you'll never get through the cane." Then she
winked at Tash, and moved back to her spot on the stage and motioned
for the two tops to begin again.
The first blow pulled a moan
out of Xochilt. Her head went forward, but she finally opened her
mouth to take a deep breath.
"Good. That's good."
The whip blows moved sensuously down Tash's back, and it wasn't just
the pain she had to put into the back of her mind. "Breathe now.
Deep breaths, Xochilt. In and out, through your mouth. Don't clench.
Just gets worse if you do." She let the next few blows fall
without comment. Xochilt squirmed again, and Tash almost
smiled.
"Hurts, doesn't it?" There was no answer,
but Xochilt's face tightened a little more. She kept her mouth open,
though. "But you're doing well. Breathing through it. That's
good." Tash gave herself a moment to acknowledge the excitement
she was feeling, then promptly ignored it. "Pain is annoying.
But it's not going to kill you. Relax and breathe, Xo. You're doing
so well."
One of Chevy's blows reached around the side of
her chest to just tag her breast, and Tash took a deep breath as a
flash of arousal mixed with the slice of pain. The feeling made her
voice a little deeper, a little more raspy.
"Let the pain
cleanse you, Xochilt." Stroke. "Let it wash through you --
take everything else away." Flash. "Just pain and heat.
Each blow causes pain." Breathe. "Pain throbs -- turns to
heat." Stroke. "Every new pain builds. More pain, more
heat, more sensation." Flash. "Until that's what you are --
what you've become." Breathe. "Just let it happen, Xochilt.
Become the pain. Let the heat melt you."
***
The last stroke of the
set, harder than the rest, caught Tash by surprise, and she gasped,
the first evidence of her pain or discomfort since things had
started. Jordan narrowed her eyes in a sign of sympathy.
Xochilt,
on the other hand, actually cried out, though it was momentary, and
quickly cut off.
The switch between the tops took a moment
longer than last time, as Elly laid aside her cane and picked up a
paddle. She took a few practice swings before stepping back into
place, this time behind Tash as Chevy moved into position behind
Xochilt.
"Are they just gonna keep going?"
Jordan
nodded. "Until someone calls it quits." She hoped like hell
it wouldn't be Tash.
***
The paddle was normally something
Tash had little problem with, but this time it was being applied to
an area already throbbing from the cane. Even so, it was more of a
solid pain than the teasing of Chevy's whip, and she had no problem
putting it aside to concentrate on what she'd started.
She
watched carefully, seeing the look of discomfort ease on Xochilt's
face even as she bit her lip. Tash almost smiled. After the intensity
of the cane, Chevy's whip was a much more sensuous feeling. Even if
it was flitting back over the same territory as earlier, the pain
would be lessened by comparison with Elly's strokes as well as the
buildup of endorphines in Xochilt's body.
But the arousal was
beginning, and that was what Tash was looking for.
"That's
it, Xochilt, relax into the whip. You already took this, you know
what to expect, you know how good it will feel. Let her take you. You
can feel each stroke all the way through your body. It's almost like
she's whipping you from inside, stroking you, filling you with her
whip." Xochilt arched her body backwards after the whip slipped
around to land on her inner thigh. "Good girl. You're doing so
well, just let go and feel."
Tash took a breath,
gathering herself as Elly continued to paddle her. Her own arousal
was growing, but she didn't know if it was from the partly forgotten
feeling of her body being punished, or the pleasure of seeing Xochilt
start to lose herself.
"Open your eyes, Xo. Open them,
come on."
After another moment, the redhead's eyelids
fluttered and finally opened. Her pupils were dilated, and she was
blinking rapidly.
"Good girl. Now, look to your right.
Just turn your head and look."
Carefully, Xochilt did
so.
"You see those people?" Her eyes closed, but
Xochilt nodded. "They're all there for you, Xo. Just for you.
They're watching you, watching as you let go and just feel. Just be
that ball of sensation, Xochilt. They're all out there, and they're
proud of you."
The last stroke of the round fell, and
while Tash felt it as just another solid blow, Xochilt twisted in her
bonds and muffled a cry against her arm as Chevy's blow snaked around
her torso to land fully on one already stiff nipple.
"Easy,
Xo. Breathe. That's it, just breathe."
***
Jordan couldn't help but
notice that Kelly was squirming and looking down at the floor rather
than the spectacle on the stage.
"You okay?"
The
younger woman nodded, but her head stayed down.
"I figure
you're either really turned on or really turned off. Can you tell me
which?"
Kelly turned partway to look at the top behind
her. "Both?"
Jordan smiled. "Turned on, but a
little frightened, and not sure you should be feeling aroused by
this?" A nod. "You're not alone, Kelly. Half the audience
is turned on. The other half is way beyond that." She slipped
her arms around completely around the girl. "Don't feel guilty
for enjoying this. Look at Tash. Every once in a while you can see
just a little smile on her face." Jordan laughed softly. "She's
not feeling guilty, and I can guarantee you she's sharing your
arousal -- or you're sharing hers."
Turning back to look
at the stage, Kelly narrowed her eyes, trying to focus on
Tash.
Jordan smiled and shook her head. Kelly, as she'd
planned earlier in the evening, was hers for the taking. But Tash had
said no, and that was that. Jordan wondered when she had started
taking orders from the blonde top, but didn't question the order
itself.
If nothing else, Jordan knew, Tash had already
conquered one top tonight.
***
They had switched again, and this
time Tash was worried. It seemed to her that Chevy had decreased her
power but was being even more selective in her locations. Time and
again, the whip landed in a sensitive location, and Tash would have
to pause in her monologue.
"It's just pain, Xochilt. You
can get through it. Just--" Tash stopped for a small gasp as
Chevy landed a blow on her inner thigh, very high up. "Just let
it flow through you. Let it fill you."
She swallowed and
tried not to react when she saw a single tear roll down Xochilt's
cheek. "I'm so proud of you, Xo. So proud. So is Elly. She's
smiling. Looks so happy, cause -- you're taking everything -- she has
to give. You're doing well, Xo. It's just pain. Let it flow, baby.
Just let it flow." Listening to her own words, Tash took a deep
breath and tried to let the pain and arousal flow through her.
It
worked only through the next two strokes. Tash hoped she could hold
out until the next switch when the pain of Elly's paddle would cut
through the haze of the arousal starting to fill her body.
But
suddenly, she wasn't so sure.
For the first time, Jordan heard gasps coming from the blonde on
stage, and she frowned slightly. It seemed to her that Chevy had
changed strategy, and instead of a relaxed swing, she was pushing the
pace, giving Tash less time to react and prepare. She was also
landing her blows in much more sensitive places, striking different
areas on the blonde's breasts, and inner thighs. Tash, also for the
first time, seemed to actually be in some physical discomfort, though
her reaction was still less obvious than Xochilt who, by the way her
eyes were squeezed shut, seemed to be on the verge of tears.
Kelly
was still squirming, and her hands were clenched in her lap. Every
few minutes Jordan could feel the young woman's hips move, rocking
forward and back. Then they'd stop, and Kelly would hold herself
rigidly still, as if afraid Jordan had noticed.
Which, of
course, she had.
"Kelly?"
"Yes?"
"You
want to come, don't you?"
The girl froze.
"It's
okay. I can tell. It's okay if you want to. Do you?"
She
got a single solemn nod.
"Then do it."
Kelly
turned to stare at her.
"Do it. Don't be afraid."
Jordan waved a hand at the people around them. "We're in the
back. While this is going on, no one's going to look back here. No
one will see you." With her arms still around the girl, she
squeezed gently. "It's okay. You can do it."
Kelly's
eyes glanced around, her body starting to tremble a little. Then she
shook her head, and whispered, "I can't, Jordan."
There
wasn't a great deal of conviction in the girl's voice, and Jordan
smiled, knowing the indecision that filled Kelly. "Okay. That's
fine. But if you change your mind, that's okay too." She pulled
the younger woman even closer, resting her chin on one thin shoulder.
"If you really want to, if you need to, you can. You know that.
I'll be here to hold you, and you know it'll feel so good. It'll be
so good to just slip your hand in your jeans, reach down with your
fingers. And it would be so hot, watching the stage, feeling yourself
getting wetter with each stroke. It would be so good . . ." She
let her voice trail off in a breathy whisper barely three inches from
the girl's ear.
As the two tops on stage switched position
again, Jordan felt Kelly shift. In the almost silence she could just
hear the lowering zipper of the girl's jeans.
***
Tash
was immediately grateful for the force of Elly's blows. The first one
raised her from the haze, the second one cleared it away, and the
third one helped her focus on her task.
Which was to finish
the seduction of Xochilt before Chevy got another chance to turn the
tables on the blonde.
The redhead seemed to be half heartedly
pulling away from the whip, but also twisting into it. There was a
mixture of sweat and tears on her face, and her teeth continually
worried at her lower lip.
"It's so seductive, isn't it.
Feeling the whip caress you. Letting it make your body sing. It feels
like its sewn your skin to your clit, and each stroke, each touch,
makes it harder to resist."
Xochilt's hips jumped as the
tip of Chevy's whip landed in her crotch.
"That's where
you need it. That's what you want. You want to come, Xo, don't you .
. . you can feel the -- need building. You need to come. You need to
come -- in front of all these people -- don't you?" Tash licked
her lips, letting her own excitement fill her, as Xochilt gave a tiny
nod and tossed her head back. "But you can't come yet. Not yet.
Because you're not ready." She knew she was taking a chance, but
hoped it would pay off. "You're almost there. You just have to
give in. Just let go. Give in, Xo. Then you can come, and it'll be
over. Just give in. Say the word, Xochilt. I'll let you
come."
Another strike on a nipple pulled a sob from the
red head. "That's it. Just give in. You're so close. Say it, Xo.
Say the word."
The audience, sensing the tension was
peaking, began murmuring.
"Listen to them. They want you
-- to let go. They want to see it. Give in, Xochilt. Say the word.
You need to. You're already -- hearing yourself say it. Knowing how
good -- it would feel. If you say it, you can come. It'll all be
over. You can rest. But you need to say it." She heard another
sob from the taller top, saw her twist her hips even as the whip
fell. The count was eighteen.
"Xochilt. Say it now. Say
it now and come."
And on nineteen, her hips rocking
against the air, Xochilt came, screaming for mercy.
Tash
sighed and let her head drop.
***
Jordan could feel the
orgasm building in the slight body she held in her arms. She'd been
alternating between concentrating on the stage, and whispering
encouragement in Kelly's ear, but now that she was close, Jordan knew
she'd need some support to get there, and some approval
afterward.
"Good girl, Kelly. You're so close. Reach for
it. You can do it. Come for me."
There was a buzz in the
crowd, and Jordan looked up to see Xochilt twisting in her bonds. She
almost lost her focus, but kept murmuring, even as she watched the
slow break down of the woman she feared most.
"That's it,
Kelly. Touch yourself and come for me. Come, now."
She
felt the younger woman begin shaking, heard the gasp and cry, felt
the arch of her back.
And heard Xochilt call for mercy at the
same time.
It was over. Tash had won.
Even as she
supported Kelly's limp body and whispered comfort to her, Jordan
watched as Magnum and Chevy stepped up to support Xochilt.
Both
tops were released, but whereas Tash seemed able to stand with a
minimum of support, Xochilt seemed to sag as soon as her wrists were
freed. She was obviously still sobbing, and had seemed to close in on
herself.
"Easy, Kelly. Good job. You did great. Just take
it easy now."
Kelly, too, seemed to close herself off,
pulling her shoulders in and dropping her head in embarrassment.
Jordan reached around and gently pulled her chin to the side so she
could see the girl's face.
"Look at me." After a
moment, Kelly obeyed. "You have nothing to feel ashamed of.
Nothing. Do you understand me?" A nod. "Then stop
pretending to be a turtle and relax." She leaned forward and
gently kissed the younger woman. "You are beautiful and you
deserve all your pleasure. Understood?" Another nod and a
hesitant smile; Jordan winked at her and let the girl rest gently in
her embrace.
The two quietly watched the stage, where Tash was
bending down in front of Xochilt, her hands on either side of the
redhead's face. The blonde appeared to be speaking intently, but
Xochilt, still looking dazed, merely nodded every few moments.
Finally Tash straightened and directed a question to Magnum, who
nodded. The two women shared an easy smile, then Magnum turned toward
the microphone even as Elly and Chevy began helping their two victims
back into their clothes.
"Since I'm judge, I get to make
the announcement." Magnum grinned as she addressed the crowd.
"Tash wins. Be there in two weeks when she'll top Xochilt on
stage at Trab's. And give them both a hand, everybody, that was a
hell of whipping they each took."
The bar seemed to erupt
with cheers and whistles and clapping. When they quieted down, Magnum
spoke again. "Thanks for your patience and support tonight.
Everybody go get drunk or something. Show's over."
There
was laughter and more clapping before the music, which had been
silenced for the stage show, began to pump through the club again.
The crowd, still energized from the scene they'd just witnessed,
headed to the bar or flowed onto the dance floor, where they blocked
Jordan's view of the stage.
Feeling a little awkward, Jordan
simply held Kelly, wondering what was going to happen next. Even
though she couldn't see the stage anymore, she could see the heads of
people, and she noticed Magnum talking to someone off stage and
pointing her direction. A minute later Terence appeared out of the
crowd, carrying two bottles of water.
"Hey Jor."
"Hey
Ter." She took a bottle from the leather clad woman. "This
is Kelly."
"I know, Tash told me." Terence
handed the second bottle to the girl and offered her hand. "Terence.
Good to meet you."
Kelly managed a smile as she wiped her
fingers on her jeans. "Tash knows my name?" Jordan had to
hide a smirk at the embarrassed flush that covered the younger
woman's cheeks as Terence, rather than just shaking, lifted Kelly's
hand and bent over it.
"Tash knows everybody." She
kissed the back of the girl's hand, then took a breath and grinned,
one eyebrow rising to her hairline. "Somebody enjoyed the show,
huh?"
Kelly's head dropped and she pulled her hand back,
her shoulders closing in again. Jordan remembered why she could only
take so much of Terence. "That's enough. Kelly's off limits.
Tash's rule."
Terence shrugged. "It's cool. Besides,
I come with a message from the winner."
"So give me
the message and get lost."
"Easy now, don't get all
on edge. Though if the little one got off and you didn't, well
--"
Jordan started to rise, reaching for her
whip.
"Anyway, Tash said you're to wait here for her.
Drink your water, relax, and wait." She shrugged again. "Don't
ask me why. She just said to tell you that." Ter grinned again.
"But I gotta go. Mags and Tash and Chevy were talkin' and I
think Mags and I're takin' Xochilt home, if you know what I mean."
She tilted her head and squinted at Jordan. "Maybe I'll make her
squeal like you did that night --"
"Or maybe you'll
be the one squealing."
Jordan was bristling with anger,
but she had seen Magnum coming up behind her submissive, and managed
to force herself into her chair. Now she merely raised an eyebrow at
the leather clad top. "Getting a little mouthy, isn't
she?"
After throwing an evil look at Jordan, Terence
looked at the floor before glancing at her top. "I'm sorry,
Ma--"
"Shut up. Out to the bike with you. You and my
whip are gonna have a long talk tonight about your manners."
"But
--"
"Go, or you'll spend the night on floor."
Not
looking at anyone, Terence left. Jordan watched her, anger and
embarrassment at war inside. She had heard from Tash that Magnum was
there that night; she hadn't even considered that Terence would have
been with her.
"Sorry, Jordan. Her ego's gotten a bit
bigger since I let her do a few scenes on her own."
Jordan
shrugged and uncapped her bottle. Just before she drank, she looked
at Magnum. "Is it true? Tash asked you to take Xochilt home
tonight?"
Magnum shook her head. "She was gonna, but
I told her that would be a bad idea with Terence's new schtick.
Chevy's takin' her home. Tash doesn't want Xo alone
tonight."
"Sounds like Tash."
"Sounds
like a good idea, too. She's really wiped out." Magnum glanced
at the younger woman. "Kelly, huh?"
Kelly nodded,
but didn't say anything.
"Kelly, this is Magnum. She's a
top, so be nice." She leaned forward and whispered. "Terence
is just a bossy sub, so you don't have to be nice to her. Ever."
"I
heard that." Magnum grinned at Kelly. "Jordan's just a
pain, don't listen to her."
"Ah, bite me,
Mag."
"Jordan, don't tease the top." Tash, her
face still a bit flushed, but a smile on her face, stepped up beside
Magnum. "You might not like the results."
Jordan
lowered her head, the implication in Tash's words hitting her full
force.
With a smile, Tash held out a hand to Kelly. "Hi,
Kelly. It's good to meet you."
Kelly tensed, and Jordan
felt her insecurity take control. She nudged the younger woman and
whispered again, this time quietly. "It's okay, Kel. You're
safe."
Slowly, the younger woman put her hand in Tash's,
watching the top's fingers close gently around it. Tash gave a slight
tug. "Come on. Let's talk for a moment, just you and me,
okay?"
Nodding, Kelly turned, trying to get off the
stool. She'd forgotten how little room there was between the two
chairs, however, and nearly fell until Jordan put a steadying hand on
her back. "Easy, Kelly. Hang on." Jordan pushed Kelly's
chair forward, and the girl smiled gratefully at her as she climbed
down and once again took Tash's outstretched hand.
Jordan
leaned back, arms folded across her chest, watching as Tash lifted
Kelly's chin so she could look into the girl's eyes. There was
obvious awe and admiration on Kelly's face, and Jordan realized that
Tash would be the perfect top to bring Kelly into the scene. That
extraordinary aura of calm that surrounded the blonde would carry the
young girl through the first steps of pain and pleasure, teaching her
to find solace in the whip and love in restraint. For a moment, she
was jealous; then it disappeared as Tash glanced at her and
smiled.
"Tash is a beautiful woman, isn't
she?"
Startled, Jordan turned her head to find Magnum
looking at her with a small smile. She'd forgotten the other top was
there.
"Yeah. Tash is beautiful." Jordan lowered her
head, not certain of her own standing with Magnum.
"Yeah.
And a hell of a domme." She grinned. "Chevy and Elly didn't
top Xo tonight. Tash did."
Jordan's eyebrow rose.
"I
know. She was getting whipped too, but you know how calm she is. She
barely showed anything until the end. And all the way through, she
just kept goading Xochilt, talking to her, about pain, about arousal,
about being filled. When Xochilt came it wasn't just cause of Chevy's
whip; it was Tash's voice." She paused and grinned. "Hell,
by that time I was ready to come just from hearing her
voice."
Jordan nodded. She'd heard that voice earlier in
the evening and knew how mesmerizing it could be. And how
arousing.
"Listen, Jordan." Magnum moved a little
closer. "I was there that night. At Trab's. And I want you to
know, you don't need to feel any shame about it."
This
time the dark head went down. "I --"
"You
nothing. Jordan, Xochilt was wrong, not you." She gently put a
hand on Jordan's shoulder. "And I've got a lot of respect for
you making it through. Like Tash says, anyone can be broken, but not
everyone can stand up afterwards and walk away, and that's what you
did. You shouldn't be ashamed of that night, Jor. You should be
proud."
Her eyes closed, Jordan still felt lightheaded as
she listened to Magnum. Part of her was flying high, feeling proud
that she had earned the top's respect. Another part, however, was
feeling shame for a totally different reason. Tears dripped from
under her eyelashes as she raised her head."Mag, I'm not a
top."
Magnum chuckled. "No. You're not a pure top,
Jor."
Jordan flinched slightly, remembering how many
times she'd gotten angry and been insulted when someone had simply
implied that.
"But I never thought you were purely a top,
and you were NEVER a bottom."
Dark eyes opened, letting
more tears spill down her cheeks. "What are --"
Holding
a finger to Jordan's lips, Magnum silenced her. "You're a
switch, Jor. At least, that's what you should have been." She
sighed, glancing toward the door. "It's what I've been trying to
teach Terence to be, but each time I give her a little taste of power
she tries to use it to hurt people. I think maybe I should just keep
her as a bottom." Looking back at Jordan, her mouth turned in a
crooked grin. "Sorry, thinking out loud. You? You're a natural
switch. You love to bottom, but you have a natural ability to put
people at ease and make them trust you. Look how easily you took
Kelly in." The grin turned slightly evil. "Even I could
smell pussy on the girl's fingers; I'm just not as crude about it as
Terence was."
Jordan smiled and wiped her eyes. "I
swore I'd never bottom again."
Magnum shrugged. "So?
Just think of it as a gift. Something you'd only give to someone you
absolutely trusted. Someone you find beautiful. Someone -- who can
top you with her voice." She nodded over to where Tash was
hugging Kelly, who clung to her. "That would be a mighty
precious gift. And I know someone who would cherish it."
As
Jordan watched, Tash pulled back from her hug with Kelly and reached
up to wipe tears from the girl's eyes. Moving slowly, the blonde
leaned forward and kissed the girl, her hands cupping her cheeks
while Kelly's landed on Tash's hips.
When they broke apart,
Kelly's eyes stayed closed, and she was smiling. Tash laughed and
kissed her forehead. She left the girl leaning up against the wall,
and walked back over to where Jordan and Magnum waited.
"Mag,
thanks for all your help tonight."
Taking the offered
hand, Magnum bowed slightly and kissed Tash's fingers. "It was
my pleasure." She stood. "I feel like I've been takin'
lessons from Elly. I gotta get outta here before I start thinking a
top hat looks good on me." She moved forward to hug Tash, then
turned to Jordan. "Think about what I said. No shame, my
friend."
Jordan nodded, and shook her friend's hand.
"Night, Mag. Whip Terence good for me." She winked and got
a cuff to the side of her head before Magnum left.
Then it was
her and Tash facing each other.
"You okay, Tash?"
The
blonde smiled. "Yeah. I'm fine. Don't know that I'll sit
comfortably for a few days, but I'm okay."
Jordan nodded.
"I hear Elly swings a mean cane."
Tash raised an
eyebrow. "You've never been caned?"
"Oh, I
have. Just not by Elly."
"Uh-huh." The blonde
took a long look at Jordan. "Thanks for watching over Kelly. I
was worried about her. A novice in here on a night when there's a top
showdown -- that could have been dangerous for her. A lot of energy
flying around." She paused. "I hear you talked her into
touching herself. Is that true?"
The tall woman squirmed.
"Well, she wanted to. It wasn't a bad thing. I just encouraged;
I wouldn't call it talking her in to . . ." She saw one blonde
eyebrow rise. "Okay, fine, yeah, I did. Is there a problem with
that?"
Tash crossed her arms, a serious look on her face,
though Jordan could still see a smile twinkling in her eyes. "I
said no one was to top her. Wouldn't you say that's what you did in a
way?"
"I -- well, no . . . I never touched
her."
"But you coerced. You manipulated. You used
her arousal against her." Tash tilted her head. "You used
the energy between the two of you to get her off. Isn't that what
tops do?"
"I --" Jordan stopped to consider.
"Okay, when you put it like that . . ."
"So you
admit you disobeyed me?"
"Um . . ."
Tash
pulled her wallet out and took a card from it. She handed it to
Jordan. "This is my address. You'll be there for punishment
tomorrow night, eight o'clock. Don't be late." She put her
wallet away. "For the rest of the night, I want you to talk to
Kelly. No touching, for either of you. Not each other, not even
yourselves. No topping. Is that clear?" Jordan nodded. "Take
her somewhere for coffee. Talk to her, answer questions, tell her
about you. And about Xochilt." Her head tilted again. "Tell
her the story you don't want to tell anyone, Jordan. And don't think
I won't know if you don't because I will. Understood?"
Jordan
nodded again, still looking back and forth between the card in her
hand and the woman in front of her. "I -- will." Carefully,
she put the card into her front pocket, pulling her hand back out
slowly. "Should I bring anything tomorrow?"
"Just
you." Tash turned to walk away, then turned back. "And
Jordan?"
"Yes?"
"No smoking. Not
tonight, not tomorrow, not tomorrow night. Smoking keeps you from
having to feel things, and I want you to face everything you're
feeling. No running, no hiding, no smoking. I'll know if you smoke,
I'll see it in your eyes, I'll smell it on your skin, and I won't
even let you inside." She cocked her head. "You can face
everything you feel and get everything you want, and need -- or you
can keep blowing smoke up your own ass to hide from what you really
want." Tash shrugged. "Your choice, Jordan."
Then
she turned and left. Jordan watched until the door to the club closed
behind her.
***
Glancing at the horizon, she could see
light starting to pierce the dark sky. It would take a while for the
sun to fully appear, but already the few stars you could see from New
York were winking out in the brightening dawn.
She would have
expected such a night to end with a bang, but it hadn't. It had ended
with a long conversation, a pot of coffee, and breakfast at Denny's
with Kelly.
The two had parted as friends, and maybe something
more was starting. Jordan felt uncertain about a lot of things, and
Kelly was one of them.
Tash was another.
Absently she
took out a cigarette and only noticed what she was doing when the
smell of the lighter hit her nose. She jerked the flame away before
it actually touched the tobacco. Angry at herself, she pulled her arm
back and heaved the lighter out into the dark of the early
morning.
She never heard it land, nor the cigarettes that she
pitched after the lighter.
For some reason she felt freer. She
knew it would be a long day, and she'd probably have to start looking
for nicotine patches or gum or something, but she'd now gone almost
six hours since that last cigarette on the back porch of Siren's, and
she wasn't feeling too many ill effects yet.
Besides, Tash had
given her an order.
As she started down the stairwell from the
roof to the top floor, she thought about how one night could change
things. At the beginning of the evening she'd been certain in her own
status as a top, certain in her fear of Xochilt, certain that she
should stay away from Tash. Now she was wondering what her own status
truly was, and had watched the mighty Xochilt fall, not to a whip,
but to the sound of Tash's voice. Strangest of all, Jordan was hoping
to experience that same fall.
She took the elevator back down,
passing members of the cleaning crew as she got off the conveyance.
Stopping by the lobby, she waved at the security desk and Tony, then
headed through the door.
Getting to her bike, she stopped and
stared. Her cigarettes had landed directly in front of the
motorcycle. The top had flipped open and several white sticks stuck
out the top like little hard ons.
With a small smile she
stepped past them and got on the bike. Gunning the engine before
backing up, she glanced back one last time.
Then she put the
bike in gear.
After all, there was much to do before showing
up at Tash's that evening. First a good sleep, then maybe a hair
trim, a new pair of pants.
And a gift for her new top.
A
shiver of anticipation ran down her spine, and she accelerated into
the growing light.
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