The Last Story
By Leapr
Copyright March 1998- Revisied edition April 23, 1999. The day before
my birthday.
Disclaimer: Xena, Gabrielle, and Argo belong to UNIVERSAL/MCA and RENAISSANCE PICTURES.
Author's Note: Hello, I wanted to take this opportunity to thank all the people who wrote to me, encouraging me to write another story after I had posted "My Heart's Desire". I only hope not to have disappointed anyone. I think this would fall into the "Romantic Friendship" premise.
Second Note: It's April 23rd, 1999 and well, I happened upon this story of mine, and I decided I didn't quite like it as much as I did when I wrote it. There are things about it that needed to be changed, and thanks to the help of my editor for another story which we worked together on for 6 months, I can now 'see' that I needed to improve the story. Let me know if it 'reads' any better. Leapr.Spoilers for the following episodes, "Sins Of The Past", "One Against An Army", "Maternal Instinct", "The Quest", and "Bitter Suite."
I probably won't live to see the end of this day but, I wouldn't change anything that has happened to me over the years.
Some have said that I was a little girl trying to live out an adventure, that I didn't know what I was doing or 'who' I traveled with.
They're wrong...
I knew the moment I saw her...
I 'knew' I had to leave my home and follow her, I wasn't sure whether or not she'd let me.
I thank the Gods up to this very 'day', that I decided to follow her despite her steadfast refusal.
We'd talked about it, or rather I'd talked and she'd listened.
It's such a wonderous thing, the memory of our first meeting.
Yes, it was frightening, but, it was the beginning of a new life for me...
For us.
When I recovered from the poison in my system, she told me what I had said.
I had gone back to that time of our first encounter and once again tried to persuade her to 'take me with you'.
She really didn't want to go over it again, I think it was hard for her to show her feelings.
So, I didn't ask anymore.
I will treasure that time...
Trapped you might say, in that Gods forsaken place.
The Persians outside...
Waiting to attack.
Yes...
I was close to dying...
We both were.
But, it was during that time that she told me she loved me, that I was her family, her best friend...
I know, I know...
There have been other times when we have said that to each other, at least the 'I love you' part.
This was special...
'Why' you ask?
She said it FIRST.
Of all the times...
Of all the experiences we have had, that will remain engraved...
In my heart...
My mind...
My soul.
No one can take that from me.
Not even Hades, who I expect to see shortly...
What?
What did you ask...?
Oh, do I expect to see her?
YEAH... I do, I believe that with ALL my heart.
If she isn't there?
Well, I suppose I'd just have to go looking for her.
Why do you seemed suprised to hear that?
Of course it hurt.
The trust we had for one another was put to the severest test I know.
I still blame myself, I should have...
No, that's in the past...
A long time ago.
Another lifetime, you might say.
We hurt each other, badly.
My heart felt as if it had been wrenched out of me.
I had never felt so much pain, my soul had been torn in half.
I can't tell you what it was like to see her face, after we both stood up.
It still hurts me when I think of what we did to each other that day...
I thought I had seen the face of the Warrior Princess before, with the Horde.
Yet, nothing, nothing could have prepared me for the look she gave me.
It was as if she were saying, "Come ON... is that the best you could do?"
It's true what I've heard said, 'You always hurt the one you love the most'.
I wish it wasn't true.
Oh... I'm alright. I just... I feel cold.
I can say that I have never seen that face, since that day.
Wow, just trying to catch my breath...
Could I have some water?
My mouth seems very dry all of a sudden.
Thank you.
I'm not keeping you am I?
No... good.
OF COURSE I LOVED HER.
She... she... didn't want to go.
I told her it was okay.
It was...
Is the hardest thing I've ever said.
Can I have some more water please?
That's better.
No... it's alright.
We were traveling, walking side by side.
I loved that, I could see her so much better that way.
I was telling her a new story I was working on...
We were both laughing, enjoying the moment. It was a beautiful day, it had been raining a few days before. The air was crisp, the birds were chirping, it was glorious, I didn't think...
What?
Why am I shaking my head?
It's just... I... I still blame myself.
I should have been able to 'do' something...
You might have heard stories about that day.
I've heard them too...
I can't...
I can't tell what happened...
It
Hurts.
I know...
You're right...
It is time...
What happened?
Sorry, didn't mean to pass out...
No, I'm fine, thank you.
Yes, I can continue.
I hadn't noticed how quiet she had become, not until I heard her calling my name.
I always did love how she said my name...
Unless she was mad at me.
I turned around and saw these men...
No, they don't deserve to be called men...
Oh...
I've must have been out longer than I thought, it's awfully dark out tonight.
What?
Oh, yes, the men. There weren't that many. I... I wasn't even in the fight, she told me to watch her back that she'd take care of them.
Like she always did.
It was over in a few minutes, I never did see how she was injured.
When the last man ran away, I was laughing...
Laughing, saying, "You'd better chose better oppenents next time... ha"
Useless tears, that's all they are.
It still hurts to think about it.
After all these years...
She turned to me...
"XENA!!"
I ran to her, I saw the blood.
Gods... it was pouring out of her...
I couldn't stop it...
I tried...
PLEASE, you have to believe me I tried...
"Xena? Xena... how do I stop it...tell me," I pleaded with her, trying to staunch the flow of blood leaving her body.
I was panicing, there was so much blood.
I ripped my skirt, taking the torn cloth and putting it on the wound.
It wouldn't stop.
"No time... I'm so sorry," she said, her eyes locked on mine.
"Sorry?"
"My promise..."
It dawned on me, she was going to leave me...
I saw her struggling so hard, I couldn't stand it.
I knew I had to release her from her promise, that I had to let her go...
OH GODS...
She was coughing up blood...
She didn't have much time...
She was using the last moments of her life to tell me 'she' was sorry.
My tears were blinding me..
"It's okay Xena, it's okay," I said as I stroked her hair.
I could see the relief in her eyes...
"Love you... other side," she whipsered.
"I love you too... until the other side," I told her as I kissed her on the lips.
That's when she left, she gasped one last time, as if trying to hold death off, then she was gone.
I don't know how long I stayed there.
I was told later, that some travelers came across us, and that I was just rocking her, like a babe.
I don't remember much after that, I can still see her, hear her. It's like she never really left me.
Yes, I think I will rest.
I'm really very tired.
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Xena?
Where have you been?
Waiting for me?
Yeah, I'm ready to go.
Oh, it's Argo! Hello girl, I haven't seen you in such a long time...
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My name is Celesta, come with me, I have a tale for you.
One of a Warrior Princess...
A Bard...
And of a love that lasted an eternity.