Disjointed thoughts run through my head;

I don’t know how to stop them.

Twisted visions come unbidden.

I shake my head, blinking, but they remain.

Weird multicolored dreams disrupt my sleep.

I have no feelings of ending it,

I just want the pain to stop.

I want this macabre merry-go-round

to ground to halt,

the atonal music to still.

Inner peace is what I seek;

Calm silence what I yearn for.

I will have to dream it.

Adrift on a leaf-shaped boat

upon a placid sea,

the only sound the gentle lapping

of the water against the sides.

Floating serenely toward my haven,

I close my eyes and relax into reverie.

Ah.

Escape.

Ellie

1/15/01