Only In My Dreams
The mists surround me, and nothing is clear
Carefully placing one foot in front of the other
Slowly I make my way forward in this strange place
Though forward to where, I do not know
How I came to be here,
I do not remember
But here I am, alone...and afraid
I hear the sounds of the creatures of this place
But they are muted, as if from far away
I see movement all around me
But one shadow just blends into another
I feel as if I am being watched
And yet I see no one, I see no thing
I continue on, drawn to some unknown destination
The pull is strong, and I succumb to it
But am I being pulled to my destruction
Or perhaps, to my salvation...I cannot say
I know only that I must arrive soon
The sense of urgency overshadows all else
What awaits me, I can only imagine
My mind runs rampant with the possibilities
But I know not what I shall find
Only that I must find it
Every fiber of my being cries out in desperation
Never have I felt such a need
But a need for what...for whom?
The mists seem to dissipate
And I see the outline of a form
I cannot discern any features, though it's a man surely
He remains cloaked in the anonymity of the mists
And yet I know I have reached my destination
My heart almost leaps from my chest
In excitement, in fear...in affinity
I move towards him as if in a dream
He awaits me, arms outstretched
As our hands touch I feel a completeness
The kind only dreamt of in one's wildest fantasies
I take a step closer, and his arms engulf me
And I am at peace, I am safe...I am home
And I want only to stay here in this haven forever
And as I bask in the glow of contentment and love
I am jarred by a loud, discordant noise
And as I struggle to hold on to my soulmate
The sound of the alarm drags me inexorably
Fighting against it with every ounce of my being
Back into wakefulness, back into reality
And as I rise to greet the day
I want nothing more that that it be night time again
So that once more I may return to my destiny
To the other half of my soul
To my love, who exists only in my dreams
Terri Lyn Stanfield